Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Yeah, miss secret!!! U have been away from mylot for such a long long long long long time, u know!! I'm missing u so much from the day u went away.. hehe^_^ How have u been and how's life for u?? So glad to see u again, especially when u are th first person in this post

YEah, the whole phrase actually a song name, but i forgotten who's the actual singer too.. haha=D Yup, many of us have taken the word 'sorry' for granted and yet there are ple whom actually see it as a form of pride or even ego, by refusing to say it.. haha=D

BUt then aagin, it take courage to say the word 'sorry' as well.. Because if we dun it in the right way or respectful way, we will be deemed as not being sincere, and thus causing something else to happen instead.. hehe^_^

i'm doing fine thanks.^^ well, at this moment that i'm writing this, my eyes are swollen because of allergies. i took a pain reliever this morning and this afternoon and it seemed like i'm allergic to it.^^;; i hope it will be gone tomorrow morning coz i'll be going to work. but, all in all, i'm good. enjoying life as usual. i took off from myLot coz i've been busy and my interests just got wider. i've been spending my internet time on watching a lot of movies and Japanese dramas and animes.^^;; and there's the thing with myLot not paying through moneybookers anymore. i had to get a paypal account but since i don't have a credit card, i can't verify it so i had to be sure i still can get my money even if my account is not verified.^^

Did u eat eggs or egg related things?? hehe^_^ U mean u are allergic to the cream as well?? IF so, i think it's better to change to other brands instead^_^

Looks like u are quite busy with your new interest huh?? Anything new to share then?? hehe^_^ What japanese dramas are u on now, as well as anime?? hehe^_^ YEah, mylot is no longer paying thru moneybookers, which makes it harder for u too:(

How about u give me your email?? So that i wont lose your contact for i do cherish u this fren^_^

i am allergic to the pain reliever i took. actually i'm allergic to a few pain relievers and some anti-bacterial meds too. that's why i don't like getting sick. its hard to find meds that are suitable for me. and yes, i'm allergic to eggs and chicken and anything with chicken and eggs.

i'm watching ryusei no kizuna (meteor bonds) which is a Japanese drama that stars one of the members of the Japanese boyband Arashi, if you know them. i'm also watching other J-dramas like Konkatsu, Hancho, and The Quiz show too. as for animes, i'm watching the anime Bleach and 07-ghost, and watching again Magic Knight Rayearth.

also i'm watching some foreign series like Heroes and Charmed. i just finished watching the latest season of Supernatural and Lost.^^ hey, do you know the movie CJ7? i want to watch it but i still haven't find a dvd of it nor a torrent to download it.

here's my email, lenlen_akizuki@yahoo.com^^

Wow, looks like u are really allergic to quite alot of things huh?? From food even to medication?? Looks like u have to take better care of yourself^_^ And if u managed to find any medication that's suitable for u, it's better to buy a few more to standby, just in case ya^_^

U have such a wide range of things to watch.. hehe^_^ Of all the above u mentioned, i do only know about 'bleach' because it's quite popular now, even though i dun watch it too.. haha=D Well, lost and supernatural are nice, but i still prefer only season 1 and not more.. hehe^_^

Nope, i have not watched Cj7 yet too, because i found it too childish.. lol=D Maybe u can try youtube?? Anyway, i think there's a sequel to CJ7 coming out soon.. haha=D

Thanks for the email address^_^

i'm even allergic to dusts sometimes.^^;; yeah, i do keep medicines for emergencies. sometimes i would wake up at night sneezing and it would go for like half an hour before it would stop and i can finally go to sleep again.

i don't know the story of CJ7 actually and i just wanted to watch it because of Stephen Chow. i thought it would be a comedy with some action and sci-fi.

Your allergy seems really bad huh?? I'm actually quite surprise by it all, u know.. hehe^_^ U have a strong life, i must say and agree I hate waking up in the night and not be able to fall back to sleep immediately.. I just dun like that kind of irritating feeling too.. haha=D

CJ7 is not really a comedy movie.. It's more like sci fi with some sort of humour in it.. There are so many movies starring stephen chow, have u watched them all, just like jet li?? lol=D

Doing fine, thanks^_^ How are u getting on too?? I was waiting for your response here.. hehe^_^ well, that's good for u as well as lucky for those ple around u^_^ Because saying sorry actually takes alot of courage, as it means admitting to one's fault in misunderstanding or miscommunication etc^_^

