I wrote a note in the train and left it there for someone to read it.......
By voldrox
@voldrox (7191)
India
May 3, 2011 3:32am CST
It was a 16 hour journey in the train yesterday. I am back to my home from my college, i was getting super bored. Very often reminded of my ex, i would lie down and can't help but think of a few things of the past and feel so hurt again, as if the wound never healed a bit. All i know is that i don't want her back, and i don't want to listen ANYTHING related to her! 
The only way i avoid shedding any tear is by thinking she doesn't deserve me and that my real angel is waiting for me somewhere, and when she comes she will wash away any of the sorrow my ex left me with.
Anyways, that was what i was feeing because i had nothing to do and my darn music player ran out of battery! 
Had i put it on my ears, i would have kept myself from thinking about the bad times. Hmm. So i got an idea, i wanted someone to read what i was feeling and what had happened with me. I took the cover of the bed sheet they provide in the air conditioned compartment and before sleeping i filled the whole thing up with a red pen i had. I completed writing and before i got off the train put on the upper berth which was empty. I don't know if anyone read it, but anyways, i hope someone did. Doesn't hurt to assume that someone read it, i would not know that anyway.
It made me feel better. I don't know how i got this idea.. But it helped me.
Have you ever written an anonymous letter/note for nobody in particular ?
The only way i avoid shedding any tear is by thinking she doesn't deserve me and that my real angel is waiting for me somewhere, and when she comes she will wash away any of the sorrow my ex left me with.
Anyways, that was what i was feeing because i had nothing to do and my darn music player ran out of battery! Had i put it on my ears, i would have kept myself from thinking about the bad times. Hmm. So i got an idea, i wanted someone to read what i was feeling and what had happened with me. I took the cover of the bed sheet they provide in the air conditioned compartment and before sleeping i filled the whole thing up with a red pen i had. I completed writing and before i got off the train put on the upper berth which was empty. I don't know if anyone read it, but anyways, i hope someone did. Doesn't hurt to assume that someone read it, i would not know that anyway.
It made me feel better. I don't know how i got this idea.. But it helped me.
Have you ever written an anonymous letter/note for nobody in particular ?1 person likes this
13 responses
@jennyze (7029)
• Indonesia
3 May 11
The next thing you will write to the God and that will be cool.
I used to write letters to Jesus when I was small and burn it in a certain bowl provided in the church or chapel.
Glad that it helps you, so hope it will help others who found and read it, too.
I used to write letters to Jesus when I was small and burn it in a certain bowl provided in the church or chapel.
Glad that it helps you, so hope it will help others who found and read it, too.1 person likes this
@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Hello Jenny, 
He he.. I don't know about that, but i guess i would probably talk to Jesus instead. That gives me quite a relief too. But i could not do that in the train, too much disturbance. It was my fault, i should have charged my music players before i left. Anyways, i was travelling alone, i will make sure next time that i have something to pass time with. Muahhhh.... :-)
He he.. I don't know about that, but i guess i would probably talk to Jesus instead. That gives me quite a relief too. But i could not do that in the train, too much disturbance. It was my fault, i should have charged my music players before i left. Anyways, i was travelling alone, i will make sure next time that i have something to pass time with. Muahhhh.... :-)
@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Hello tammy, :)
While writing it i thought about starting a discussion about it here on mylot. 
Thought someone would agree with me and like the idea. he he.. Thank you, you could try it. That paper cover i was writing on, was the size of a pillow on one side, i filled one side of the cover completely. I took time for me to realize that i had written a lot. You could try it in a similar fashion somewhere. An anonymous letter for an anonymous person.
Thought someone would agree with me and like the idea. he he.. Thank you, you could try it. That paper cover i was writing on, was the size of a pillow on one side, i filled one side of the cover completely. I took time for me to realize that i had written a lot. You could try it in a similar fashion somewhere. An anonymous letter for an anonymous person. 
@maximax8 (31053)
• United Kingdom
4 May 11
I really like the idea of writing down the hurt feelings and leaving them on a train. It stopped you from being bored after your music player batteries ran out. I feel sure that someone will read your letter on the train. I think that 16 hours is quite a long journey.
One of my friends in Australia wrote letters to her ex-boy friend but didn't ever give them to him. It was her way of telling him how she felt without him getting nasty. I believe that these letters helped her emotional feelings. I haven't tried that sort of thing before but think it is a superb idea.
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
4 May 11
Hello Maximax,
Thank you. It was actually quite a long journey, when it was supposed to be only for 14 hours. The train was running late. How i wish i had them recharged, i can barely manage without listening to music. It greatly helps me in passing my time. With nothing to listen to and nothing to do at all i began to think about my ex and i was feeling hurt again. I don't know how i got this idea, but i really like it. Hope someone read it. There is no way to know if someone did, so it's safe to assume that someone actually did.
