have you experienced crisis when you were growing up? Identity Crisis or

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something else. I am not exactly sure how to call those things that i went through growing up.All i know was i was not much sure of myself or confident of myself. i grew up with so many doubts over my capacity, over my personality. I felt so much unsure of so many aspects in my life. I didn't grow up with a very supportive family. I grew up feeling alone. When i had problem i could not confide to any one in my family nor my few friends. And i don't think confiding to my family or friends would actually helped me back then. I remember my mom keep saying that only me could not what i was going through, she could not help us in that area. we should know what our own problems were. she was referring to health problems if there were . She was not that encouraging actually. more bit like made more feel alone and frustrated cause she did not seem want to help me. I mean she would want to help but she would not want to help what the real problem was and what was the issue. and i don't want to say what i was feeling cause i will surely be shouted at and be humiliated only which i was trying to avoid to experience. when my mom talked to us it was more like she was angry and had too much responsibilities already and did not want any more to hear any of those problems as a growing kid into teen life. so basically, there were lots of things i missed in my life just because i had no good relationship with my family and all i could remember was lots of pressure to be good though not academically but in other aspects like to be perfectly clean at home. to make sure every thing was in order. that i was supposed to make sure i cooked the food. to see to it the we had the floor swept clean every day. and to buy groceries and whatever she wanted. maybe that was one reason i didn't like going back to my childhood. cause there was not to look back. all i could see that i felt like i was a failure in my life. and my personal problem with my family was more aggravated with the fact that i was loner in school. no one liked me. and if someone ever did liked me and good enough to be a friend i tend to doubt that person intention and so i end up being alone most of the time. if i could get back to my childhood days. i think i would be more confident of myself and i would know exactly the kind of friends that i would go with and so those people who will just help me develop my personality and help me love myself and help me be comfortable being myself. and to those people who were good enough but i didn't give the chance to be my friends for life. i am totally sorry. if you guys know how i suffered in life without you by my side. how i wished to heaven above that if there was one thing i didn't do in the past, and that was to avoid you good people in life in my high school days when was the time i felt the lonely the most. You are the only things or reason i may look back in life. Wish i could get back in time to correct that and surely i could be more happy now and would have some people to talk to and be with every day of my life. Have you had any similar experience. you can share some.