12 Years Ago Today My Mother Passed Away!! I miss you Mom!

Thinking of My Mother Today! - I love and Miss you Mom!!
United States
April 26, 2009 7:11pm CST
It's hard to imagine that Yes, 12 years on this very day, I lost My Mother and even though its been 12 years, its seems like only yesterday: She had suffered and died of a miserable slow death, one in which I hope and pray I never have to witness again with a loved one or any family or friend; Her Death fell right on the heels of losing one of my Brother's too, Alan will be gone 14 years this September; I often think of them both and dream of them a lot; I miss both of them terribly; So today has mostly been spent remembering My Mother, reflecting on things past, I know the hole in my heart will never mend, only when we all meet up again; Love you Mom, I know in my heart you are in a much better place up in heaven, along with so many other loved ones of yours, and that you and my Brother are together just as you are in the cemetery where you both rest; I shall see all of you someday soon;
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• United States
27 Apr 09
My heart goes out to you and I know how your feeling I lost my mom to cancer 8 years ago and not a day goes by I don't think of her and miss her.Usually on holidays and birthdays I feel it strongest and the day she passed on is always the hardest.But they are with you everyday always looking over you.And sometimes our loved ones communicate with us in dreams I know my mom with me does.Big Hugs and comfort for you.Take care my friend.xx
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• United States
30 Apr 09
Hi Faeryoftheshire: I'm glad you are having a good time here on mylot, I love this place too, and I've gotten to know a lot of good people on here; In fact I think the friends I have here, are far better and more caring than people I've known my whole life, you know what I mean?? LOL! Kinda sad really;
• United States
28 Apr 09
Your welcome:)And thank you as well,I know how difficult it gets at times,and yes with Mothers day it's always hard to bare,it was a special day for both of us so I feel her loss alot that day.But try to think about only good memories and happy thoughts,as I know she wouldn't want me to be too sad.Isn't wonderful when the ones we love visit us I never want to wake up...lol.Yes with Mothers day around the corner I think we can help eachother get through it.All of us who lost our moms can do a little something together too keep our spirits up and honor them.BIG BIG HUGS to you,my mom loved people and having friends so I bet our moms are hanging out now:)xxx
• United States
28 Apr 09
Mylot has been a great experience for me,I love it here.I love all my friends I met and I enjoy reading different topics I find it all exciting and it's a good way to get to know everyone better.I love it and am having fun.xx
• United States
27 Apr 09
There are people who beleive that when you think about and dream of a loved one who has crossed over to the other side, it is because they are with you, and thinkig of you. I bleive this to be true. Your mom and brother know that you love and miss them and they will be waiting for the reunio on the other side when you are finished what you were sent to do here. Is my dad, he passed away in 2001 and his birthday just recently passed. I feel your pai, you are in my thoughts. Big hugs!
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• United States
28 Apr 09
Hi AngrykittyMSV: Thanks for stopping by; I do appreciate it; Yes, I really do believe that with all my heart, that My Mother does visit me in my dreams and my Brother, and a whole lot of other relatives, but mostly them; I have dreams of my beloved pets that have passed over too, they are always with me; I had a friend stay here one time when I had my old place out in the country, I let her have my bedroom and the next morning she was like, "Morganna", I am never staying in your bedroom again, she said its TOO ACTIVE IN THERE!!!! LOLOLOL! She said a lot more too but I can't say all of that here...ROTFL!! I'm sorry to hear you lost your Father in 2001, isn't it amazing though how fast the time goes?? It is to me; you take care now and big hugs to you too!!!
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• United States
29 Apr 09
HI again MSV; OH I see, that's what happens when I take too much medication and my brain gets all fuzzy and dingy...LOL! sorry about that, well no matter when or how long its been, its still sad when we lose our friends or family members right? I need to get off of this puter now as my body is in such terrible pain and Yep I've taken those strong pain killer's so what little sense I have left will be soon gone...it sucks!! take care dear lady; talk to you soon
• United States
28 Apr 09
Seriously, time flies! Just a few days ago it was the SEVENTEEN YEAR anniversary of when my best friend killed herself. She was 20 years old. It was tragic then, but now seems even more so since I am now a married mom and I realize just how much of LIFE she has missed out on!
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@tyc415 (5706)
• United States
27 Apr 09
I love your tribute to your mother on this anniversary date of her passing. I know exactly what you mean about the hole in your heart and how it will never mend. At least you have all those memories, I know I also have great memories of both my parents and sometimes that is what gets me through the day. Your mother would be very proud of what you wrote.
