My ex is killing me!

Your right love the person your with as much as you can because someday they mgith be gone. I had a girlfriend in high school I really loved but we broke up and took time apart from each other. The next time I seen her she looked really good and sounded like she was doing great. Later that night I went home and wrote her a letter I was going to give to her the next time she came to visit asking if we could give it one more try but the weekend before she was suppose to come down for my birthday I got a call from a close mutual friend we had saying that she had died from suicide. To this day I wish I just would of told her how I felt instead of waiting and writing a letter. Who knows things might be different today and she might be alive. I miss her so much.

It definetly takes time. Not easy but what I do is just think about all the bad things about them.lol. Just playing. ummm, kinda. Anyway I would stay busy maybe a new hobby, hang out with friends, stay away from the strong drink for sure.
IF its not too late tell him how you feel, but if it is too late then realize maybe it wasnt meant to be and according to your picture you are georgous so Im sure the good lord will bring somone great your way. But definetly heal first.