|  Just got back from chatting with my friend.. She finally realized why she keeps falling for guys easily - turns out she's "falling" for guys in the hopes that she will forget someone she really loves.. someone married.
She now realize that she'll never love anyone as much as she loved, loves him, and she wants to 'fess up. I told her that it is what she really needs to do right now.. anyway, there's nothing to be afraid of, seeing as the guy is happily married. Or so I thought.
Then she told me she has a secret that I'd probably kill her for.. a secret she thought I would hate her for. She asked if I would still remain her friend, as she had done a terrible sin. So I told her, who am I to judge you?
She said she's afraid I'd feel miserable because of her, and I told her that if I do feel that way after what she tells me, then it's my fault because I made her tell me. So then, she told me. Turns out she slept with the guy. Once.
She doesn't regret it, she told me. She knows its wrong, but she's happy. She said that I probably hate her now, and I said, how can I hate her for doing something wrong that she feels is right? I told her that I feel bad because she did something wrong, though a part of me feels somewhat happy for her, in a way. Of course, I told her that all in all, the whole things saddens me.
Then she said that what the others call her must be true, after all, that she's a she-devil. I said that for me, she's a really sweet person who had made wrong choices but is doing her best to correct them. Then she "hugged" me and thanked me for being there for her, even after that.
Now, I'm just saying this because.. because I feel.. well.. kinda miserable. I don't know if I handled the whole thing the way it should be handled, and I feel sad too because I believe that had I been there more for her, she wouldn't succumb something like that. In 5 months, we have only seen each other once, given that we're both busy trying to make a living.
Had any of you guys gone through something like that? What happened? How did you move on? And what do you think is the best thing to do?
I would really appreciate your answers.. and more than that, thank you already, because writing here makes me feel a little bit better.
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