Is it too early to think that I am FINISHED!!! Please help.....

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Hi everybody... i am on the most serious note of my life today.... I am an Indian Student who would be entering a college in Fall 2007 for my UG in engineering.... but I aspire to the US for my higher education.... I applied to seven colleges in all.... (MIT, Harvard, Ohio, Princeton, Yale, Boston and NYU).... out of which I got admission in Ohio... and till only one result is out..others are still expected to come anytime.... But now this OHIO WESLEYAN gave me an annual scholarship package of $19000 against their annual fee of $40000. I since even have been upbringing myself at my own, and raised my education so far all by myself,, I cannot raise this additional $21000 from anywhere now.. In indian currency this much amount means Rs. 945,000.... I barely earn Rs. 60,000 annually by which I can only fulfil my essentialities... I guess the figures are enough to give you the right situation.. It is not like that I am a bad loser, but then in this particular case i see my career is at stake... and how can I let it go like this I don;t understan it!!! I since ever had been an academic topper and a researchist too, still I am suffering for my education.//// Moreover got to know that BOSTON does not give financial AIDS to international students... I do even have a great working experience as a senior grade mathematics lecturer and a personal plus career counselor for grade XII students who are actually just an year younger to me... It shows that I do have achieved things in my life... Now when I have put my one complete years in applying to colleges in USA, i cannot move back, and even if I where will I? I don't have an option -- instead of running away -- my family expects a lot from me and I have been rather a liability on them for the past one year.... I know the remaining six decisions are still not out but something has really really scared me so so so much that I am unable to survive with it now -- I just thought what if other six colleges too say "NO" or expenditure rises higher onto my head... initialy they all said that they give 100% need based scholarships and grants... and see now!!! People please help me, what should I do? I know it might sound weird but I still wanna know, is there anyone out there who can help me out with this money matter back there in USA... I mean u all r grown up ppl...might have earned... can anyone help me raise my education please... Nonetheless please reply to this one if you think I am of least importance to you ......suggest me something or please give me a solution... I could only share it with mylot... havent told it back home till now... coz their hopes and dreams will break...please help PLEASE........