i hate my life

Indonesia
January 30, 2011 3:55am CST
sometimes i try to be thankful to God, but no happiness for me. and i'm tired. not only my father that always threaten me, but my mom now is not like long time ago. she always made me stress too. and my boyfriend too. we always fighting this few months. i'm tired. i cant go anywhere. always at home like i am a prisoner, and i cant doing a thing that i like. anytime, my dad will curse me and yell at me. i hate my life. i always imagine i'm rich, can go anywhere i like, have everything and being in a warm family. i'm tired to pretend that i'm a happy person in front of everybody. i cant hold it anymore. maybe people will say i'm melancholic, but i'm really tired. i am human and i want to be respected as a human too. i really wish ai have dad and mom that so warm and always support me. what should i do. because i dont think i can stand though.
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19 responses
@velvet53 (22526)
• Palisade, Colorado
1 Feb 11
It is sad that you have to feel this way. I don't know your age but you need to put yourself first for a change. You deserve a happy life and it is up to you to make it. Do your best to start saving and when you have enough then tell everyone that you have had enough and leave. It will be tough at first but the peace you will experience will be well worth it. Be strong. You can do it! Find little things in life that make you happy and build on them.
@velvet53 (22526)
• Palisade, Colorado
19 Feb 11
That is what friends are for. Sometimes a little support from people you don't know personally can be a big help and comfort. Keep your chin up.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i know it will be though at first. but knowing so many people like you support me to get my happiness, i still can smile. thank you
@jointeam (40)
• Indonesia
31 Jan 11
annawen, don't hate. since life is so precious n the most precious. you begin from your self using your eyes first to look ta you yourself. so we continued.......give my warm n wholehearted text to you... begin with today give it's a present
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
thank you jointeam :) i wish i have real friend like you in real life that will support me.
• Indonesia
4 Feb 11
You'll find him, yes you will. Just follow your heart, say hello to your parents..,begin the journey.
• Philippines
1 Feb 11
Pray. That's all I can give you annawen86. Always trust in Him and lift all your problems to Him. And pray for those people who always feels you down. Life is good and although we go through a lot of trials in our lives day after day. But always remember that you don't have to pretend that you are happy even you are not. Try to talk with your mom and dad and explain how you feel. So that they have an idea that what they are doing is not good. Open up your feelings and never hate your life. Be thankful for it. God Bless!
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
thank you my friend
@aerous (13434)
• Philippines
31 Jan 11
Well, don't think being like that friend. I know your smart person and more differently from others. You need to love your life because there many people that is much miserable than you... Look at those people in the street. No home to reside, no food to eat, and no bed to rest when they tired. No sheet to make their body warm...they are miserable. Look at you. You are much luckier from them. Be by yourself because your not alone in that particular agitation. I will be here to give you strength. Don't be give up because when you give up. You never experience the beauty of life
@aerous (13434)
• Philippines
1 Feb 11
Don't worry about anything, friend. There's a time for you to be happy. Just go on to your life and in the future you see myself being happy and do something about your dreams... I am always be here to make you strong. Because I don't want to see or know that there are people being lonely due some instances in their lives. I wish you all the best in life. Don't hesitate to ask anything that makes you happy, friend. I will be here to support you...I will be here to understand you. Whatever trials you have at the moment. Don't be sad because your not alone. I do whatever good I know for making you a strong lady and change your misery into happy life ever...
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
:) i know you always read my post, and i know that you know all the story from any pieces of the post. thank you. i try to be thankful by seeing the people in the street, sometimes i convinced my self that i'm still lucky. but there are days when i cant hold it anymore, and fallen deep to the darkness. i still try to think about what i should do to live in a free life, where i can be myself and not affraid being beaten again. i want to live free and help poor people. that is something that always in my mind.
