Spiritualy abandoned

United States
July 15, 2009 7:03pm CST
Permanent failure, life of a loser, never succeeding. That's my life story. I just posted 2 blogs and answered a post and they have vanished. Much like my life. All my good jobs I have been layed off from due to closings or down sizing, my vehicles are broke down, and my business is failing. My faith is getting weak, my spirits are low and I am hungry. My kids are turning away from the faith, and becoming selfish and self centered.I went to work construction and now I can't even get payed. In my 16 years of marriage my wife and I have lost 2 children. When does it turn around? Where is the hope of a good life. God promises never to leave his children. But He never promises to us safe. He is probably eating a box of chicken while I go broke and starve. I once prayed for a car. I got a car the next day from my boss. Free at that. I spent my last $10.00 on gas went to insure it and register it. IT STOPPED and never ran again. I guess I should have prayed for a running car. Like I should have prayed for children that lived, or a job that pays, or anything positive.I hope in the end it is all worth it. Life is hard enough to find out hell is waiting on me. Tell me your hard luck stories, or that God really does care?!?
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• Philippines
16 Jul 09
Life is not complete without a trial. And this trials will make us stronger. Just think of other people who don't have a house to live, they are just sleeping in the street. Think of malnourished kids who suffer and die because of poverty and yet we can still have a decent meal even for just one day. We may have strength to go to work, how about people with disabilities and are sick? We may have difficulties in life. But think of this, there are thousands more who is lacking and unfortunate than you are and yet complaining will never do us anything good. God is not unjust to see all these things happen everyday. There will always be a reason why these are happening too. His ways are not our ways so we may not even understand why. I guess He is telling you something now but you are pre-occupied with negative things in your mind. That sometimes, it is better to shut up and listen for a while when He speaks clearly to us, and yet we are always complaining and grumbling instead of counting our blessings. When was the last time you have thanked God for that water you have drinked and quenched your thirst? Do we really know who God is and what He can do for us? My friend I have nothing against you. But you must understand that we are created to obey and love God and not to command God what He has to do in us. What you need, He already knows even if you don't ask Him. But, God knows what is best for us. And He sees the motives of our hearts too. We must first seek Him in our life.
@becdmd (704)
• Philippines
16 Jul 09
very inspiring and encouraging. (^_^)
• Philippines
16 Jul 09
im 22. i was soo drunk last night, with some guys and nothing happened. that's a blessing already for me.. when your car stopped, may be the car stopped so that you will be saved from pending accidents.your blogs lost maybe because you have violated some rules. He took away your children because He knew you will not be able to provide for them. i think it is just the way you see things. God knows the desires of your heart, but he will not grant them all. furthermore, he took all of them away so that you will gain strength from all the challenges he has given you.look at the bright side of the situation. do not dwell on the negatives for it will always come running after you. the evil is always there, you know that. but never let him take that faith away from you. your faith is what keeps you alive everyday. He will provide. soon. have faith,God bless.
• Philippines
16 Jul 09
hahaha i was drunk coz im devastated,haha. but its fine, God has a purpose for everything. i know he has better plans for me. :)
@becdmd (704)
• Philippines
16 Jul 09
God wants us to depend on Him always that's why in times of crisis or struggles we should not struggle on our own effort because we will most likely to feel depressed...based on what your saying you really are experiencing a major challenges but God is just teaching you something behind that problem and eventually it will turn into blessings if we don't focus on the problems but on to Jesus himself to the unseen things: His promises for us, He need your full trust in Him and surrender. If you claim that God already provided for you without a doubt, He will pour out His blessings on you more than you even imagine. It's just a matter of believing and receiving. Just have faith in Him regardless of your situation.
• Canada
16 Jul 09
You know what, your life isn't as different as anyone else's. I know it's tough but there must be a silver lining in your life. You know something positive, maybe it's a hobby. Or something you enjoy doing, mine's knitting and taking my dogs for their walks. But my life is kind of like yours, only I don't have kids and I really wanted kids. Hope this helps.
• China
16 Jul 09
Life is short ,to take things too much,the key lies in the process .Happiness is important,so that aby time optimistic that once the spirit of people intend to give up ,then the casic of life on the dark ,so the spirit of never doing the losers,courageous in the face of all life.Members come on!
@Xavoir (19)
• United States
16 Jul 09
"Life Of a loser" I can't relate. I'm a geek.the real losers are the idiots who call people losers to make themselves feel better about themselves. And i personally think god is a myth. It's the things we do that influence what we get.
@ketybhagat (4123)
• India
16 Jul 09
Hey friend, hold on. Do not give up. I too am having a bad time these days, what with my losing my job come August, my scooter stolen and my husband diagnoised with a heart problem. Yours of course is worse, but dont lose hope. Trust in God, for He alone can help you. You are not abondened by Him. I can see your struggle long and never ending, so its easy to say things, I feel for you from the bottom of my heart and hope to God things will work out. They say THINK POSITIVE. Please please for my sake, surround yourself with positive thoughts and positive people, and see how things work out for you. Thats the secret of the Universe. When you have negative thoughts of negative happenings, the Universe gives you back that negativity. Try and be happy and positive and hope the world becomes your oyster. Good luck friend.
@wenpan (36)
• China
16 Jul 09
Hi ,a word said that if you think you can,you can.in my opinion no matter what happened we should believe that we can solve it.and believe that if we done it no matter it failure or something,we will success at last.just like now i am nojob but also it difficult to find,but i believe that i can find a job. lord save those who help themselves.so cheer up i believe that you can.
• China
16 Jul 09
As a graduate,I enter the real society from now on.I know there will be much troubles and challenges waiting for me.I do not give up,for I have the faith that it will be all righ soon.Hope you have this optimism and faith in your life.