I'm so stupid. I lost my job and it's my own fault.
By dragon54u
@dragon54u (31633)
United States
June 20, 2008 9:13am CST
I got let go from my long-term temporary assignment. It was an answering service and every call is recorded, which is fine with me. But when you go back to decide what to do with the call, the recording comes back on even though there's nobody on the line. Well, the phones were ringing and I couldn't decide what I should do with that call and the lines kept ringing and I said kind of under my breath "shut the hell up"--to nobody on the line but it went on the client's recording.
So this morning I get a call from the temp agency and I've been let go. I'm so disgusted with myself. And sad that I won't be getting ahead financially like I thought I would. But I did get a call this morning from another temp agency and I'm going to call them back. I turned the job down because I thought I still had the other one.
I've cleaned up my language a lot since moving back to the midwest. In the southwest where I was stranded for many years, people routinely use the "f" word in everyday conversation and it's not unusual to hear bad language between clients and service-givers. I've got to keep working on cleaning up my potty-mouth.
So, I'll be here all day, for once. I hate it when something is my fault, especially something this stupid. 
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
20 Jun 08
Thanks. I think we should all admit our mistakes but it's a powerful urge for me to blame other things, like the phones or the other operator that was on her phone trying to get her cell phone connected or something. I'll call the other temp service and try to get that other job but I just feel awful about my stupidity.
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@mamacathie (3928)
• United States
20 Jun 08
Oh, I am so sorry you lost your job but as I asked my MIL yesterday. "Have you learned your lesson?" LOL It is good to see you on here today also. I knowy ou will find another job and it will be better than ever. God bless! and don't despair.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
20 Jun 08
Thank you! I have cleaned up my mouth a lot since I moved back to my home state but evidently not enough. It's something I need to work on a bit harder although I've come a long way in this last year.
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@jer31558 (3683)
• United States
21 Jun 08
It seem like just the time when we think that no one is listening is just the time that we get overheard. I have put my own foot in my mouth more that once thinking that no one would hear me. Hopefully you will find not only another job very soon but one that is much better than the one that you lost.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
Thanks. Jobs aren't very plentiful and I'm blessed to have a small income so it's not a disaster if I don't get one but I'm trying to pay off some taxes and get some extra cushion in the bank and invest some in my retirement. You're probably right that I'll get a better one, I just wonder when.
In the meantime, I'm practicing "darn it" and "heck".
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@guybrush (4658)
• Australia
21 Jun 08
I'm so sorry you lost your job, dragon. It's very honest of you to admit it might have been your own fault, and the fact you feel sorry and want to do better next time is a really good sign. I hope you find another job soon ... and stop feeling bad about yourself - it could happen to anyone; we're all human! Good luck!
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
Thanks so much for the encouragement.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
Yes, I'll be here a lot more! I'm taking it well because it wasn't an unjust firing, I would have fired me, too. I just hope I can break my bad habits.1 person likes this
@melanie652 (2524)
• United States
21 Jun 08
I'm sorry you got let go from your job, but am glad to hear you are taking responsibility for it and admitting it was something you did wrong. Now you can admit your mistake and move forward. I bet that's one mistake you will NEVER repeat? Best of luck to you!
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
You bet! I used to have much worse language, I was married to a guy that said the F word in nearly every sentence and I picked that up. Not his fault, but it was an easy habit to fall into. I've been practicing not using cuss words, I might even erase them from my vocabulary if I work hard enough!
@Fishmomma (11658)
• United States
2 Jul 08
I'm very sorry about the job. I hope your able to get the other one. I don't swear, but my problem is blaming other people when everything is going wrong. I get mad and whine about everything. I'm trying very hard to be positive and supportive to everyone around me this month. I was very mad in June about the high cost of many items including our $5.00 a gallon gas. My husband needed gas today and I told him he can't whine about our gas bill.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
2 Jul 08
A lot of us have that problem and it's hard to break. I took a hard look at myself about a year ago and stopped blaming others for my mistakes. It's a blow to the ego but actually liberating, it puts me firmly in control and I like it so much better. Even if I do have to take the blame!
@highflyingxangel (9225)
• United States
20 Jun 08
Don't beat yourself up over it though. Sometimes things happen. Sometimes we tend to speak outloud and we don't intend you. You messed up and admitted it was your fault. However you have gotten a call from another temp agency. Things aren't looking so bad. You'll just have to try harder next time.
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@suspenseful (40192)
• Canada
20 Jun 08
At least you admitted you were wrong. You have to be careful of what you say on a job and also when something that was considered swear words and still is, is used in everyday conversation and in the movies and on Tv, to remember that many of the directors, producers, and media people are not exactly God-fearing and think that having potty mouths is all right.
I would not be surprised at all those people in the southwest swearing like sailors. That is where the movie industry is and many of the people working in it who do not believe in God are either the majority or the vocal minority.
I am glad you got the other job. Safest way, no swearing even when the word is common.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
20 Jun 08
You're right. It's so easy to lose control and speak like everyone around you even when you know it's not right. The old adage of being true to yourself is easy to forget but it's best to pay attention to it!
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
20 Jun 08
As soon as I get to feeling a little better, I'll call them. They might ask why the assignment ended and I can't lie to them so I need to compose myself before I call.
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@xXxMikesWifeyxXx (3072)
• United States
21 Jun 08
Oh wow that sucks!. Im sorry to hear.. i have the same problem. i live in the south also with 3 marine corpse bases around me. my town is a cussing fest LMAO. you know the saying cussing like a sailor.LMAO yea thats fits us vearyyy well.
though i have never cussed at a customer. i have cussed while at work. and because its a habbit and an everyday language for me i often dont relize when i do.
I totaly need to work on mine too.lol...definatly..
well i wish you goodluck with this other temp agency!.and the best in all you do.:) see ya around
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@xXxMikesWifeyxXx (3072)
• United States
30 Jun 08
Hahahaha, yes they probally do since im sure there used to u useing other words:P.. but i think its defiaNTLY GOOD YOU ARE TRYING!:)
@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
When we're around people who cuss, we pick it up quickly for some reason. My dogs think I'm nuts, probably, cos I go around the house now saying "oh, heck!" and "darn it!".
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@Winter08 (441)
• Canada
20 Jun 08
I can relate to the aggravation of the non-stop phone ringing. I had the advantage of being in an office situation where I was usually by myself so my mouthing off in frustration was usually a solitary operation. Unfortunately, there were times when others were around and I still mouthed off. It didn't sound very nice so I did try to tone it down some.
And it's never a nice feeling when the financial plans get short circuited. It can be so scary to not have a regular income.
I hope this turns into an even better job with better pay for you. Wishing you all the best in your next job.
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
20 Jun 08
Thank you for the good wishes, and the understanding!
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@Citizen_Stuart (2016)
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21 Jun 08
Try not to worry about it. I've done call centre work myself, and I know how stressful it can be. You'll get another job soon enough. Trust me on this, I've had so many jobs that my CV is six pages long - and that's the edited version!
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@dragon54u (31633)
• United States
21 Jun 08
LOL! I, too, have had many jobs and unfortunately that doesn't look real good to prospective employers. My last 20 years were spent at home, raising my children and that's a double whammy right there. Oh well, I'm sure things will improve.