@jessxu (35)
• China
30 Jan 11
I am older than you.But I know the way you feel because it happen all the time for most young people.We always feel that we are not lucky enough to born in a wealthy family,the parents not pay attention to us,what we are doing that the parents ask us to do is not we really like,etc.When we are in these troubles,we should learn to relex ourselves.You can chat with your best friends,tell him/her about your sorrow.I think they should give you some advice.Regardless of the value of these advices,it is important for you to relex yourself.You can build on your interests and friendships,that are also useful for you to forget the unpleasant thing.Lastly,I suggest that you can make some other place friends and learn some other culture.I hope that you will be a happy person in the near future.Good luck.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
life is not that easy my friend. i dont have real friend in reality. because my dad never allow me to go outside with my friends since i was a kid. so, i dont have friends because they think that i am weird and it is only a reason so that i'm not going with them. and i cant go anywhere because, once he found out that i go somewhere he will curse me again to die and live in hell. i cant go anywhere, the only think i cant do is through internet in time where he went away from home. i always have to back home as fast as i can after study and when i was working on my task from university, he will be mad at me. so, even to make a task for university he will mad badly to me
@jessxu (35)
• China
1 Feb 11
It looks like that your father is too strict to you.Every one should have own friends when they grow up.Because you are 24 years old already,you have the right to make friends.I can't image how can one father make such a statement when their chidren don't make an unforgivable mistake.But anyhow,he is your father.Well,is your father strict and unreasonably for everyone or only for you?Have you graduated from university?If he is only for you and you are studying in university.I think you can comply to him at present.At the same time,ask for your mother for help,because it looks like that your mom is better for you than your father.Everything will be fine after you have graduated from university and have your own work/life.
• Romania
30 Jan 11
I hate my life to. My father has left me and now my mom is trate me very bad.Somethime i wish to die.
• Romania
30 Jan 11
Sorry for my bad english :(:(
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i know your feeling. so many times i wish i die too. i'm so frustrated with my life.
@choybel (5042)
• Philippines
30 Jan 11
Hi! I feel sad for you being in that situation. I don't know how I can be of real help but I want to suggest things that could probably help. there are cases like this in our country too, and most commonly a person in your situation would tend to run away, I wouldn't suggest that though unless you are very sure of what to do next. If you have a sure plan that could provide you with the means of a respectable living then I guess I wouldn't stop you, otherwise never think of it as it will only cause you more harm. What I would suggest is asking a good friend of yours for help, if you are in the legal age in your country then maybe you could get a job recommendation and start working and saving. Your parents will be pleased to see you helping yourself and helping them, and they would probably be more kind to you. I know it will be very hard at start but you'll get used to it. There is no glory without sacrifice. Talk to your boyfriend about your condition. He should be the one supporting you in this kinds of situation. If he makes it worst then, he doesn't deserve you. I pray for your success and wish you good luck!
• Indonesia
31 Jan 11
hello choybel, thank you for the suggestion :) the problem is i cant go anywhere. i dont have permission from my dad to take job at other city. infact, i cant get any job in my city because it is small city. once, 10 years ago, my dad chase away my older sister from home. but i cant do the same think. however i still have responsibility not to make my grandpa and grand ma sad. i have to pretend that i'm ok in front of my grandparent. i dont want to make them upsad. they are old now, i dont want to make them think too many. i just wish my life will be better, all that i can do is just cry. sometimes i'm tired to pray. i fell like i can do nothing. all that i can do is stay working online and express how i feel at mylot. but too many times, my dad will be mad at me because i always in front of my laptop. he will say that i'm useless. isnt it funny, being an adult woman but still dont have freedom. i just wish i will get much money from online work for more saving. help me trough pray my friend so that i can pass this stage of difficult time. thank you
@yogeshdhusa (2236)
• India
30 Jan 11
annawen86 Hi I would like to say one thing Just for today I will live the attitude of Gratitude Just for today I will Not Worry Just for today I will not Anger Just for today I will do my work honestly Just for today I will Respect Every Living thing Hope It helps I follow it Daily and Believe Some thing Good I going to happen to you And it will fall into your lap day after day Take care
• Indonesia
31 Jan 11
it is a great word. i like it. dont you know what funny about hope and feeling of happiness? everytime i feel so happy and excited to waiting for something, it always failed and i got the opposite think. for example, when i feel so happy to meet my uncle and cant wait for the day my uncle came to my town, when the time has come, he has to canceled it because he has something urgent to do.
