I'm free
By pitstryke
@pitstryke (310)
Philippines
September 22, 2008 8:29pm CST
This is the day where i'm free. Am i really free?? Yesterday my girlfriend and I broke up. i feel sad but after a while i'm feeling ok. Am I really feeling ok?? I can hardly eat and drink. But i really don't feel that bad. Maybe my stomach is feeling bad about what happened yesterday and not me. ehehe! I'm free...my mind doesn't have to text or call someone. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to worry about anything else or someone else but myself. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think about what am i going to say about her and will it make her sad. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think about her doing things that i don't know. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think if she is cheating on me. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think if she's angry with me. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think if she doesn't care about me. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think if she doesn't care about my feelings. I'm free....mind doesn't have to think about the feelings i have for her. I'm free...my mind doesn't have to think about anything else and everything else and someone else but me,myself and I all the time.
Am I really free??? or its just my mind that making me feel that I'm free but my heart is still holding on the memories and the love that I have for her????
3 responses
@markroderick (887)
• Philippines
23 Sep 08
Congrats! well i feel the same way too, when me and my girlfriend for 6 years call it quits. I know that we both agreed on it. But much better for us to go our separate ways than hold on in the relationship which we both know its not going anywhere. Later we disagree and quarrel a lot even in little things. Years really make her change. And i do too. We're far apart from each other and we dont have much time to be together. Though i feel bad. But i have to face it. Time will heal all wounds right? The memories that we've spent together will always be special.
@pitstryke (310)
• Philippines
24 Sep 08
Thanks for the response. I agree that time heals all wounds. But right now I am willing to go down and work on our relationship. Having communication with her makes me feel ok we are talking about things that are needed to work on.
@n30wing (4767)
• Philippines
23 Sep 08
Well I know how you feel dude, your stopping your self to remind everything, what went wrong and pretending your okay. Just for you to move on easily, but deep inside you you feel emptiness cause you got use that she's their beside you. The pain makes you strong. Your mind is trying to hold you, but your heart is still with her wanting to reach her.All problems are temporary,their is always a solution,but the heart that is wounded needed time to heal. Take your time and weigh things. Time and space helps sometimes the relationship to work out, but sometimes with our pride that is why it's doom. But still we can't tell tomorrow what will happened next. Set it free and if it comes bacck ir was really meant for you. Now the question will your mind control your heart or your heart to control your mind? Are you still hoping,or really wanna look for someone better then her, that is deserving for your love? Anyway in love you don't need to ask in return. What is important is you right now trying to to move on. Have a nice day!
@pitstryke (310)
• Philippines
24 Sep 08
Thanks for the response. I don't want to look for someone better. Right now I am trying to talk with her and ask her what went wrong. If this one doesn't work I think this is the time that I need and I will accept that I really need to move on.
@jonastabuena (2307)
• Philippines
23 Sep 08
Last week me and my gf broke up, but today things are going back smoothly, like you, i thought i'm happy when she's out of my life, i think my life would be easy, no worries and peaceful, but i was wrong, i try my best to think and act as free, but deep inside of me i'm not, she's still in my heart, and what ever i do to forget her, she's still there, maybe because i love her, or maybe because the memories we had. And yesterday we were able to solve the misunderstand we had, and were together now again for the 3rd time. Dude, only you can tell if you are really free or not. Have a nice day
@pitstryke (310)
• Philippines
24 Sep 08
Thanks for the response. Right now I am trying to do things that I need to do. I think I need to change for her. I really love her and willing to do anything for her. But if it didn't work maybe it is the time where I should let her go freely.
