It's a trade off
By SomeCowgirl
@SomeCowgirl (32189)
United States
July 15, 2012 12:01pm CST
It honestly is. I've been cleaning, and it makes me feel better but it's not exactly the same. I do still need to do a lot of cleaning, get some things to organize with etc. Especially the room I sleep in. If I can pack away and organize a lot of that, then I can see myself spending a lot more time in that room.
We need a fridge, a bigger one. Honestly it's too much snack foods or getting food out, and I'm tired of it. I just want a nice home cooked meal every day, and I dont' mind cooking it either!
Though if I do this, it's more and more time until I can save up enough to move...
Of course I could up my hours at work and be away from this mess, but then I'd still be in the mess at work, and I'm still not sure my mood is "stabilized" enought to go back there with better hours yet.
So I have to work on what I can here, to organize. I've already decided tomorrow I am going to go through and consolidate the fridge. A lot of it isn't my stuff, but that's only because there is no room for antyhing I'd want in there! I have to buy small things and shove it in there and it's ridiculous!
If I was to get a fridge, I could find one cheap but getting it delivered here is another thing... So I might as well go with a company like Sears, they'll deliver it for a fee...
Then it's still more money for the fridge, and I'd have to put it on the porch and run electricity to it...
People I know think I have it made here, some realize that I don't.. It's a constant fight or argument, or me just wanting quiet time and not getting it.
I feed these people with food I buy, mostly because if I didn't they'd complain and nag and tell me I live here free of charge etc... Which is true. Now there are some that I will let eat my food no problem, but then just this one person who is the cause of this whole mess. He won't let anything get fixed, and the fridge was replaced because it was broken but with a smaller fridge.
No one has really been able to cook a big meal and save left overs for years!
Rant over.
Understand now?
4 responses
@wilsongoddard (7291)
• United States
15 Jul 12
No, you definitely don't have it made. Being in such a living situation can be incredibly taxing.
If you buy a full-sized fridge, it will likely end up being left behind there when you move. That is something to think about as you weigh your options.
I do wish you luck in getting out of that situation.
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@GardenGerty (169489)
• United States
16 Jul 12
Perhaps if you sign up for freecycle you may find a free fridge or some storage containers. Our "transfer station" (dump and recycling) also has a free use section where you can take anything you want or leave stuff other than clothes that you do not want. I got a new small dresser last week when I was getting rid of some stuff.
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@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
16 Jul 12
GG,
The only problem with that is getting it HERE. I don't really have anyone I can completely depend on to get it here. Family doesn't even visit here because if it's not one family member that I live with, it's the other.. Heck it's probably sometimes me, I'm not gonna lie.
@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
15 Jul 12
Yes I have to think about that as well. I could buy things for comfort etc but most will be left behind when I move and I don't want that. So I think cheaper is easier. I'm going to take small steps to try to get things the way I want them to. I'll be ordering things to help better organize soon, but in the mean time I'm going to do the general cleaning that needs to be done.
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@GardenGerty (169489)
• United States
15 Jul 12
The advantage I can see to getting a fridge and putting it on the porch is that when you move you would be able to take it with you. It would be paid for. I think if you had less stress and mess to deal with at home you would be able to handle more hours at work. I know what you mean though, it often boils down to doing it yourself or it not getting done.
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@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
16 Jul 12
There is so much of a mess here and it's really started to get to me. I can't do it all, but I semi have to. I'm going to have to do something to keep me "sane". I need to get containers to put things in instead of these boxes that look like we're constantly getting ready to move...
@coffeebreak (17797)
• United States
15 Jul 12
Just though somecowgirl...what about paying a rent and then saying but my food is my food and I want my space I am paying for? Maybe do the math and see which would be cheaper?
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@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
15 Jul 12
I could pay rent but honestly I don't think it'd make much of a difference when it came to what's mine is mine thing. Plus I'd be paying for nothing because even if I did pay rent they wouldn't be using the money towards what it could be used for, which is fixing up this house. It'd just be a waste becuase they wouldn't even use it to buy proper food!
They have the money to fix it up, well when I say they it's just one person!
As for a mini fridge, I've thought about that. First things first though, I have to get the house as liveable as possible!
@Lorden (348)
• South Africa
15 Jul 12
I understand only one thing, and that is that you're frustrated. Who are these people and why are you living with them for free? Is that the trade-off you're talking about; living for free but not having any kind of satisfying life?
I'm so sorry that a fellow human being is suffering so. Can't you find your own cheap place? It won't be nice if it's cheap, but at least there everything will be yours. You can have a small cheap fridge, since it will only be you yourself personally needing to store something in it anyway.
Just don't tell me this is your family and you cant get away from them. In which case I would tell you to take the command and get all to give you the life you want right now!
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@SomeCowgirl (32189)
• United States
15 Jul 12
It is family, and it's easier said then it is done. I need so much more then I have right now. Just to survive I have to buy my own groceries, and with what I make it's not working out right now.
I'm working towards getting things organized in this house that is mine, and trying to help out my family that I live with mentally when it comes to this as well. So I'm not doing completely for myself yet, though I am helping myself by helping out with the house.
It's a lot of personal stuff I don't care to go into with strangers.
One thing is for certain, no matter the situation, you don't completely understand it until you are in it yourself.
