cancer has ruined my life ""do you understand""

I don't know who you are, and I can't even imagine your pain, but I feel for you in your sorrow. I'm not a religious person, but I do feel there is a God. You may think that what I am about to tell you is just a bandaide, but I have found that reading the Bible gives comfort. No, I'm not a Jehovah's Witness, but I did open myself up to them and studied with them. Before that, I never read the Bible. Reading it has changed my life for the better. If you are open to it, consult with some Jehovah's Witnesses. They're warm and caring people who may be able to help you in some way. I wish you good health and many blessings.

I have watched several of my family members deal with cancer.. they fared better than you did though. I got as far as having a biopsy and getting the bad news.. I won't let it go any further, I am already here, longer than they tried to scare me into believeing I would be.. even without their barbaric treatments. I don't know how long I have, but after reading so many stories like yours, I would rather take the time I am given and accept that it is all I have. I am so sorry for what you have gone through.

I can't possibly understand what it's like for you right now but literally, everyone in my family - both sides, including myself have either had cancer or died from it. Because of all of the loss and my own two "cured" forms (they were caught early and were never serious, so I've been told) I'm now completely fascinated in the scientific aspect of Oncology. When my husband gets back from Iraq I decided to switch career fields and start training to become a nurse, ultimately an oncology nurse so I can help others with their treatments and emotional needs.

As for you,I'm so sorry your wife left you. You didn't deserve to be left alone I'm sure. I hope you have a good circle of friends who have stuck by you. If not, I'm glad you've found online communities like this one to vent in.

If you are on a transplant list, look at it as a good thing - not only because your diseased tissue will be replaced but because doctors don't allow "lost causes" to receive donor organs. I've already taken courses with the Oncology Nursing Society and I know even being on the list is a good sign that there is indeed hope.

Maybe you could start a myspace page so people you meet online can rally around you and offer up words of support. It might give you something small to look forward to every day!

Best of luck and I hope better days are soon to come!

Tammy

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Hey kkerix. I am sorry to read your sad story. Cancer is indeed horrible, and I can't even imagin how it is to have it. I help people who have cancer to get over it all the time, and it is never easy.
There's a presentation in California that might do you good - might even set your life on a better course. Would you like to check it out?

im truly sad about what happen to you and i know that youre suffering inside and outside...yeah it does ruined your life...but havent you think why then?? its not yet the end of the world yet..and think that youre not alone on this kind of sickness you have to attend some support group so that you can relate each other about the illness..and somehow lighten the burden..

I don't know who you are and I cannot even begin to imagine your pain, but I can sympathize with you and tell you that I care. Even as a stranger I care.

I had a friend die of Cancer and seeing what he went through just to try and add a little extra time to his life was horrific.

I'm sorry you're going through this. It doesn't seem fair. I'm praying for you, and I asked my angels to keep a watch over you during this terrible time.

tha's sad but i feel much better when i see that God has stuffed in immense courage and humor in ppl like you. you are certainly a brave heart.
all i can say is that donot let your spirit beat you, keep the self-esteem going no matter what. you can make new and new friends online and just let out your heart to them. i am sure you can reinvent yourself. and when there is an option of transplant why lose heart, just give it a go. our improved medical science has a lot to offer, just trust it.

good luck and KUDOS.

...here's cart full of roses for you.

I had cervical cancer and before that I had the best relationship, which has now ended after 15 years, not sure if it was all to blame on the cancer but before we were perfect together then i spent so much time have procedures done and feeling horrible and I guess it was just to much of a hassle for him. He did stay till the end but less then a year later he was gone.