I knoW i shouLd not be bothered but I am*

United States
August 12, 2010 5:30pm CST
Life takes you through so many different circumstances and in my case when I found out I was pregnant from my now (8 of knowing each other) 6 year relationship we actually seperated for most of my daughters' infant time frame from about newborn to about 18 months. Now, he was not willing to be involved in anything that had to deal with her before her birth so all those doctor visits, picking out baby items, furniture, and all that great stuff he pretty much missed out on. I admit the reason why I am writing this is because I am indeed hurt because he pretty much just told me that he had been following all his friends' pregnancy from the begining and that she was in the labor room right now. He said he even knew how the furniture looks like, a lot of little details, and even his name. It hurts but if I say something it will just become into an arguement that we do not even need. Am I such a horrible person for feeling this way?
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@celticeagle (159452)
• Boise, Idaho
13 Aug 10
No, you aren't a horrible person for feeling this way. A one who wastes her time on this man, yes. I think you deserve better and should not be wasting time with this guy. He says things to hurt you. He doesn't want to be involved with your children who are his also. Why? And why do you let him get a way with it?
@celticeagle (159452)
• Boise, Idaho
16 Aug 10
Well, that doesn't oliviate the entire problem but that is a good stance to take. Stay strong.
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• United States
15 Aug 10
Thank you for your response and for the advice; I truely believe it is bc of the fact that he missed out on such a large part of our daughter's newborn era that it hit him. He is definetly there for his daughter, I was just uncomfortable bc it made me think of all that I went through alone* (doctor's visits, picking out furniture/baby items etc) but it's like I said before God gave me two legs for a reason not to lean left or right but to stand up straight with my chin up high and not allowing anyone to change that or make me feel as if I am incompetent of doing anything.
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• United States
13 Aug 10
He wouldn't follow his own childs pregnancy but he followed all his firends? wow i can't understand how u feel but i can understand why you feel that way , you have a reason to be bothered. You should talk to him you rreally should a relationship is bult on communication andif he can't effectively communicate with you, you should reconsider this whole relationship.
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• United States
15 Aug 10
Thank you for your response. The deal is we agreed we would communicate things with each other and in this case he was being open as what I had asked and if I start a little bit of anything it will go back to being mouth sewed up. It is difficult because I know I asked hime to be more open but at the same time I view certain things with a total different set of eyes.
@SomeCowgirl (32191)
• United States
12 Aug 10
No I think you have every right to feel hurt. It isn't right that he wasn't there for his own child but is for this friend of his. I do wonder however if maybe he is doing that because he feels bad for not being there for his own? But why he is telling you about it I am not sure, unless like I said, he feels bad about it and in his own way is trying to tell you that he does? Either way I am sorry you feel this way about it, and wish you could do something about it without possibly starting an argument.
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• United States
13 Aug 10
Thanks for your response, it is always great to hear all different views because times like this because of hurt we tend to see only the things we want to see. I asked him about 2 months ago to communicate with me more and he has been putting his part but at the same time it has been quite difficult.
@cream97 (29087)
• United States
12 Aug 10
Hi, Adeliza1220. You being hurt is not your fault at all. It is his fault. He never was there for you when you had the baby and before then too. So now, he knows every simple detail about his friend's pregnancy. How is it that he can be so concerned about his friend than you?? Are you sure that these two don't have anything secretive going on with each other? It is sad how he is doing you. He acts like you are the last person that he wants to deal with. And it is sad. If this is his baby that you had, then he really needs to start acting like the daddy.
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• United States
13 Aug 10
Thanks for your response and to answer your question she is a long time friend from middle school and honestly that is all I know. He started to get involved with our daughter when she was 3 months old and did not know what it was to live with her until she was about 19 months old so he missed a lot. It can be very difficult to explain all in detail in such a short paragraph because there is so much.
@Angelgirl16 (2171)
• United States
13 Aug 10
Hi Adeliza1220, I am sorry for your pain. I truly understand that you would be hurting because your boyfriend is now showing more interest in his friend's pregnancy and all that comes with it, than he showed in your pregnancy when you were carrying his own child. Some guys are over-joyed when they find out that they are going to be a father, but on the other hand there are guys who are not ready to be a father and they don't know how to handle the situation, except to be far removed from any of the decisions about the baby. Then, when the baby is born, most of them fall in everlasting love with it. Regret, for not participating in his own baby's before birth could be what he is suffering from. He maybe realizing that he missed the beauty and the experience of sharing in the preparations of bringing a baby into the world. He can't undo the past,so as wrong as it maybe, he is showing the interest that he should have shown you, to another girl. Finding a way to express you hurt to him, without getting into an argument, is a good idea. Good Luck
• United States
15 Aug 10
Thank you for your response and it is just exactly what it is. It is as you stated he did not know how to handle the situation of the whole father idea but then again it was shocking because he acted so vulgar towards me as if I was just a one night stand I was very lucky to be as strong as I was (my child was the cause of that strength) because after so many years to be treated the way I was it was just unexpressable. When you are pregnant there are two parties who are very important to have as support your parents and your partner and with my situation at first they all had turned there back. Regardless of everything I always knew they were just scared of the changes and that once they saw her they would see why I always faught for her life and believe me she is very much loved. Thank you for your words.
@priyayogi (222)
• India
13 Aug 10
I should not be bother about any people i can do my workperfectly in my side. i m not distub any other person.it is very risk.
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• United States
15 Aug 10
Thank you for sharing your view on the topic and for your response.