Often - Suicidal thoughts

One thing that you might try is hanging positive notes around everywhere. Tape them up in the bathroom by the mirror. Put them on the top of your monitor. Put them on the refrigerator. This has always helped me.

I know sometimes we struggle with making decisions for ourselves, when we can look at others and it seems we know exactly what they are doing wrong.

I hope you will have patience and understanding with yourself and others. Keep a positive attitude and hopefully something will come along for you. Be persistent!

First, you have to learn to like yourself as you are. Stop trying to be someone you think everyone will like....be yourself. Not everyone is going to like you, not matter how nice, how thoughtful, and how honest you are. That's life! If you are always trying to get everyone's approval, you will be sadly dissappointed, because not everyone will like us. Secondly, you have to figure out why you have a problem dealing with people. We cannot make people who we want them to be either, we have to accept them the way they are, with their good and bad points. We cannot control others. Therefore, the sooner you accept that idea, the easier it will be for you to be around people. You cannot put people up on a pedestal, they have faults just like you and I, and you can't condemn them just because they're not perfect, or because they don't put you on a pedestal. Always remember, that you cannot depend on anyone for your happiness...you can only depend on yourself.

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oh my god..!! I M EXACTLY SAME..!!! I HAVE EXACTLY SIMILAR PROBLEM...!! but thankfully i have few friends over time, who have been there with me thro thick and thin and guided me alot...!! by gods grace these thoughts have reduced in me over period of time..though i daily counsel my friends or any one who needs my help...
U can share with me ur thoughts if u feel comfortable...!!! I would really like to help someone who is just like me...

Life is life. You should taste everything even though it not what you want. You can describe it as a never-end game. Some guys quit early, some late. Some tastes happiness, some desperate. But remember the feeling you experience now may change in the near future. You don't know what would happen. This is chrisma of life. Hang in there, you will find the secret of life.

that's the irony, isn't it??? you say that you are very good at counseling and helping others but you can't counsel yourself... i'm so sorry to hear that... have you ever find out the reason why is that??? if you are so good in counseling others, you must be able to help yourself first... anyway, just for your reference, the most number of people who commit suicide in USA are counselors... that's what my pastor told me... i know that it is irony... and your post reminded me again of this... anyway, i hope you will be able to help yourself soon and stop thinking of committing suicide as you know that it is a sin... good luck... take care and have a nice day...

Hello,

First of all I want to say how sorry I am with what is going on with you and I know heaps of people have probably already said this but I actually know what you are going through. I went through a lot as a kid and teenage years. I am 18 right now and have been through enough already and I am not really looking forward to the future. I too am unemployed because I am shy and afraid of people. I used to help all of my friends and now hardly anyone wants to help me let alone talk to me. I have depression and I am on medication. I have OCD which stands for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. ( Just incase you didn't know ). I went through some bad stuff with my parents. My mum had Bi-Polar and that caused heaps of arguments between my mum and dad. Because my mum's mood would change from high to low. The arguments involved lots of knives and occasionally the police. And in 2007 my mum dies from an aneurysm in the head. Just again I am so sorry and I don't really have a solution and I wish I did then we both and millions of other people can be cured and happy. Just I wish you all the best and hope you will feel better soon. It's easier said then done though huh? People tell me to "Snap out of it"! How stupid is that? If I could I bloody would! Stupid misunderstanding people. Anyways, maybe.....start a sport or join something to be active and meet people. Again, easier said then done. Sorry I am making this so long. Please take care of yourself. Good luck!

It sounds like you are so busy trying to get folks to like you and take care of others that you aren't focused on taking care of yourself. Depression can be all encompasing and overwhelming, believe me I know where you are coming from. Who do you want to be? You need to be true to yourself first and find folks that support and like you just the way you are. You may be choosing the wrong people, so give yourself some time to judge if that new person should be your friend or not.

Do you have any hobbies or do any volunteer work? I love creative writing and even tho there are many days that I don't feel like it at the start, if I start writing and getting out of my own head, my mood gets better. I'm on meds to0 and yet I try to think that they are only part of the solution. And I give myself praise some days just for getting out of bed and doing some minor chores cause sometimes that is a big effort. One of the worst parts of depression is that one many times will put oneself down alot...that dogging is bad for you. So if you catch yourself doing that then try and think of something that you did that was good and praise yourself for that. Also make a list of what you like about yourself so you can realize just how wonderful you are!

If you want to be taken advantage of or treated badly, you will be drawn to folks that will meet that need. Think about the girlfriend who always picks guys that treat her badly...until they change their way of thinking and what they expect and demand from a boyfriend, the pattern of abuse at whatever level will continue.
Also since you are on medication, maybe it's time to have it reviewed and changed. And maybe you would benefit from joining a local depression support group since that would give you some ideas that others use to break the cycle so to speak.

I wish you the very best and hope that you will try to focus on just one day at a time cause that is the only time that we can control.

Im really sad that you are feeling such. I can't tell you what to do or what not to do because Im not good in advising people but I just want to you to know that I've been there before, in a situation where all i think was to slit my throat or jump off a building. You see I was born with only one good eye. My right eye squints and almost blind and throughout my childhood I been hearing jeers and criticism by my peers. How Im a useless cross - eyed kid who can't and shouldn't be even playing ball games. How im supposed to be bad in sports because how can i shot yhe ball when my eyes aint that good. How all the girls i courted laugh at me because of how i look and how i should even go to college because even if i graduate i couldnt find a job because no one will hire a handicapped. But you know what I start asking myself why I must suffer like this? why cant i be normal? why why why

Well im 29 now, im employed with the state government and although im paid low salary and having no such prestigious job title, I handle important functions and I'm quite well known. I get respect from people I never knew before and you can even see my name posted on the google.:-) Its because I started believing that no one is normal. Every one has a handicapped. I push myself to do things that people never believe i can do. I studied well at school,practice my jump shots before a game and believe me they fear my inside presence like Shaq hehehe. If i cant shoot the ball that I'll just dunk it. I participated in 1 mile swim competition to prove to people my body is weak but my heart is strong and yes my girlfriend finds my confident persona irresistible.:-)

All Im saying is life sucks and its unfair. Either I kill myself now or played my greatest strength.

I'm very sorry to hear you're made to feel lonely by the lack of responsive friends. I want you to know you're not alone. There are plenty of people in this world who are in the same boat as you (and probably not even myLotting). It's good that you're getting medical attention at least. Are you also seeing a psychiatrist, apart from the drug treatment? Life lessons - that's something a lot of people need. Stay honest and sincere. I wouldn't advise becoming cunning (the bad kind), a little "self-centredness" may be necessary, (just enough to look after yourself) since most people don't tend to look out for others before/as themselves. But the best is if you could pray. I'm Christian, and I reach out to my God who I know loves me when I feel all alone. Don't lost hope, keep your eyes open for other people who can be good friends with you as you are to them, instead of spending time with those who keep receiving from you. If you want another friend, make that request here, and we'll PM.