I can understand your friend. I would want to write my ex a letter myself but i would not give it to her. Neither am I ever going to re read it. I will just store it somewhere, and probably write more letters when ever i recall old memories again.
How i wish i had them recharged, i can barely manage without listening to music. It greatly helps me in passing my time. With nothing to listen to and nothing to do at all i began to think about my ex and i was feeling hurt again. I don't know how i got this idea, but i really like it. Hope someone read it. There is no way to know if someone did, so it's safe to assume that someone actually did.
I can understand your friend. I would want to write my ex a letter myself but i would not give it to her. Neither am I ever going to re read it. I will just store it somewhere, and probably write more letters when ever i recall old memories again.
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
3 May 11
hello voldrox,
We cannot avoid thinking about our past esp if we truly love that someone.
I can understand what you feel because i have been through your situation.
It's not easy to moved on my dear brother.
It takes me 2 years before i can say that i am completely healed.
Not because someone show'd me the way to the path of letting go..but i've learned it my way.
I've learned that love is not a possession.
Have a great day and enjoy your music...
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Hello Jaiho,
You are right, i have to learn to let go of it myself, and i know it is going to take me some time to do that, i really loved that girl, despite all she did to me, i still love her, but now i don't want her back, because i would care for myself, i would not be happy but i will not stop loving her, so she did the best thing breaking up with me. I don't want to be with her anymore, i am so weak now that if she comes back to me, i am probably going to take her back in my life, but i am sure she is not going to come, her actions says it all.
You are right, i have to learn to let go of it myself, and i know it is going to take me some time to do that, i really loved that girl, despite all she did to me, i still love her, but now i don't want her back, because i would care for myself, i would not be happy but i will not stop loving her, so she did the best thing breaking up with me. I don't want to be with her anymore, i am so weak now that if she comes back to me, i am probably going to take her back in my life, but i am sure she is not going to come, her actions says it all. 1 person likes this
@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Jaiho, i can't take her back, i can't trouble myself with the pain again, although i might still love her, but i just can't take her back. I wish she remembers me at least sometimes, i just wish she knows what she did to me, and that she has lost me in the process. 6 years sounds like quite some time to let go the feelings and start to live happily alone. I just wish i get steady soon and stop thinking about her, and move on smoothly and let the angel come into my life with her own accord. 
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
3 May 11
If you are determined enough of not taking her back,you can.
Just be firm,or if you give her another chance,be ready for another heartache and pain.
I never take back the one that i've lost.
Now it's been more than 6 years since he's gone out of my life.
And i never regretted loving and letting him go.
Freedom is one of the best thing that i can give to myself.
And no one can take that away from me.
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
My Saphy..
I just don't want to be free like that, i had nothing to do in the train. I am sure listening to music would have helped but they ran out of juice. You know the funny thing, while i was writing the letter a girl in the berth adjacent to mine saw me scribbling something down on that piece of cover, secretly i wished some girl would read it after i left. ha ha ha.. Oh, i am such a dreamer! 
@annavi23 (6522)
• Philippines
4 May 11
hello voldi! what you are going through is common thing for people who love.
and I believe that your angel will come to you in His time. All of us have our own partners destined to be with. it just takes time. I believe it will come no matter what.
And as for your writing, it's true that when you let your feelings out, it might help you breathe a little for you know someone might read it. though you don't know how they can help you, at least you have let your feelings out even if it's just a letter.
For your question, I can't remember if I have done such thing. I guess I didn't. If I write my feelings, i guess it would be in here-mylot. for i know, someone may read it and i can find answers as well.
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
4 May 11
Hello annavi,
The one i wrote was quite long, the paper was the size of a pillow cover and i was able to fill one side of it completely. I don't want to write that much over here at mylot, and if i do i would feel like i am burdening others with my pain, because already it is of late i have been talking about my ex in so many of my discussions. It's okay, it felt nice to write that down and since i am never going to know if any actually read it, it's safe to assume that someone did. I don't want them to help me, it feels comfortable to just share my story with them.
The one i wrote was quite long, the paper was the size of a pillow cover and i was able to fill one side of it completely. I don't want to write that much over here at mylot, and if i do i would feel like i am burdening others with my pain, because already it is of late i have been talking about my ex in so many of my discussions. It's okay, it felt nice to write that down and since i am never going to know if any actually read it, it's safe to assume that someone did. I don't want them to help me, it feels comfortable to just share my story with them. @annavi23 (6522)
• Philippines
6 May 11
Hi voldi! It's good that someone have read it though you don't know who it was, at least you did let out your feelings through a letter. You are right with what you have said. Letting out your feelings is good no matter how you let it out, even through a letter just to be unknown or known, it doesn't matter. What's important is you have shared it to someone, with answers or none, it can be of help.
