My Last....  

Yes I guess we all go through this at times, especially when we start losing special people in our lives, we start to realize we ourselves are not here for ever..I know I cruised along in life never thinking of the world not going on without me, them I lost my mum and dad then the special man in my life and i suddenly realized hey start appreciating the things around girl, no-one knows how long we have, get things done and be happy with your life...But a lot of people live in denial, I have been working out my will and everythingover the last few months as a lot has changed in my life and I am very surprised at how many people laugh at me and say you got years yet why are you worrying about that....I can't believe how people think this way...I have had friends younger than me pass away so I think we all should be prepared....

Hi stormy!
I think you are blessed knowing if something is your last, then you can make the best of it. Often people don't know when they are doing something, that this will be their last time.
This is why I believe that everything we do we should do as if it were the last time we are doing it, because you just never know.

As long as this is not the last time you are posting at mylot, because then I would have to go and hunt you down and it's a long drive down where you live! lol

Hugs!

I never really got to enjoy something knowing it would be the last time.

Like playing guitar...if I has known the next day I would have an accident that would kill a 20 year hobby, I probably would have played all night 'til it was time to go to work the next day.

Alas, I had no clue that it was the last time.

And my last hitchhiking trip...I knew on the way back it was the last time, but I was so exhausted and beat that I couldn't enjoy it...I was just ready to go home.

Unfortunately, all too often we don't know it is the last time...which is a shame, because if we did, perhaps we could take something more from the experience, like you did.

In response to your life...maybe some things are the last but there are hundreds of first YET TO COME!!! I am fifty years old and have been thru hurricane Andrew in Florida, took everything...moved several times,been divorced 2 times that I lost EVERYTHING...and have had 13 surgeries...raised 2 children and helped raise 6 grandbabies....lots of last and just as many firsts!!!! I hope you use your wisdom that you have gained to continue enjoying the rest of your lasts and put it to good use in ALL YOUR FIRSTS!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS YOU!!! jUDI

Hi stormy :D *hugs* At least you had a baby book for your kids, my mom didnt have one lol. If I had known that the last christmas I had with my parents was the last one I wuold have made sure my mom was happier since well she was so depressed right after I moved to austin and spent christmas away from her, hell she still hates it that I live so far away lol. Though I love being about 1800 miles away from her lol. Though if things work out with cannette ill be moving to arizona, so will be a lot closer lol. Hmmm I dont know probably a few things that I wont do again but hadnt thought about it, but I cant think of anything right now lol. That really sucks you cant climb the mountain again though.

Stormy,

I'm guessing that this final stage is for being aware of everything that should be of some importance. How do you move on if you are recording everything in your mind as a last event or visit or place to see, etc.?I do like the idea of trying to record your History and place in life in a journal that your children will be able to read and learn more about their Mom and Dad, and things they won't remember.

With all my health problems and disability, I want to enjoy every day and the beauty of it. I also look forward to the possibilities. For example, it is possible I won't have the pleasure of riding the train again because of our economical situation. But I'm not giving up on the idea.

When my second husband became ill with a terminal disease I resigned myself to taking care of him for the rest of my life because I thought it was Parkinsons and knew that people with Parkinsons can live a long time. It turned out to be like Parkinsons only way worse. After he passed away, one day I realized that I was still alive and could begin a new life.

I look at life like this. I'm 59 years old but if God's willing I have a lot to still experience.
I feel that I've had 4 beginnings. The first when I was born. The second when I got married. The third when I remarried and the fourth when I married my present husband. It's not the marriages that were the actual beginnings but the new life I was beginning. I hope this makes sense to you.

I do find your way of thinking quite interesting and very well put. Hugsssss

leenie

Hi, long time no see..How you been?
You were the best mother in the world I bet! You do more then alot of parents do. You kept things and put things in a book and make scrapbooks for them and all not alot of parents take that time to do so and pass on a piece of their past to them. Something they can always look back on in fondness of the love you gave them and their memories you helped them make. I loved to crochet, I quit for the simple fact that I was the only one whom enjoyed it and if I made something for someone they never appreciated it. I used to craft and draw, I quit that also..I stopped taking long walks by myself because of health reasons,I quit alot of things and and just a small piece of what I once was. Depression does that..to me. I have to take one day at a time..one step at a time..

Hi there Sweetie
Ok do not look at this as the last, look at it as Chapter 1
I know how hard it is believe me like you I enjoyed my Children and still do, because Chapter 2 well guess what, they still need you, they still love you, they still need you to guide them at times,
They will always be your Children, your always going to see them as your Baby, they still need guiding, but in an adult way and as advise
The 2nd Chapter is just a little harder, as you will see them get hurt and a Cuddle is not going to make it go away but it will ease it, they come to you for advise, they will still cry in your Arms and they still want to know you are Mum and love them
I cried when they started School, I cried when they left School, I cried when they got their first Job, when I could not pick them up any more to put on my Lap and hold them tight to me, but as Adults there are other Joys and the biggest are, the love they show you, to see what wonderful Adults they have turned it, and they are always there for you as well when yo need someone
All you are doing is opening a new Chapter Sweetie
I felt like you did, but well we have to let go no matter how much it hurts us but we only let go of the Child, we embrace the Adult and lead them as good as we can
Big Hugs to you

Nice to see you back here again Stormy! I think it's wonderful that you're acknowledging things in this way. Yes, it can be sad to reflect like this in some instances, but it also means that you're sure to milk every possible joy out of a situation and not all of us make the effort to do that at all. We can get to a point in our lives where we look back and wonder where the time went; and then wonder if we truly embraced all we could in the most positive way possible. We just don't always think at the time how important certain occasions actually are!

I'm yet to experience any moments of finality like this, unless you count having to up and move from one country to another! I see this as a different circumstance though, because I may be leaving friends and a known lifestyle behind to head into the unknown, but I'm also a little excited by the whole scenario as well.

I can only assume that you're eith preparing for your mountain hike right this minute, or you're already on your way! I hope that it's all you wished for and more and that the wondrous presence of everything around you reveals itself bigger and brighter than ever before! The world is full of such beauty, joy and defining moments, if only we'd stop, listen and SEE a lot more than we tend to.

I noticed how you said that you don't think it will be possible to go on a family vacation together again as a family. Don't give up hope! My family has been on vacation together after we had our own families and children. Granted that it doesn't happen often but when it does it is like old times again. We don't make a lot of money either. At the time we went on our last vacation my parents lived in Oklahoma with my younger brother, my older brother lived in California, and I was living in Florida. We still managed to come together for a week and catch up with each other and had fun just like old times.

And with one chapter ending there is always another chapter to begin. So your last parent teacher conference begins your first time watching your daughter dance with her new husband to the first time you held your grandbaby or the first time you and your husband have went on vacation alone.

And one thing is for sure, you will never experience your last time of loving someone. No matter how far your children move away or when a loved one passes your love will always be there.