Captain's Log: Day 12 of my Liquid Diet

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I feel like I'm starting to fall into a nice groove with this liquid diet now. I have had some really rough, frustrating, teeth-grinding, head-pounding days of being mad (p*ssed off) about the food that I could not have. Now I feel a bit more relaxed, especially since I have added SOUP to the mix, and started drinking IT rather than just drinking milk and juice and soda. I realize that I LOVE to eat, Food is like a friend to me, a friend that I want to visit daily and often, several times during the day. Many more times than is needed. Since I have been on this diet, I have had daydreams of BLT's (with turkey bacon because I don't eat pork), huge plates of nachos with tender, seasoned ground beef, juicy chopped tomatoes, sliced olives, mounds of grated, extra-sharp Tillamook cheese, guacamole, sour cream, green onions...tacos, with the same. Meatloaf and mashed potatoes, salad with all the fixins. You name it, if it's food I've probably dreamt it. Since being on this diet, I feel a lot more energetic, and I feel that since my attention is not always on food, that I have cleared my "thought-process lane" for other things to flow on it. It is so fascinating how we have two-selves, the one self that wants to diet, so it goes ON the diet in the FIRST place. That's the self that wants to be healthy, and slimmer, and wants to be able to fit into cute, skimpy clothes. Then there's that OTHER self, the self that says to you, "You can't do it." "You'll never get skinny. Other people have, but you can't do it." "Why are you even trying?" "Go ahead and eat already, this diet stuff is ridiculous and a waste of time." Those two selves seriously WAR against each other. I am so glad that people have been encouraging me and telling me that I can do it, and that I can stick to it. I have a friend of mine that is a real big girl, I know she's over 300 pounds. Well, she has been telling me to stick TO this diet. She could totally be a hater, and say all kinds of DIScouraging things, but she has not gone there. Sometimes when you are dieting, your "friends" will be the main people telling you that you cannot accomplish something, or they will try to get you to eat when eating is the LAST thing that you need to be doing. But there are some friends who will encourage you. I am so glad that I have been being encouraged through this process. Even people here on myLot have been encouraging me. Thanks so much!