@kingparker (9673)
• United States
31 Jan 11
If you have a job or can make some decent earning yourself, why not moving out. That is your only option to stay away from your father's threatening and your mom heartless treatment to you. If you no longer love that boy you so called your boyfriend, just let him go.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
because my mom got cancer. i cant blame her, and i cant leave her in that situation but i am stress too. i dont have job in real world because i cant go outside from my house. i only have job from online and it is not much so i'm saving it little by little for escape someday. and about my bf, i knew that he is stress to because the pressure from my dad that said that he is poor people. so, i cant blame my mom and my bf because they are victim too. but the situation make it worst and mke the stress double
• China
31 Jan 11
Left that place of torment, do what you want to do. The pursuit of happiness is their dream.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
yeah, it is my dream to free my self from this pressure. thank you my friend
@yspmyl (3435)
• Malaysia
31 Jan 11
Sorry to hear that from you, I believe everyone will have their own life and they will have their own problem where they have to bear with it. Some people are having happy life and some people are sad and down all the time. But I believe that there will be one day, you will be having a much better life. So, never give up hope on your life. There are so many people out there that having a much worst life than you do, try to look at those people who doesn't have home and they have to beg for money and find foods from the garbage. So, you are still better than others.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i know. thank you my friend. i just need time to heal my wound
• Philippines
30 Jan 11
hello annawen! my heart bleeds for you and i feel your pain and angst at the cruelty of the situation you are in. It is indeed sad for some people to have parents who are not really parents in the real sense of the word. Maybe they're facing their own demons too, like you do, and it's just sad that you have to have to experience the brunt of it. If you're past the age where you can now live on your own, it might be better if you find your own life, outside of their world. Remaining by their side, with them acting like that, would actually intensify your feelings and gloomy disposition and it would not help you in anyway at all. I cannot recommend any thing that would alleviate your situation except for you to go away from them. Only then, would you really truly feel if you are just under the spell of their meanness or you are actually made from the same branch. Forgive me for saying so, but meanness begets meanness, more than we care to admit. If you don't want to be like them, better skip and make a life of your own. Hating your life and not doing anything about it won't solve the situation you know. better act on it.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i plan on it. i try to saving money for it.i have to make sure that i have enough money to do plan like that. i think once again i felt bad about my life and he still yell and curse me, i will say badly about his threat and i dont care if he want to beat me, i dont care anymore. i will go away from my house just like my sister
• United States
31 Jan 11
I'm sorry your in this situation, just think of it from another persons perspective. It may be hard to do, thats what I try to do. You can find the answer more easily on what you should do if your not so close to it.
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i just hope i will get freedom soon :)
• China
31 Jan 11
sorry friend i am not fully agree with u but its true that sometimes we face realy bad situation in our .but u should not say that u hate ur life .ALLAH or GOD will be upset on u .yah i can understand ur situation pls try to solve the problem with ur father and mother because dont forget that they r your real friend and u should respect them ....and about boy friend i thik u know better how to convince him ................have a good day
• Indonesia
1 Feb 11
i know i'm not suppose to say that i hate my life. i think God give me test long time enough for 24 years old. i hope soon i will get fredom of life to be responsible full with my life and get my own warm family when i get married someday
@chiyosan (30184)
• Philippines
4 Feb 11
i feel you are really down. i have in the same situation as you before.. or maybe even now that i am not happy.. that i do not have what i think will make me happy. i guess the difference is that i get frustrated that i do not have a father to yell at me.. but still i do not see myself happy as i should be, actually...
@bounce58 (17387)
• Canada
19 Feb 11
Take a step back. Take some time for your self. Take appreciation on some simple things around you. Do not concentrate on the things that make you feel like a prisoner. I know the feelings that you're going through, so I had to think of ways to not hate my life. I've created an alternate life for myself. Where I could be happy with the little things. Try it! It might also work for you.
@tkonlinevn (6438)
• Vietnam
15 Feb 11
Hi Annawen, Your status does not come from God. I can see that each person in your family is refusing to each other. You have a frank talk with your parents and tell them what you think. If not, please have some action to prove to them that all of your comments. You also do not be too strict with their parents and with yourself. This situation should be resolved as soon as possible otherwise I fear that you will be severely strained.
@asliah (11137)
• Philippines
9 Feb 11
hi, Don't say that, you know what, we are both the same and we have similarity in our situation. Sometimes I am tired of loving someone because it is really painful when you get hurt, jobs are also one of my problems and it is killing me because I can't find a nice job also. I would say we are 90% the same, the only difference is you are a girl and I am a boy so don't lose hope and be strong.
@murtaza45 (173)
• India
30 Jan 11
sometimes for time your good and sometimes bad for happinies for enjoyfull of the days you are the closes for not a happines for me.so i am about for time period whick to i hate for my life for god.so your thank what about says to god for help for life change for the god.you are the possible for good wish are i hate for my life for change.