 last year wasn't one of the best years in my life. my gf for three years broke up with me and had a replacement right away (think three days). it was rough, i cried myself to sleep and waking up is the hardest part. i went on counting minutes, hours, and days... time was slowly passing; it was agonizing. i had friends who did their best to comfort me; they were the only ones i could turn to, my family doesn't know anything about it. yes, i had to deal with it alone at home, covering my tears with a pillow, fighting them back when i have to face my family. i had to be different when i'm with them. it was one of the hardest times for me. and hard may still be an understatement. months passed, and i slowly recovered. but i never thought of finding someone else, i loved my ex so much, i didn't think i could love again right away. until i met 'her'. she was a classmate of mine, i never noticed her before. not until our last day of classes. by some twist of fate, we talked and exchanged numbers, hoping we'd still keep in touch. my intention then was just being friendly. but days of talking to her thru text and being with her seemed like easy sunday mornings after a stormy week. in short, i fell in love with her. Christmas came and with the magical feel of it, we told each other how we felt. i found out she liked me since the first day of classes. she was the best gift i got. but when holidays ended, something seemed to change. all that's magical in this world always seem to have a glitch. problems arose. she doesn't believe in homosexual relationships, but she loves me. her faith is more important than anything else. and so she let me go and whatever it is that we had.
i do feel bad cause i feel like it's a waste to let go of something so real. i never asked for someone like her, but she came. and now i'm thinking that if she wasn't for me, how could He give us this chance to meet and have an understanding like no one else's. if given the chance, i wish i could face God and ask Him if ours was really forbidden.
now, i'm over my three year gf. i'm in love with someone else and being in love again seems to be the best cure. but being in love with her doesn't seem to get us anywhere cause she chose to give up what we have. now the problem is, getting over the cure.
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