I'm angry..i'm confused..

@kharen (1488)
Philippines
June 21, 2007 5:32am CST
How come this semester..i'm so hot-headed..i don't mind my friends, i don't say hi to them and won't notice them when they pass by..i can't even smile at them.. i've changed a lot as i can see but maybe it's not like that for them..i just don't know.. i'm so confused right now..i'm angry because they don't care for me at all.. they just leave me all alone. Maybe it's about my ex who has hurt me so much, played with my feelings and lied to me, make me feel i'm loved but then told me that it's all just revenge yet My friends still befriend her and tell secrets to my ex. I don't know how to react to that. I tell myself it's just okay but i just feel hurt about that. I asked my ex why she hurt me a lot. She just laughed at the text message she sent and told me that she wanted to give me revenge because i'm the one she blamed for their break-up..my ex and my friend broke up and all blamed it at me. my ex told me, i was so insensitive that i would even lose my friends because of it and then she laughed at me and insulted me and told me ""now you don't have any friends..hahaha.. because ur so insensitive. You didn't listen to them when they told you to avoid me..hahahaha...you're so cheap!! A Cheap gal!! You're so pitiful..huhuhu.. don't push yourself to someone who doesn't love you!! You're so cheap!! Good luck to you and your new bf!! hahahaha.. " She texted me those kind of things and that really hurt me so much..i cried all night everyday, hid all of the pain i was feeling from the others...that i was still crying because i don't want them to pity me and make me feel that i was so stupid to love someone and feel that someone like my ex would love me but no.. I don't know what to feel..i don't know how to react to things anymore.. i'm so really confused.. can any of you help me??
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4 responses
@TriciaW (2441)
• United States
21 Jun 07
First you need time to get over this relationship. You also need to be ok with you before you can be ok in a relationship. Your true friends will be there for you not to worry. Just give yourself some time and don't push your real friends away when they come to you. I know this is hard but in time you will be ok and you will learn from this experience.
@kharen (1488)
• Philippines
21 Jun 07
I hope i can somday..i'm just afraid to go bak to my old self..the crying one who easily cries when someone hurt me evebn about the slightest thing..
@williamjisir (22819)
• China
21 Jun 07
I think that you ought to value the friendship with your friends without ignoring them. No one can really live happily without friends. Friends make our life colorful and meaningful. But I don't think there is need to make friends with the one who texted you those messages saying that you are insensitive, etc. She is not a nice person at all. There is no need to get angry for such a person. She is somewhat abnormal to treat people like that. Just cheer up, kharen, and talk to your friends about your feelings for a better understanding. Forget about your ex. There are so many good men in the world. He is not the only one. For sure you will find someone worth your love. Cheer up. Be happy, Smile.
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@kharen (1488)
• Philippines
22 Jun 07
i can't talk to them..i know what they would say..they would tell me i'm so dramatic and just forget about what i'm feeling but it's not that easy.. i'm so much devastated..i don't know what to do..
• China
22 Jun 07
Time is the best medication. You will be fine as time goes by. No worry, friend. Cheer up and be yourself!
@bruxedo (773)
• France
21 Jun 07
Don't cry and don't pity yourself. You're underestimating yourself and that doesn't help you. Proove her that she is wrong and she is the one to pity. Show her and all the other people around you, that you can have friends and that you're happy with yourself and that you can live very well or evan better without her. Fight for yourself, for your happiness and you can only do it if you try to be optimist!
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@jackli (203)
• China
22 Jun 07
hi, kharen. don't cry. the friend that insults u is not ur truly friend. she is just a abnormal woman. and it isn't worth being angry with her. so cheer up. and do ur best to live. and prove u that u'r very great. be friendly to the truly friend. remeber, the truly friends always help u under any circumstances. btw, there are many good men in the world. and u can find the one who deserved ur love. I pray the day when u find ur turly lover will come sone. :) Cheer up! my friend.
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@kharen (1488)
• Philippines
22 Jun 07
thnx for your prayers for me..friend.. ^^,