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• United States
27 Apr 09
HI dearest {{Tyc}}, thank you for that, it means a lot to me; How long has it been since you lost your parents? I thought about Scanning a photo of her for the topic here but just couldn't do it; The only photo's I have of her up on my wall are of her when She and My Father got married, she was young and happy and healthy there and that's the way I want to remember her, not the tiny frail thing of skin on bones that she was, when she passed away; All other photo's of her are packed away, someday I still may go through them and hang up some others but I doubt it; love & hugs to you dear friend
• United States
28 Apr 09
HI again {{Tyc}}, I'm glad to hear that you did get a photo of them when your parents were first married too; I think to have something like that is important for us, My parents were married for 37 years, and they decided they hated each other and they divorced in 1986; Before My Mother passed away she had of course remarried this scum-sucking moron who bled her dry of her divorce settlement, I hated that man with a passion, anyway when I realized she was sick and dying I moved heaven and earth to get her divorce to go through from this egg-sucking scum bag, and get her name BACK as I was NOT GOING to bury her under his name; Thankfully The courts moved the process along and didn't tarry as her health was quickly deteriorating and this had to be done with her in her "right mind" you know? But God was on my side and we got her divorce and she is buried with her 1st. married name, ( our family's name) and not scum-bag's!! My older brother was of no help to me in this matter either, what a jerk!
@smartie0317 (1610)
• United States
27 Apr 09
I'm sorry about your loss. I'm glad, though, you know you'll be reunited with them again. Physical life is so short. Etewrnal life is short and full of trials. :)
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• United States
27 Apr 09
HI smartie0317: Thank you, Oh yes I know we shall all be reunited again someday, and that's what keeps me going, I know too that her and my brother and other relatives often "visit me" in my dreams which is good It always makes me smile; Thanks for stopping by
• Indonesia
27 Apr 09
I'm so sorry for your loss. It must be very hard to grow up without mother and also brother. But the remembrance that you had that's make you stronger each day. I still have both my parents, a brother and also my grandma. But I live in different city, so I miss them everyday. I give you a big hug ^_^
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• United States
28 Apr 09
HI gloriastax; Thank you for your kindness; Enjoy all the time you can with your family, try to make the most of each day with them, we never know when our time will be up; Make strong and long lasting memories with them ; {{big hugs to you too}}, and thanks so much for stopping by;
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• Canada
27 Apr 09
I am sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my mother to lung cancer 16 years ago on March 28. It happened 15 days after my 8th birthday. A sad occasion.
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• United States
27 Apr 09
HI Mark; I am sorry to hear about your loss, no child should have to lose their Mother to Cancer or anything else, and you were so young; I truly am sorry; I hope you had others around you to help you get through those rough years and I hope you still have many surrounding you to get you through the next patch of rough years; Again I am sorry to hear of your loss at such a young age, I just cannot imagine!
@cherriemae (3370)
• Philippines
27 Apr 09
Hi there friend.. I'm sorry for what happened friend.. i know what you're feeling because all of us loves our parents specially our mother who made us a human, who bring us for 9 months inside her womb, who nurture us to make us good being, who care for us, love us more than her self.. i know this feeling because as a daughter i also care and love my mother..just always pray for her soul..have a nice day.. God Bless and happy mylotting
• Philippines
30 Apr 09
your so much welcome too.. just pray ok..
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI Cherriemae: Thank you for your thoughts, that is exactly right and I think that is why we are so close to them throughout life and after they are gone; Thank you for stopping by and may God Bless you too!!
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@cher913 (25782)
• Canada
27 Apr 09
i know what you mean. i think that you will never forget or stop missing your family member. i lost my dad in early feb and since i am an only child, i find i have become very close to my mom. it will be very hard for me too when she passes away.
• United States
28 Apr 09
Hi cher913: Oh My you say you lost your Father this Feb?? Feb 2009?? I am so sorry for your loss, especially since yours is so recent and I know it has to be so painful for you still; I hope you and your Mother do stay close to each other, make the most of each day; Hopefully your Mother will live a long and healthy life; again I'm very sorry for your recent loss of your Father; please take care and here's some {{hugs for you }}
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• Philippines
27 Apr 09
a big hug for you..i know how it feels to loose someone so dear to us...i know because i seen it, felt it and still feeling it..i know...i lost a brother and a daughter..i dont know much to say since i dont know how to heal my own wounds too..maybe im just here because i want you to know that your not alone...ill send them prayers..
• United States
28 Apr 09
Hi Angel_of_charm; Oh my I am truly sorry to hear you have lost a daughter, and a brother; I know that has to be very very painful to you; I will send you and your loved ones a prayer too, May I ask how long its been since you lost your brother and your daughter? If its too painful to talk about I understand that too ok? please take care, and God Bless!! I really really am sorry for your loss!
@CatsandDogs (13963)
• United States
28 Apr 09
Your mother will see these words that you've put here and beam with so much pride in the lovely and thoughtful daughter that she has.... your brother too for the sister that HE has. You're a good girl Jan. So sorry you had to lose your mother at such a young age but you are right, you'll be up there with her some day and she'll be at the Pearly Gates just waiting for you!!
• United States
30 Apr 09
Hi Cats! Thank you so much!! Sorry I've not had the chance to get back to you until now, my body has been throwing severe craps the last few days ( pain wise) and yesterday I was really just doped up most of the day I was in so much pain; Crazy rainy, cool weather we are having is just terrible for me; I'm such a puss anymore LOL!! Thank you again for your words, I do appreciate it, and I know you too have so much going on in your life; take care dear lady and thanks again!!
@jerzgirl (9208)
• United States
27 Apr 09
Hey, girl! Here's a hug from me to you. You and my other friend in Knnoxville go through this every year on the anniversary of their parent(s) passing. Hers is in September. Take care of yourself and cherish your memories.
