Screwing your own schedule?
By Suggar
@Suggar (3606)
Bulgaria
November 27, 2010 5:01am CST
Hello friends,
A lots of stuff changed in myself for the last 3 months. Before i was so motivated and knowing what i want. No it looks like i have no aim, no goals around me. I'm just living for the day and nothing more.
I had a little memo pad which i used for my monthly expenses so my aim was everything to be checked and paid to the end of the month. Now i don't do it. I stopped, because of a bad financial moment, when we were out of money and we were living only for the day.
I had ideas in my past, when i was always thinking - tomorrow i'll wake up, will drink a half hour coffee, will smoke few cigarettes, will clean at home, will wash the kitchen, then will start working. At the end of the day i'll cook and everything will be fine. Now i wake up, drink coffee around 2 hours and say to myself "Be calm, the day just started, you have so much time and you do everything". My time fly as a bird, but so fast that i can't feel it. And there it is, it is afternoon and i haven't done anything. I know that there is still time for cleaning, may be half an hour, because i'm doing it every day, so it won't be so messy. I got an hour to cook, it will be for diner, and it's still afternoon so i got some more time. I can spend it in facebook or in mylot, it's so great pleasure to talk with people and i still earn few cents every day. In the afternoon, when i'm exhausted from laying on the couch and using the laptop, i start reading the projects i have to work for.
So nothing is cleaned, nothing is cooked, i'll do it later, i'll try to make some money now. I work two hours and i think "O, it's so boring, let me make a coffee", and take a little rest, because my eyes are tired from the screen and my mind can't imagine something creative and nice. That's how after a half hour rest i feel ready to start doing something. But it's time for cooking. I start doing it and around 10 in the evening i just want some sleep.
That's how i screw the schedule i imagine every day in my mind. I nearly can see it in the evening, telling myself "Tomorrow i'll get up and will do everything for short time, so fast and will spend all day in working", but it never happens.
Have you felt that way? I thought it's laziness, but after a month doing it, i'm not sure it is laziness. I think it's kind of depression or i just miss something, which is very important for me - the motivation.
I think it's time to make a new schedule, to write it every night for the next day, may be that will help me to wake up from my boring daily stuff and to brace up a little for making more money and for more interesting life.
What do you think and what would you do, if that was you? 
8 responses
@owlwings (43897)
• Cambridge, England
27 Nov 10
It is depression rather than laziness (though some might say that it's laziness, too). The only way out is to start making your lists and setting goals again but begin by giving yourself just ONE or TWO easily achievable goals - say clean the kitchen in half an hour - then REWARD yourself with a coffee.
You don't say whether you get out of the house much at all. If that is the case, make an effort to do so. If there are places you can walk, then just half an hour or an hour walking in the park or something will soon get you feeling more positive. The exercise and the fresh air can be a reward, if you like, for any small goal you achieve. Just walking, looking at new things and watching other people around you can be fun and relaxing.
I sometimes just sit on a park bench for half an hour and make up stories about the people who pass by. I rarely write them down but, if you like writing, you can do. Just little thumbnail sketches about the people - quite fictitious, of course - their names, what kind of house they live in, whether they are kind people or maybe a little reserved ... whatever comes to mind. It can be fun! Or else I might watch birds and animal life around me or just relish the beauty of a tree or the sky. It's just idle thought, really, but I always go home feeling refreshed and with new plans.
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@Suggar (3606)
• Bulgaria
27 Nov 10
Thanks a lot for sharing this great ideas with me, friend. When i was teen and after my teenage years i was very active person. I lived for my work and always thought what to do the next day, how to impress people around me and how to make them feel better. But now with this changed life, when i live in different city, without knowing someone else than my boyfriend friends, it's really annoying.
So that's why i'll not only go to walks often, but i'll watch the other people more. I was that kind of person, when i was at school, i wanted to study psychology and it was kind of a passion for me to stare what happens around me. I'm not a gossip girl, just stared everything for myself and think for different stuff.
The last work i worked today was with daily targets. When i was a seller our manager was doing targets for us every day. When i became a manager i was doing daily target for the people who worked in my shop. I am just a schedule lover, i love to plan, i love to think how something could be done in it's creative way.
Now you are turning back my hope that something can be changed. Today i'll buy a notebook and will make plans every night for the next day. And this is how i'll bring back my usual life.
Thank you. 
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@owlwings (43897)
• Cambridge, England
28 Nov 10
Good luck, Suggar!
It sounds to me that your self-confidence took a knock when one of your goals went wrong. You have to get over that (and see it as just one of those things that happens). You clearly know how to do it (because I'm sure that you've done it for other people in your time). It's just a matter of doing it for you (which is not always so easy). There are some lines from a song: "Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again!" (I can't remember the name of the song but it's an old one!)
