Sometimes I feel like the world is on top of me...
@joannamarie089 (76)
United States
April 3, 2012 10:20pm CST
I know that when things get bad, the only thing for them to do is get better. I know that when one door closes another door opens. I know that every rough patch in life is temporary. I know that whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I know that there are people in this world that are worse off than me. But when you're going through something, its hard to believe those things. Its hard to see past the terror of today and look to a brighter tomorrow. When everyday is a challenge, you start to wonder if you'll ever see the sun again.
Right now I'm going through so much and hurting so bad, financially and emotionally. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but its so far away right now. I'm fighting so hard to stay positive and stay focused on the great things that are coming. But everyday is a new hell for me. I'm miserable, I'm sad, I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm trapped. I can't get out of my own head. I can't stop thinking about everything going on in my life that is making me so miserable.
I'm usually one of those people who can see beauty in everything. I'm an optimist, usually. I'm the smily, cheerful one. I'm always the one giving pep-talks. I'm the one who keeps their cool when things fall apart. But things fell apart so quickly for me, that I feel like I'm drowning. I feel like the whole world is on top of me. I'm not myself right now. I know this and everyone around me can see it as well.
I want ME back. I want to be happy again. I want to feel good again. I want to feel invincible against all of this that I'm feeling again. But I don't know how. HOW do I do this? How did you overcome these feelings at some point in your life? How do you avoid feeling this way? How do I breathe again? Please help me.
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@britzsofly (395)
• United States
4 Apr 12
Sweetheart , I know how you feel . I can relate to you on so many levels..but one thing is for sure, things get worse before they get better..Like you said , it can be hard to believe that but it will .I have been feelings this way lately and all I can do is put it in the hands of my good God . Either way no pain is here forever . You must go through to get through . When I feel down and out sometimes I just look at how worse it could be, hunny you may think you are doing bad but there are people out here with no home , no food , no money , no love , no nothing. You have to love yourself no matter the situation . Be around positive people , these are the only people that will get you through this hardship . I'm sorry that you have to go through this but just remember better days will come . Good luck :)
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@joannamarie089 (76)
• United States
4 Apr 12
I've struggled with my faith for a long time. I find it hard to talk to God and to ask for His help and guidance. I know that things would be easier if I let Him in and let Him take the wheel. But its so hard for me to do. I feel like a stranger to God, or that I'm not good enough. I've turned my back on Him before and I don't feel worthy of His love now. I wish I could talk to God and put all of my pain in His hands. I just don't know how. I think that's why I feel so alone all the time. Even when I'm surrounded by friends and family.
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@angelwithkids (1256)
• United States
4 Apr 12
when i get to feeling this way, i usually go take a hot bath and pray to god. i tell him what i'm thankful for, for all the good things in my life. by focusing on the good things in my life, right now, makes me able to keep going. i'm still learning to lean on god through the rough times. but i'm realizing that when i do, the rough times leave sooner and i'm blessed even more. good luck. i'll keep you in my prayers.
@joannamarie089 (76)
• United States
4 Apr 12
As a single mother, I don't really have a chance to take hot baths. I would love to take one, but I never seem to have time. As for praying, I don't know how to do that. I've been struggling with my faith for a long time. And while I believe in God, I just don't know how to talk to Him. On top of that, I don't feel like I'm worthy of Him and His help. I do like your advice about focusing on the good things in my life right now. I'll have to make a list I can refer to. Its so hard to remember that there are still positive things when the few negative things are so dominant. Thank you for the advice. And thank you for praying for me.
@angelwithkids (1256)
• United States
5 Apr 12
i was told a secret that i can pass on to you....god is always there. no matter what we've done, he's there. the best way to pray to god....just like you're talking to a friend. there's no special way to pray. for a long time i struggled with my faith. then i started working for these two ladies. they helped (and still help) me put my faith back together. everyone is worthy of him and his help. hopes this help.
