Feeling guilty

Hi, sahm! I'm sorry that you feel guilty. And your work in church is free, and your husband gets some pay. But now you want more money to share your husband's load, and begin your own business, but God doesn't answer your prayer. I really don't know how to say coz I think you have heard much. I just want to tell you. I'm also praying to God for something and no answer. Once I even left church and blame Him. But it's quite strange I'm back now. And I'm finding I'm not good enoght to accept my request. I must be improving myself. Then I believe He will give me what I need at the right time and right place. Sometimes, I also think, why God didn't give me much money, such as by lottery. But then I realize that I'm not good at financing. In fact, I used to spend too much that always makes me no more money at the end of every month. So if He gives me money, I'm not the right servant on it. (Of course, I don't mean you like me. I think maybe you are good at it.) I think if you request something reasonable, God will answer you. But if you haven't gotten feedback, maybe you need to prepare yourself, especially your heart. You have to make sure you're in right state to accept His gift. Anyway, God be with you all the time! And He is blessing you!