do you ever feel like you missed some parts of your life?

..yeah.. I missed the being my own.. What I mean is, I have been into responsibilities when I was young and until now, I'm faced with responsibilities that concerns family.. I've never experienced spending my salary for my luxury.. I always thought of my family's bread first.. I also miss the happiness of being a child.. I never experienced being a child.. At a young age, I need to be taught about different home chores and works.. I never enjoyed playing with my friends.. Though I have experienced playing with other kids but I never had a chance to enjoy it fully..

Oh yes,just going back to our life's pattern I have missed so many of these.It really hurts me when we recollect them,as we cannot get those times back.
Wonder is Gods creation.

I somehow managed to skip out on my whole 18-22 year old, "be free, find yourself and figure out who you want to be" phase. Within a year after graduating high shcool i had moved half way across the country and was getting married to my now ex-husband. While all of our friends were enjoying the carefree college years, and all of the partying, fun times and socializing that goes along with it, he and i were struggling to make ends meet and pay our bills and trying to figure out how to live as a married couple.

Obviously this had a large part to do with why our marriage didn't last even a full three years. I was unhappy, and didn't feel like i was being successful at any part of my life, like i was a failure at bieng a wife, being an adult, making a living, and he felt as though he was missing out on all the parties and good times with his friends, so it ended.

After about six months of feeling evenmore like a failure because my marriage had fallen apart, i definately went a little crazy for a bit, trying to make up for lost times. I hung out constantly with a large group of friends, all of whom were a couple years younger than me, and persued a carefree, wreckless life. Luckily i came out of that period unscathed and realized wht a mistake it was, as this was not helping me get to where i wanted to be with my life.

yeah ofcourse

hi sama ...

i missed a whole lot .. from 21 til 29, sometimes i cant remember and sometimes i do not want to remember ... it was a fast journey .. with sweet sour pain memories

cheers