@carolscash (9492)
• United States
3 May 11
I would never have thought about doing that, but if it helped you to ease some of the pain that you are feeling then it was worth it. I have written a letter before to a friend who I felt that I had hurt their feelings and I felt as though I could not explain in person how I felt.
@voldrox (7191)
• India
4 May 11
Hello carolscash,
It somehow did make me feel a little better. Doesn't hurt to assume someone read it because anyway i am not going to know. There was nothing else i could have done to let it out, since i had nothing else to do but wait to reach my destination. Sometimes giving a letter is the best we can do if we feel we can't explain it in person.
@zhpshql (693)
• China
4 May 11
That's very interesting...It's always a great way to share your thoughts with the others...And if you are lucky enough,,maybe you can come across a "right woman"...
For me ,,I haven't witen any anonymous letter,,and I indeed read some...There always has some unknown things happen,because of that,the life is becoming much more wonderful...^^
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
4 May 11
Hello zhpshql :)
It was in a way a small release for me to have written it. Doesn't hurt to assume that someone read it, because i am not going to know it anyway. Oh i am going to meet my angel one day, i am sure of that. Life is full of surprises, sometimes bad and sometimes good. I am waiting for the good one.
Life is full of surprises, sometimes bad and sometimes good. I am waiting for the good one. @wrick3000 (66)
• India
4 May 11
People always should do crazy things in life. Here you did one.
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@RawBill1 (8531)
• Gold Coast, Australia
9 Sep 11
You wrote it on a sheet?? Wouldn't the train people be upset that you wrote on their sheet? Or was it a disposable one? 
Writing about your feelings is a great idea. It releases the negative emotions onto paper or to the computer. My wife often does this if she feels angry towards a certain person who has been nasty to her. I have known her to write out a huge, long email to someone, taking hours to get all of the feelings out and then save it until days later when she deletes it!
I hope that 5 months later after you started this discussion that you are feeling better about this now. 
Writing about your feelings is a great idea. It releases the negative emotions onto paper or to the computer. My wife often does this if she feels angry towards a certain person who has been nasty to her. I have known her to write out a huge, long email to someone, taking hours to get all of the feelings out and then save it until days later when she deletes it!
I hope that 5 months later after you started this discussion that you are feeling better about this now. 
@vandana7 (98873)
• India
3 May 11
Voldi mere bachche, that is one therapy. I vent my feelings here, but before this, I treated my darling computer as my confidante. Its been with me listening to the foul language I have mastered over the years without complaining. Nobody in particular, you say? I kinda get a feeling that this machine cares for me. :)
And whoever reads it, will be sensitive enough to try to reach out to you. May be you can be friends. Nice thought, eh? :)
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@voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Hello mumma :)
I can understand when you say that your computer cares for you. :) Some people talk to their pets too. I don't know, but i haven't thought of someone in particular. I guess if i had started writing on my computer about it too, then i think i would have thought the same way about my machine as you do for your computer.
He he.. I had thought about that.. I had written my first name 'Alok' on the start of the page and on the outside of the coach there is the reservation sheet attached which contains my full name, and the person if that interested, could find me here on fb. It would be wonderful if something like that happened ! 
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
3 May 11
Hi voldy
Oh my this was very good of you to do that. I think it is a way of closing a chapter in your life. Okay so you wrote this kind of closing and the only way now to move forward is to feel like you let it all out and now it is time to move on. It is quite hard dear to move on but maybe this will help you.
I have written many letters in my life explaining a few details but only for myself, as a way of releasing and letting go. I have not had anyone, including me re-read them. I held on to them and with time I have tucked them away hoping that I never have to revisit that part of my life.
I hope this helped you and perhaps someone will read it and wonder, perhaps even in prayer send you blessings.
Oh my this was very good of you to do that. I think it is a way of closing a chapter in your life. Okay so you wrote this kind of closing and the only way now to move forward is to feel like you let it all out and now it is time to move on. It is quite hard dear to move on but maybe this will help you.
I have written many letters in my life explaining a few details but only for myself, as a way of releasing and letting go. I have not had anyone, including me re-read them. I held on to them and with time I have tucked them away hoping that I never have to revisit that part of my life.
I hope this helped you and perhaps someone will read it and wonder, perhaps even in prayer send you blessings. @voldrox (7191)
• India
3 May 11
Hello Hardworkinggurl, very sweet of you ...
Yes, it did make me feel much better. I was waiting for others to sleep so that i could start writing. I just left it there before i left the train, also thinking some girl might read it he he he.. 
.. I can understand you not re reading your letters, i would do the same if i did that too. I wish you never need to go through them anytime again.
It would be so nice if someone read it all. :-)
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Yes, it did make me feel much better. I was waiting for others to sleep so that i could start writing. I just left it there before i left the train, also thinking some girl might read it he he he.. .. I can understand you not re reading your letters, i would do the same if i did that too. I wish you never need to go through them anytime again.
It would be so nice if someone read it all. :-)