You, my friend, are trying to break my heart... and you're succeeding:/

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I don't know whether people are going to react on this in the first place. I hope so but since I am not sure, I don't expect anything and would be happy with a few responses. Well, during the treatment for my anxiety disorder I met this attractive girl with OCD ( Not going to explain that disorder now... sorry) I fell in love with her but sadly after a few days another chap in the group did exactly the same. While I had a better bond ( we considered each other soul mates) with her than he had with her this changed somewhat when he starting flirting her. I couldn't cope with this and got thoughts of suicide and such. ( love was not the only factor) When he was released from treatment my contact with the girl was just so-so then I left as well to go to another group leaving her all alone. After one month she attended an external lesson rather than in internal lesson, so i saw her again anf gave her a kiss on the cheek...one month later I suddenly saw her at my new group... i was all shocked and excited... then i heard she is going to follow treatment in the same group i was, on the first day she didn't want to go to sleep, so i sad next to hear and started talking and pepping her up. "Darling, I want to help you, you know that. Together we can help each other" Jadda jadda... after a while the staff there told me to go to my room or i would get punished, but i told them i cant leave my soul mate... after a while i couldn't take it anymore and started crying... well... i am very emotional at times... then our contact was really so-so again... and a few weeks before i was released from treatment i heard that chap was going to be placed into another group that was close to mine at that moment, so i knew they would ahve contact again. i've been released for like 1.5 month now, and i talked to that chap on msn, and he says he has done all kinds of things with her that isn't allowed, such as taking pictures of her... and all kinds of other things, but he doesnt want to be specific. I feel so bad... i try to be positive about it... there are more fishes in the pool... that kind of rubbish... staying negative will only attract more negative stuff... ya know what i am saying... of course i shouldnt think about her anymore but i cant stop loving and thinking about her... ive got no clue on what to do now... i'd like to visit that ahole...again... as he has been placed back into the first group... the three of us were in... dunno why... anyway i want to smack him... and give him a well earned kick in the nuts... thanks for reading, this or not reading this anyway, it feels way better now, but I am to look forward to a night without sleep and only thinking about this... ---- M. I still love you, whatever that chap does with you, i know you cant say no darling... please call me if there is something wrong