I was thinking about my dad a lot yesterday.
By margeryann
@margeryann (1845)
United States
March 10, 2011 3:00am CST
My dads birthday was yesterday March 9. He would have turned 65 yesterday if he was still alive. I was thinking about him all day. He passed away it will be 19 years this September 1st. It seems like forever a go but like yesterday at the same time.
It was a real sad situation when it happened. There wasn't no autopsy so I'm not sure if he died because he had heart problems or if he died because 5 months before that he was in a car accident or was it that he had fish the night before and had a bone caught in his throat. It is weird how our minds roam wondering what happened. I try not to think about it but every now and then I wonder.
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@macayadann (1235)
• Philippines
18 Mar 11
Why you did not get the results of the autopsy and the doctors report so that you will get peace of mind.You have the right to take those things. However let us just accept that we all have our end and he has just reached it. Let us pray for him, that is the least we can do.
@p3ks626 (6538)
• Philippines
12 Mar 11
I think about my dad very often these days. I month ago, he was diagnosed for coronary heart disease and the doctor said its gonna be there forever so he has to be careful so that it wont be get worst. Sometimes I regret being away from home cause there are times that they need me there and I cant even do anything.
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
18 Mar 11
My dad had heart problems too,he was told to have a heart catheter test to see if there was something they could do to fix it. His brother scared him into having it done so he never took that test. Hopefully they can do something to help your dad like a stent in his heart or something. My step-dad has heart problems he had the heart catheter test and they found that is heart is blocked so bad that they can fit nothing in the blocked area to fix it. So, hopefully your dad and my step-dad have lots more years. Thank you for sharing your experience.
@GardenGerty (157622)
• United States
10 Mar 11
It is strange how things will trigger our memories. I used to start getting in a difficult mood for a few days in the spring. I finally realized it was my mind reminding me of a sad anniversary. I am doing that now, but I know what it is about. I am sorry for your loss, and wish you only happy memories of your dad.
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
11 Mar 11
Thank you for sharing your experience. It is weird how our minds work.
@dawnald (85135)
• Shingle Springs, California
10 Mar 11
My mom's birthday is Saturday. We had a 70th birthday for her in 2004, and a month later she was gone, heart failure. Sometimes it seems like she's been gone forever, other times the phone rings and I feel like it could be her. At least she got 70 years....
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
11 Mar 11
It is good that she got to 70 years old. Than you for sharing your experience and for commenting.
@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
11 Mar 11
It is weird how our minds wander and try to come to conclusions. It was a great loss for you. I think about my family from time to time. I have a couple of very special pictures that I look at sometimes too. They make me happy in a sad kind of way...that's weird too..lol.
@margeryann (1845)
• United States
11 Mar 11
Pictures do help and thinking back to the good times.I know what you mean about the sad and happy at the same time kind of way.LOL. Thank you for sharing your experience.
@holesworth (220)
• Australia
10 Mar 11
It's been five years since my dad passed away and I find that the anniversary of his birth is a day in which I need to withdraw from the world completely. I imagine that - in fourteen years from now - I will feel much the same as you.
It sounds as though you still need a little closure. That's perfectly understandable. Sometimes we need - and deserve - answers. While I'm not suggesting that your grief would be any less intense, it would undoubtedly be a lot clearer.
Happy birthday to all the dad's who've left us, physically; but whose spirit remains in our hearts.
