Wasted and Wounded
By xien2xien
@xien2xien (1382)
Philippines
March 27, 2011 9:12pm CST
Yesterday i was really in a bad mood kinda wasted and wounded for some reason, i drink up a couple of bottles so i can sleep and stop thinking about the pain and hatred but it didn't work, the night goes on as the bottles keep on getting empty and the night is going deeper, why would it happens a lot, when sometimes i'm in a good mood and having a great bonding with few friends i will wish not to get drunk to stayed up all night with friends but i get drunk..... but last night im wishing to be drunk to sleep and stop thinking but i didn't so i stayed up all night drinking a lot and crying a lot....
It was really unfair :(
5 responses
So, don't think it too bad. Maybe it is not meant to be yours.@xien2xien (1382)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
yeah right human.. human's are made to make mistakes... hmm by the way... we talk a lot i mean can i know you better? from where you from?
@xien2xien (1382)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
wahhahah, this story is for my bestfriend, and i'm not talking about boys here. my bestfriend promise me something yesterday and she broke it that's why i've been hurt a lot i expected it and boon surprise me with nothing
@SIMPLYD (90717)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
Drinking when in pain will not really ease out the pain one's feel. It may ,for a moment, but it would come again after you are sober and the side effect will make it worse.
Try being with happy people. Much more be with your parents and siblings and bond with them. Just try anything wholesome though, that could make you forget the pain. Am sure, that will pass. Just ask for God to help you get over it.
@xien2xien (1382)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
actually i did that before i got drunk, i live in my apartment a few blocks away from my parents house, yesterday about noon i guess i visit my mom and have bonding with them i also have dinner with my parents but after that nothing to do and they were all tired i go home and boom nothing else to do but to think so i decided to take a few bottles in order to get sleepy and drunk, bt it didn't happen i spent the rest of the night drinking and awake. i guess i slept at around 3am
@SIMPLYD (90717)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
What you actually needed is someone who you could talk to about your problem. By merely talking about it, a suggestion could be given to you.
@se7enthbird (8307)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
its just like time fly fast when you are having fun... in your case it was fast to get drunk when you are having fun. now that you are alone and wishing to be drunk it was no longer effective for time is slow when your all alone and bored. sometimes we feel very low that no matter what we do to cheer ourselves up there is nothing we can do. sometimes we really need someone to talk or someone to give us a hug. when my wife feels low she always ask for a hug... it works. you get a hug and give a hug at the same time. 
@xien2xien (1382)
• Philippines
28 Mar 11
i wish there was someone who can hug me last night, but i really don't think so the one i need a hug from is my bestfriend but i really don't think it was a good idea if she hugs me last night cause she's the reason why i've been hurting
@Lucyalicia92 (670)
• United States
28 Mar 11
yeah I know what you mean, I do that all the time. Sometimes it makes me happier and sometimes it forces me to feel and confront my emotions more and allow myself to cry. That happened last night for me as well. I get buzzed and cry. It feels healthy and natural though which is good rather then keeping it in which I would do otherwise. I know it's not healthy to go on like this and we should both try to sort out our feelings and fix ourselves.
@lakshmi11 (278)
• United States
28 Mar 11
I agree with all the other myloters who responded to your discussion.
Getting wasted is not the answer to your problem. And besides, if you get wasted like that chances are you end up hurting someone who loves you and wants to help as well.
Here is one thought to help you. As thoughts have the tendency to change our mood, you could try to change your thoughts. This is easier said then done, because thoughts seem to go through our heads randomly and sometimes we are not even aware that we think these thoughts. So you should find a mantra (a sentence that makes you feel better) it needs to be a positive sentence in the present tense. You repeat it until you feel better.- If you can't sleep, you could try to count very slowly backwards from 100 to one, this will cause you to feel drowsy, but relaxed and really good.-