@cyrri_ako (461)
• Philippines
27 Nov 10
i have 1 principle...i have been following this since i was college..
i dont do something when im not in the mood...it's just a waste of time..coz i may do it yet the result may not be that good..
what i do is i try to compose myself so that i can be ready for whatever i need to do..
it's hard to force yourself to do something you dont want to do...
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@ganeshprabhuk (1722)
• India
28 Nov 10
Always have an aim and start working towards it. It is the best way to take up things. Always have an aim and goal so you can achieve. The book called Awaken the gaint within you is very good to motivate self and personally develop. You can find so many changes within and you can have goals which can be achieved.
@zapatee (477)
• Philippines
27 Nov 10
maybe you just need a little change of routine or visual perspectives. try going out for a little walk, or rearrange your working area, or swap schedules for cleaning or having a short time off for yourself. i sometimes do that and it works for me. sometimes when i do really get bored or unmotivated to work at my desk, i'd just go out and grab a bite from a burger joint and have a chat with fellow customers. sometimes, i'd go for a half-mile walk from where i live to get some fresh air and watch other people and cars pass me by, then walk back home.
to keep me on course with my daily goals, i jot them down on a small piece of paper (or a post-it note) and put it in my desk where i work. it feels good after i get to finish each task and cross it out from the list. planning and a little creativity really beats procrastination or laziness.
@zapatee (477)
• Philippines
1 Dec 10
you're welcome, suggar! and maybe if you have a little problem with people distracting you at work you can try to be a little creative and funny by putting up a little sign at your door or desk that says "don't disturb me unless you see smoke coming out of your hair or mine", lol.
3-5 minutes of stretching also do wonders, good luck!
@Suggar (3606)
• Bulgaria
28 Nov 10
Hello friend. Your response was really successful and today i reached my first thing. Just making lunch instead of something easier. I was not finished my coffee, but started to cook. That's great, because i cook something new and it's first time for me. It was so interesting and i was so filled with love about the person i cook this dish.
Now a movie and then working. I'll put a goal for working today. Thanks.
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@frontvisions101 (16043)
• Philippines
27 Nov 10
It's called procrastination. Everyone does it and it's in the individual if they can take care of it or let it take care of them instead. If it was me, I'd find alternative routes to achieve the goal. If I can still sense that there's still a chance, I'll find a way to do it.
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@Suggar (3606)
• Bulgaria
27 Nov 10
Hello friend, thanks for sharing your opinion. Actually everything came, because i couldn't see result of my working. Always when we paid our expenses, we were on 0 with our budget, and now i have no motivation to spend so many hours in working, and still got nothing behind my neck, after an year working for good money.
Like my under mind always forget about the hours i have to work and thinks there is always time for everything else.
Unfortunately i have no chance to make so good money with some other job.
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@offlimits (596)
• Philippines
28 Nov 10
Hi there. Honestly speaking, I understand what you were saying. I'm like that these past few weeks, really. I feel like I've wasted too much time focusing on what I should have done, on planning what I would do tomorrow, but then again nothing happens. I feel useless every time. It's like I'm stuck somewhere, but then again time flies so fast and the world is still spinning as it should be. I don't really think this is laziness because we're doing something, it's just that we feel like there's not enough time to figure what's what. I'm sure you're going through something, like in my case I was forced to quit school this semester because of financial constraints. I've been struggling ever since, like I always think I should be doing something productive to make use of my precious time. So I kind of decided to get back here in myLot (I signed up way too long ago but I stopped so, I want to do something here again.) All I'm saying is, I don't want to put labels with what I'm possibly feeling anymore, because I know I just needed time to get back on my feet. And with getting back on my feet I mean fix my schedule, my activities, my life. I think you should, too.
By the way, sorry for the super long reply.
@lingli_78 (12821)
• Australia
28 Nov 10
it happened to me as well a few times when i am lazy and try to procrastinate... the only way i can overcome it is to push and motivate myself to get going... i notice that i have become lazier ever since i am jobless... i have to get out of this habit and find a new job real soon so that i can survive... take care and have a nice day...
@Suggar (3606)
• Bulgaria
28 Nov 10
It's the same with me, but i got online job with good earnings. The problem is that this online job gives me the chance to make my own schedule and to decide which moment what to do. May be this is how i became that way ... Always thinking that there is still time for doing this or the other one.
@bounce58 (17380)
• Canada
5 Dec 10
I start out that way too. I would have goals and aims at the onset, and I would get discouraged if I don't see any results. I've come to realize that it is just life. That however idealistic you want to be, life just happens. And it could become depression if you want it to be. Or if you let it be.
The trick is how you get out of it. It could just be another motivating idea which you could build on.
I hope you find your next motivation!
