Are you happy or sad to be a mother/father?

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First, I'd like to wish all moms a happy mothers' day. Are you happy or sad? Why? Before going off to work, my second son(18 years old) said,"Today is mothers' day, what do you want?" I felt happy in a way and yet at the same time, there's a sad, hurt feeling. My youngest son(10) brought my autistic son(12) into the room. I told him in a frustrated tone to just do his own things and not bother about his brother. When they came out, my autistic son said,"Happy mothers' day." I know it's the youngest that had heard the second, so taught the autistic. My eldest had already left for work. My husband had asked in the morning,"Where are they(sons) working?" My sons are working temps so are on and off located at different places. I couldn't answer my husband. It's often the case. I don't know what or where my sons are/doing. It's not that they won't tell me, but rather that I didn't ask. I see my friend would know where her sons are, what they do, even to what time they'll be back. My husband too would always ask and want to know, but unless he asked, I don't do it. See why I'm hurt and sad? I feel I'm just not good enough but that's how I am and I'll feel tired if I have to keep on tracking everyone. What about you?