How has death affected you?

I lost all my Aunts, my Uncles, my Grandparents, & most recently my Mother. You would think that after losing so many you love to death that you would just accept it as another part of life, but you don't. The pain never goes away despite what well meaning people may say. It does ease with time, but it never goes away. The memories that you once looked back on & may even have laughed about now make you sad & often times cry. To me death is the end of a person's story leaving the rest of us here wondering what would have happened next.

wow you wrote a poem dedicated to him, you must very close to him..

i don't think if death of others will affect me, maybe i just lost my sense about this kind of thing.........
well, i actually don't care about my life too, say like i don't have any reason to live, it doesn't matter for me to die tomorrow, next week or next year, and so on.. no one will grieve at my passing day..*sigh*

i wish that i can enjoy my life but i think i ask too much..