There are many ple whom has got the courage to do lots of things, but they dare not even say a simple sorry.. hehe^_^ Good for u

Hi.. sory about my late response, I was so extremely busy . Don't worry as long as the email notifs is good, I won't miss your discussion ..

lol=D Even if the notification fails u, i will be sure to PM u about my new post too^_^ hehe

lol=D THough i'm not a person to say sorry easily, but i often say it in the wrong timing whereby i'm not in the fault at all.. lol=D

Yeah, when sorry becomes too common from a particular person, it actually becomes quite worthless and unsincere as it does not mean anything to the person whom says it.. So, when we are at the receiving end, how good will we really feel?? I just think that i will just much worse than before.. lol=D

Well, i'm different from u in this sense, as long as someone is willing to say sorry or feel guilty for their mis-doings, i will forgive them^_^ haha=D

You have a kind heart, bro..
Alright, I'll try to change method. I can forgive, but cannot forget..how's that..

I forgive, i forget, i forgive, i forget.. lol=D This is what i seen from a chinese movie.. lol=D

Well, forgiving is better than anything else in the world^_^

I agree..
Bro, you play Twitter or not..follow me, or give me your link aite..if you have any.

Forgive and forget are like siblings..

haha=D I find it true in a way too^_^ Sorry bro, i dun have any twitter account.. hehe

No problem, bro..
We are cool.. . Alright, sorry morning madness..

Yeah yeah, i guess most ple will react in the same way as u, especially when we have put in alot of effort in certain things, only be to accused of something else.. It's a natural instinct that u have, to fight back immediately.. Because if we dun, we might lose the chance even though we are not really at fault..

However, if it's really our fault, it's never too late to say sorry, for it shows that we do think as well^_^ we do have a humble side of us, just that we are not thinking right earlier on^_^

YEah, nice comparison and example u have stated here.. Very seldom, we ger to hear someone who's of a higher status or older age, saying sorry to ple whom are below them.. I guess, they think that they have the right to say anything or do anything they want, and yet not feel remorseful at all.. However, that's very wrong..

It's good that u are teeaching your son well, and i believe, he knows what respect is all about^_^

lol=D Well, u are not alone in the sense^_^ MOst of us do apologize on those small matters, and sorry seems to come out from us, so easily.. But when it comes to admitting our mistakes or whatever, we tend to feel shy, and no matter how courageous one is, they will find it hard to say 'sorry'.. lol=D

Maybe u are right, guilt does play a part in stopping us from saying the magic word I dunno how to explain it, but somehow i feel that guilt has got something to do with it.. lol=D

Because u are someone who's full of love and that's why u need not say it as much as u are showing it.. lol=D

haha...its also maybe because 'sorry' is not really enough...
i don't know. coz i remember when someone sinned on me...as in something that really breaks my heart...i feel like his sorry is not enough! hehehe and when i hear him saying sorry, what i want to do is slap his face or throw something on his face! hahaha coz even if he's sincere upon saying that...i feel like its really not enough! huh! and so that's also what i feel whenever i commit a big mistake...i feel like my sorry is not enough...

actually i don't know if that's right...coz i remember my husband, when we are still bf/gf saying that i am a girl that is not sweet! hahaha coz i don't often say those sweet words and i don't also often do those sweet things! hehehe

haha=D Sometimes a simple sorry might not really be enough, but still we should say it as we are the ones causing it.. No matter what, saying sorry is a way of admitting to our mistakes, rather than keeping quiet right?? hehe

Though sorry at that time might not be able to apppease us at that time, but once we have cooled down, we will start to accept it, if they are really sincere on their apology^_^

Maybe u are not too used to being sweet?? oR rather, your husband is used to be being pampered on sweetness by his exes?? lol=D

well yes, the word 'sorry' is the starting point of being sorry...hehehe
coz when we are hurting, anything that the person who have hurt us is saying is wrong for us...anything that he said will not do anything for me...the best thing to do is just give a little space...let the other one cool down an then talk again on the other time...i don't know if that's good for you, but for me its okay...hehehe

well i don't know how sweet his exes are..but on my part, its only because he's my first bf and so i have no idea on how to be in a relationship...hehehe

hehe^_^ Yeah, it's always good to cool down, before reflecting on the happenings again.. ONce we start to analyse properly, we might even think the other party is not totally at fault^_^ Thus, with the 'sorry' said by them, it tends to make us feel much better.. hehe

