The Art of being a Visionary  

Sorry, I had it written incorrectly. I really meant have your thoughts disciplined.
My peace of mind is almost completely gone, due to circumstances beyond my control.
Should have never messed with the Ouija board back in 1995.

Ouija? My friends did it frequently, and it didn't seem to cause any damage. The only problem was the spirit attachment, but it was easy to deal with. Usually the spirit didn't want to leave, and the one attached must go to the grave, and then it's gone.

What happened with you and the Ouija board?

I don't know what kinds of spirits you believe in, but the one or ones that
became attached to me are dopplegangers and succubi. My mind is partially
possessed and I am incapable of keeping them out on numerous occasions.
I am a christian and was self educated according to the Latin Catholic church.
My church is based on the Tridentine Mass. It is the original church according to
the dead sea scrolls, in which Christ established in 33 A.D.
I cannot explain places I have been through Astral Projection and the people that I see. There are also abominations or creatures that most people never hear about.
It may sound crazy, but anything else to me would be opinion. This is the truth.
I have seen Apparitions on a few occasions. And I studied paranormal psychology for the last 10-12 years.

The many kinds of spirits. My friends usually called the deceased ones, but some people wold call others. And if it was not the spirit of the deceased, usually going to the place asked by the spirit brought them back to their homes. It was what they wanted, people said, to go back to their homes.

I don't know about dopplegangers, but I read something on succubi. If you're still attached, better get some help. There are many people studying such things out there, and they can help you out. And some orthodox rabbi with the knowledge of kabbalah, the jewish mysticism can do that too, I think. Or getting some nun to do it. Check my post on exorcism. I saw a young nun did it in a chapel some years ago.

I am worried about my soul, because on occasion my skin stings all over like it's on fire. The only reason I know it isn't a medical condition, is due to the nature of when the stings occur. I do not know why I am suffering because I am not an evil person. Exorcism's were tried in the past with no effect. I do rarely see angelics and they remind me that what happened isn't my fault and I would still be saved. Something is very wrong about how people believe in different faith's. Or maybe God is how we believe him to be. I am a computer service technician with a lot of study into geophysics and meterology. I also studied psychology for many years and have somehow found a correlation between the mind, and spirit. It does not look good for me. Even if God can forgive, I am afraid my mind is too impure and un-devout.

G-d is always G-d. A deep study is needed to understand it. But as you said "maybe G_d is what we believe him to be", I can tell that G-d's acts as we ask. When we call G-d "the merciful G-d", we ask G-d to act mercifully, etc.

I think there is no need to worry about your soul, as I'm very sure that the good ones survive. What you're experiencing now may be the result of your resistance, as if you're evil, I don't think you'd feel bad about it. The evil would have ruled you, if you were evil, as evil souls are weak.

May I talk about it to a rabbi? I talked to him a few times when I have questions. A friend of mine told me that he was good with these things. I need to have your permission, as it's very personal to you.

For now, stop worrying, and thinking negatively about yourself. It does no good for you, and weakens you.

You have my permission.

Got something interesting that just happened the other day. I had heard some people speaking in my room. It sounded like a group of several people. I couldn't
make out what they were saying and haven't heard them speaking since the last
couple of days. The strange thing is my mother was just hearing a woman's voice
in her room last night and she lives in the same house as I do. The thing about
my mother is she is definitely not psychotic either. I believe the woman that
spoke to her might be named Lilly because I seen her ghost in a house that
we both lived in a few years ago. She seems to be following us.

I've asked about it on the group the rabbi run to get a wider audience. Besides, I'm not close to him. lol.

Don't worry. I won't think that you and your mom are psychotic. My mom and dad saw things like this many times. My older brother, too. As for me, it was only once when I was a kid. I heard ssshhhhsss when there was no one around. Seemed to be a female voice.

Did they bother you? Mom told me that my dad made a deal with them. Dad said that if he could throw something into a can, they shouldn't bother our family anymore. Dad did it, and they never bothered our family since then.

I just added you as friend. After you accept I'll send you the rabbi's email address and a picture of an amulet. It looks very old. and pretty, too.