@leenie50 (3992)
• United States
27 Apr 09
Hi Jan, I'm sorry you still suffer the pain of your losses. Both my parents are gone but for some reason I don't feel the pain. I loved both without end but when I think of them I enjoy the memories. I will say that I lived away from them my whole adult life and maybe that makes it easier. But as you say we will all be together again someday. I'm one of 9 siblings and have not lost one yet. I have a Twin Sister and even though we differ to the point of annoyance, I don't know how I might live without her. Since you dream about your Mom and Brother, maybe they are letting you know that they are close by. Hugssss leenie
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI Leenie: Sorry to hear that both of your parents are gone; Wow you grew up with a big family, I only had the two brothers and that was enough (G)!! I was the youngest I think I was born last so as to be here to bury all of my family or so it seems that way to me; That's cool you have a Twin Sister, does she live close by or far away?? Yeah when I dream of my Brother and Mother it does comfort me; {{hugs to you too}} maybe you and twin can spend some time together soon?? LOL!!!
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• United States
29 Apr 09
HI {{Leenie}}, I loved your story about your GrandFather, that's great! Yeah I've always been "tuned in" to things my whole life, it always freaked my Mother out, and she just called Me "weird" LOL! OH well I am weird (G)!! I could tell you lots of things that would make the hair on the back of your neck stand up...LOL!! I've so enjoyed our sharing of our loved ones, I'd type out more today but my wreck of a body is in terrible pain today, and my visit to the chiropractor was extremely painful; take care and will write more soon;
@Opal26 (17679)
• United States
27 Apr 09
Hey Jan~I am so sorry about your Mom and your Brother. I lost my brother 21 years ago and every year it feels the same. I also have dreams about him and it still hurts alot. So I know how much pain you must be in and I know that nothing that anyone says will make it any better or easier. So all I can say to you is, yes one day you will all be together again. But, in the meantime, your Mother and Brother would want you to enjoy your time here on earth so you have to do the best you can. You have others who care about you Jan, so always remember that. Hugs and Love, Leslie/Opal
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27 Apr 09
Im sorry for your loss
• United States
28 Apr 09
Hi andrew0006; Thank you, and thanks so much for stopping by, oh and Welcome to mylot; I forgot to say that to some other "new members" that posted on here.. {[sorry to those that I forgot}}, my mind is elsewhere;
@gokhale (97)
• United Arab Emirates
27 Apr 09
I feel very sorry that you have lost your mother and brother. Never forget her unconditional love and affection. Always remember your mother, you have only one MOTHER in your Lifetime.Is it not true ?
• United States
28 Apr 09
HI there gokhale: Thank you, no I'll never forget their love and the love we all had for each other; The good times we shared and the bad ones, and sad ones; I know they are always with me in my heart and soul; Thank you for stopping by;
@specific (154)
• South Korea
27 Apr 09
I am sorry to hear that you lost your mom 12 years ago.However,you still have to live.I am a girl that who left her father for 18 years,which have given me a great blow.I was 1 years old when i left my father,but i do not know anything.I can feel your sad feeling .Best wishes for you,thank you.
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI Specific: Sorry things happened to you and you had to leave your Father at an early age of one year old; That's so sad; Life does deal out some really hard blows to us in life, I hope yours is a better one for you now; Thank you for stopping by;
@zdbzss (102)
• China
27 Apr 09
I will definitely let you know that it was very painful,especially when we are our most pro-urban people, when we feel lonely, our minds will always be remembered with his or her time,it is unforgettable period of history, but now can only exist in our minds the. So let us cherish the people around us now.
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI zdbzss: Yes there are many times and special memories that I have of her when she was alive and well; Thank you for stopping by
@411space (55)
• United States
27 Apr 09
Peace and Love i feel the sameway since 1982.
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI there 411space: Wow! That's been a long time for you since 1982; I am sorry for your loss as well; Peace and love to you too, and thanks for stopping by;
@tzaddi (395)
• Philippines
27 Apr 09
well i understand what you feel because i miss my grandfather too. he used to live with us. we're very close and he's also like my 2nd father. i'm sure that she's watching over you and she's very happy and very proud for you. well have a good day!and good luck.
• United States
27 Apr 09
HI tzaddi: Sorry to hear about your GrandFather I'm sure he was like a second Father to you, I was close to my Grandparents too when they were alive, they had such a great old farm way out in the sticks; I know all of my loved ones are still with me in heart and spirit; Thank you for stopping by and May God Bless you too!
• India
27 Apr 09
Girl, I am sorry for your mom and brother.but feeling sad wouldn't bring them back.if your mother was alive will she like to see you feeling sad?no.see would like to see you smile.remember this and smile.this is the cycle of life.they will live in your heart forever.smile not only make you happy but also the people around you.life is a journey that will end but the memories of the journey will never end.
• United States
28 Apr 09
Hello udhayaouvs; Thank you, I think feeling sad at this time of year is quite normal really for anyone who has lost a loved one, its just the way we remember them in our hearts; I know life is a journey , and its all a process; thanks for stopping by