Even if he's your first, he should have taught u how to be sweet.. hehe^_^ OR maybe, just treat him in the same way as he's treating u... THat should be sweet enough

but there are times that just the word sorry is enough to forgive someone! hehehe

oh well, i guess we are just the same, coz he's also not that sweete! hahaha so how can he teach me when he is not like that also? huh!
but good thing that little by little we learn to be sweet in our own ways...hahahah

Yeah, it all boils down to the seriousness of happenings.. hehe^_^ as long as there's a 'sorry', all things will turn out better in the end.. hehe

haha=D I think, he's already quite sweet to u in his feelings.. If u think he's not sweet enough, get him to learn from me then!! lol

hehehe...why send him to you? do you have a school for sweetness? hahaha

well i guess sorry is really one of the most powerful word...

hehe^_^ yeah, i do have a school of sweet and i'm a teacher of sweetness.. lol=D By time he goes back to u, he will have a sweet tooth for things, as well as being too sweet to resist.. lol=D

haha...really? maybe by that time that he comes back...he will be accompanied by lots of ants! hehehe

and you beware, ants might attack you and your school of sweetness!

lol=D ANts wont attack me for sure, because i'm their master.. Without me, it means no food for them.. lol=D Thus, i'm training your hubby to be their food instead.. lol=D

haha...you are their master? huh!

oh no...if my husband will be attacked by ants? then what will happen to me after that? hehehe...well i guess after attending your school of sweetness, i will buy this thing that will avoid ants from going into him! hahaha

lol=D Since i'm the master, it's naturally that u are the mistress!!! THus, u need not worry about being bitten.. Ants will only be biting all the bad guys!! haha

bad guys? hahaha

then, beware!! hehehe no, just kidding!

So, that will make your hubby a bad guy too!! lol=D IS he one?? hehe

hahha..he's not bad...i am! hahhaa

U are 'not bad'!! U'r 'really good'.. hehe^_^ YOur hubby is not that bad either, while i guess i should be the worst among all of us!! lol=D

hahaha...so its bad, worse and worst! hahaha
hmmmm i think its better than the good, the bad,and the ugly! hehehehe

lol=D Then, who's the pretty, kind and good?? lol=D U are pretty, but are u as kind and good?? hehe^_^

haha...am i? i think im the kind and good?!
and who's pretty?! hahhaa

I think, kind, pretty and good, all belongs to a single person.. IT's definitely not u for sure, as your name, does not have RAIN, nor SEA, in it.. lol=D

ONly 1 person in my life, has got both of my most loved things in her name, and thus she deserves the title, of being kind, pretty and good.. hehe^_^

Kind because, rain brings life to droughts..
Pretty because, sea view is always nice and lovely..
Good because, both of them are water, and i love water!! hehe

haha...even if i don't have that 'rain' or 'sea' on my name...at least i have 'CK' hahahaha...your favorite perfume!

well whoever that person is...hehehe i think she's pretty lucky to be special to you...hehehe and the name is made for you...hahahaha what a coincidence that the things that you like are in the name...

lol=D YEah, Ck is one of my favourite perfume though, but it will be good, if u can change it to lacoste instead.. lol=D

Well, that person is indeed unique to me, because her name already caught my attention once i know the true meaning of it.. hehe^_^ Are u the one then?? hehe

haha...change to lacoste? why not escape? hehehe

hmmm, well for sure i am not that one coz i don't have a rain or sea on my name, what i just have is ck y and era..hehehe

haha=D Why escape?? UNless u wanna escape from me as well?? or u wanna me to break out of her shadow, changing into your identity instead?? hehe

haha=D Anything is possible. hehe^_^

haha...nothing, i just think it...as an answer to your lacoste...hehehe
but anyway, and why should i escape you? im the one who don't escape but always face everything...hehehe kidding...
no, i don't like to break her shadow and i don't want to be a shadow of anybody as well...hehehe and she's someone who owns it in your memory! hehehhe just keep it!
yeah! everything is possible...just like what you said in your profile...hehhee
"nothing's impossible"

haha=D YEah, u are u, and u should remain it that way, to show that u are unique, so that others will remember the way u are!! hehe U stand by your principles!! THat's good!! hehe

yeah, nothing is impossible, and anything is possible, goes well hand in hand huh?? Maybe i should look forward to, Impossible is nothing.. lol=D

haha...yes, i stand by my principle...i am just thinking if i really do...hehe coz there are some instances that i change my mind and decisions...different from the first one that i made...huh!