@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
4 Apr 12
jopamnamarie I like to listen to the song and its and old one
"When You walk through a storm, keep your head u p high and don't
be afraid of the dark, at the end of the storm is a golden light
and the sweet silver sound of a lark.It is c alled "YOU Never Walk
Alone".You sound depressed so go see your doctor as he can do so mething about that. He may also send you to a mental health clinic
for extra emotional help so you can be yourself again. depression i not something you can just tell a person to get over it you need medical help.YOu can us our search engine for the song,get it and SEEif you can find it on Youtube as I am sure you can.Its called " You Never Walk a LOne iii
@shylade (3132)
• Philippines
4 Apr 12
it is normal to feel that way sometime BUT don't ENTERTAIN it for so LONG. i rememeber when i feel like exhausted over turn of events that keep on coming my way, the stress and everything... i find peace in God. I pray hard every night for His guidance and i trust Him and leave evrything to Him. i never doubt His ability to amke things possible.
i knwo it is hard to be positive all the time especially when the other way around is happening but trust God. He will never give you a burden you can not ahndle. you can amke it and remember that this too shall pass...
@dazzledlady (1618)
• Philippines
4 Apr 12
Hi joannamarie089, I think that feeling trap is the most depressing situation to be. When things get rough, we always want an escape route. But now, escaping is not the best choice to choose. Like you said you are an optimistic person turning to a pessimist because of the things you are currently going through. What I think you should do is let go. Learn to let go of your worries,misery, sadness, anger and depression. It is not easy but you have too, because those are the things that is preventing you from reaching the light at the end of the tunnel. Let go of them one by one, condition yourself in a positive way because you are an optimist for a long time do not let this situation turn you to a pessimist. Give yourself the most powerful pep-talk you give to others, and believe in it. Sometimes it is a matter of believing that can serve as a ladder towards success. If you are feeling alone, learn on your family and friends. We do not need to be strong all the time, that's what our family and friends are for. Do not be too conscious of what is happening, that is when you can start to breathe easily. Keep fighting!
@joannamarie089 (76)
• United States
4 Apr 12
You stated: "Give yourself the most powerful pep-talk you give to others, and believe in it." You're right. I need to separate myself from my situation and my feelings, and take on the topic as an outsider. Its so hard to follow your own advice when you're in the cross-fire. But I will have to try this. Thank you so much for your advice.
@Lisona (177)
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4 Apr 12
Depression is a very hard thing to deal with and especially by yourself. Talk it out with someone you trust or visit your GP if you feel its getting worse. I have had depression in the past and its a really horrible feeling to shift. Its very well people telling you to cheer up go for a walk or do something you like doing, people who suffer from depression don't really think about all those things to start with they're thinking is clouded by other thoughts and emotions 24/7. I would advise to get help if it gets worse. Sometimes talking to someone you don't know helps alot to shift some feelings and emotions for you to regain thinking straight again, but that's only coming from me and I am not a professional on the subject. Try avoid the things thats hurting you right now keep them away. Hope you feel better soon.xx
@joannamarie089 (76)
• United States
4 Apr 12
As a teenager I battled depression as well. It took over my life and I finally conquered it. And the way I learned to conquer it is what I teach to others. I just can't follow my own advice here. I try to push out any negative thoughts but I don't have the strength to keep at it. I try to avoid the things that are hurting me right now, but its nearly impossible. The person that is causing me emotional pain is living under the same roof as me. I've been avoiding my house whenever I can, but that just causes more pain. I shouldn't be afraid to go home. I shouldn't feel like a stranger in my own home. I'm trying to get out of the situation I'm in, but my little town has no options right now for homes to rent. I don't have anywhere else to go, so I'm stuck in this little hell for an indefinite amount of time. I've been talking it out with my family and friends, but it doesn't seem to be doing any good. It doesn't help me feel better. I know that I won't feel better until I get out of this house for good. Thank you for your advice.
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