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madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 Dying and looking like skin and bones is just a tip of the iceberg for people living with aids. We we can have so many complications that we could imagine. I am guilty of isolating myself because of my physical appearance now.

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 Cruel as it really is, I just hope that all of these would be part of my penance for the wrong things I have done in this life. I also offer my pains to all those afflicted with this pandemic and hope that we may die as comfortable as possible and at least...

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 Thank you very much for caring. I just hope that the very least I don't lose my eyesight so I can continue reading all your replies and reply back to all of you here. I am touched with all your kind words and I hope that I can continue all this. God bless you...

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 I know that God listens to our prayers. I also pray that the other people in this same situation I am now in will be helped by the more fortunate persons in this world. I hope that they can be given access to pain medications at the very least so we can die...

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 It will only strike you when the real challenges come up if you are confined to the hospital and living life minute by minute experiencing total discomfort. It would feel like its forever, the good thing is, I am already having dementia and I dont remember...

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 I also have been gone for a long time, in fact six years since I last logged in here. I wanted to let others know that this disease millions of us are facing is not as simple as it seems. They say that the anti retrovirals can make your life longer but they...

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madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 I am sorry if I reminded you of your brother. I know that he misses you too wherever he is now. All I can really do is pray and try to hope for the best. Thank you so much for caring. God Bless.

16 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 This body is truly so frail and temporal. All these struggles I hope to bear until the time comes. Nobody deserves to die like this. I offer all of these pains to the people with the same affliction as I have. May they be in God's grace when their time also...

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 Try to read my recent post so you may understand the current situation I am in now. God Bless.

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 You can read my recent post for you to understand the real situation I am in now. Thanks and God bless.

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 Thank you for your kind words. Honestly I am so afraid and confused of everything. Expecting that I might go blind and my dementia getting worse. I still have that little hope inside me that I may live a bit longer without too much pain. I leave it to God and...

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 All I really can do now is hope and if this is His will then I cannot question it. If am will be healed then I guess it ill be a great miracle because no cure is still yet found. It is like a very scary and painful death sentence. Honestly it frightens me so...

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 This is such a hard battle and I hope I can get through it without breaking. I still have that small bit of hope as you say but I also am facing the harsh reality that it will be soon that I have to face the harder challenges.

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 Thank you very much masihi for your kindness. I just hope that I can bear all of this when the time comes. I decided to open up to all of you here since I personally don't know any here, I can express my feeling more freely. I am very touched and I hope when...

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 9 Jan 12

I was actually thinking very hard if I wanted to post this. I did not have the guts to post this in facebook but I just thought that I did not know anybody personally in this site and it would be easier to hear their thoughts on...

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madonna143 As of now, all I can say is that I am very afraid and confused on what the near future is in store for me. My recent post will explain all of what I am saying now. I hope you can read it so you may have a better and clearer idea of whats going on.

14 Jan 12

madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 Everytime I go to sleep and am able to sleep at night without any pain is a blessing from God. I remember the times when I was not eating and sleeping for months and lost a lot of weight. I pray to him just to give me at least an hour without feeling anything...

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madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 I just hope that these hardships will never break me of being who I am. My body may change dramatically but I hope and pray that my soul will be presentable to God.

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madonna143 @madonna143 (1738) • Philippines 13 Jan 12

I wanted to be truthful to all of you. I purposely removed my avatar as well as my photos, I think you guys understand why. I wanted to thank you all from the bottom of my heart all those who replied to my earlier post dying soon....

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madonna143 Some people think that this disease is as simple as it seems. It can be simple if you get to know about it in an early stage but at this stage, it is a different story altogether. I only knew about my situation last March of 2011 and have had so many trips of...

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