i think, its the best way to be remebered...to be remembered for who we really are and for what we are...and not as a 'copy cat' to anyone...

what ever it is...everything just have the same meaning...so all is possible and nothing is impossible...hehehe

Standing by your principle does not mean that u cant be flexible at times right?? Sometimes by being flexible, bending our rules slightly, will bring about greater results and stisfaction to u, or others, so why not?? hehe

YUP!! VEry true!!! U already have got your own 'CAT', so why do one need to be a 'copycat' again?? lol=D Be unique, and special, standing tall and strong among everybody!! hehe

yes you got it! flexible yeah, that's the term...you know, i have used that word to describe myself once in front of my friends...hehehe coz they are amaze on how i was able to get along with different groups of people...(like different ages and lifestyles...) and i told them its because i am flexible! hehehe
but with regards to principle, i agree with you....problem now is that i am not really sure what principle i have in my life...hehehe

well i think all of us are unique individual and we are all special in our own way...hehehe

lol=D See, i managed to help u find your words, even!! lol=D Flexibility is the key to keeping close contacts with different frenz, and that it will be better for us too.. Especially when one is socially active or approachable, they need to have different approach for different groups to make them comfortable with u.. GOod for u!!

Well, principles can be made anytime in life, as long as u are willing to stand by it.. hehe^_^ Cheers for us, and everybody being unique in our individual ways!!

hehe...i think there's nothing new with it...haha coz really...coz most of the time, you already know what im thinking and sometimes me too...haha...
but thanks that you are helping me finding words...coz sometimes i really have difficulties in finding the right exact word to use...

okay, even if i am not sure on what are my principles, one thing i am sure is that i can stand on what i say or do...haha

hmmm...yeah, cheers to all of us! haha

haha=D MAybe, i'm the worm in your stomach, helping u to digest all your thoughts, before providing u with all the words u needed to express.. hehe

That's good for me, and i'm sure i will agree upon that!! lol=D Based on my 'experience' from u.. lol=D

worms on my stomach?! haha no wonder...my stomach is always upset when i am talking to you! bwahahhaha

haha...'experience' from me?! huh! and what are those experience supposed to be? hahahaha well i think so far, i am still consistent on what i am saying...am i? hahaha i doubt it now...

lol=D Stomach upset is much better than feeling upset in your heart right?? hehe^_^ At least, this worm can help u to lose weight as well, by eating up all those stuffs in your body.. lol=D

hehe^_^ Experience from our friendship here, our mother-baby relationship here, all our shared experiences in things.. hehe Dun doubt yourself, as opinions do change over time.. hehe

haha...stomach upset, heart upset...both can make me lose weight! hahaha
for when my heart is upset, i can't eat, and no food is delicious for me at these moments! hehehe but definitely, upset heart is more painful...

haha..okay, alright! whatever! weh!

lol=D I will rather u having a stomach upset, as i wont wanna face heartache too!!! haha=D ONCe that happens, life is gonna be so dull and boring to me!! lol=D

hmmm..what makes your life dull and boring? hehehe sorry, didn't get it...

Heartache.. IF i happen to have one, it will make my life so dull and boring as it will not have any mood for anything.. lol=D I will find all my food tasteless, all gals around being too unattractive, as well as taking a single step in my runs, is almost like i have ran a full marathon.. lol=D

haha..yes i get it now and i agree! hehehe coz having a heartache is really bad for me...hehehe
and it makes my life boring just like what you have said! and i feel like its difficult to smile and its just boring!!! hehehe but for some its not...hehe coz some people when broken hearted eats so much! hahaha

LOL=D PLe whom eats during a heartache, might be finding some sort of replacement for their empty heart at that very moment.. And thus, they turn to food, as it can really fil them up very easily, and it's enough to distract them from thinking.. hehe^_^ LUckily, i dun have any frenz whom turned to eating when facing heartache.. hehe

hehe^_^ Well, that's good for u though!! At least u are not shy to say sorry, or even feel sorry, which is a good thing.. It makes u alot more approachable and friendly to those frenz around u too^_^

Nice story u shared here, and it shows how nice a person u are as well!! I guess she wont blame u if there's nothing important she's doing at the very moment.. hehe