Don't Want To Live....

@Dassodils (2010)
India
August 6, 2012 2:45pm CST
Hai friends... Hope that You all are fine..Now,I feel that I am alone.While entering in to my college,I were very happy..But now I feel loneliness..No one to talk some thing..No one to share my sadness and happiness..Totally I am alone now..Don't want to live..Really fed up with this useless life..I think that my absence will not make any one upset..But they will feel very happy.. So I am thinking about taking leaves continuously..While sitting in classes my mind become disturbed and so that I will not get any concentration on studies..Now,My brother is not with me..He is engaged in some other activities..He is always busy now..and have no time to say at least a hai at the free time..I feel that he is avoiding me..That too hurt me a lot..
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@thanks1961 (7035)
• India
7 Aug 12
Hi, You are saying the college life is so boring, what about the people like we? The college is just opened and started. Just wait for some more days and I am sure that you will get a lot of friends. These days just being an ordinary student won't get any attraction, you need to be profiled with some kind of centre of attraction like sports, arts, singing, acting or good looking or something like that. Any way, from the profile, you are really beautiful and I am sure that you will get good friends around after few more days. Again, as being a student, there may be some kind of obligation to study and as I said earlier, concentrate more on studies and only for this case, no one can make a substitute and you yourself need to to do it. Forget about the friends and friendships, if you can put more time on concentrating the studies, you will be again targetted by other as you are one of the study specialist and you will get good company as frineds. Also, don't give much of stress for this kind of things as the population around is so much and you can get friends at any point of time. Again, after few days some pople will always come to you with a nature what you have. So, be happy and study well. At home also you may have brother, mom, dad and all. So, why should you be distrurbing yorself and be more positive and think freely and enjoy the life, the rare collage life, man.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
6 Aug 12
Do not be sad. Grieving does not solve the problem. Look for new friends, friends online and offline. The joy will come.
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
6 Aug 12
Ya..Now I do that way to keep cheer..The avoidance of my brother is really unbelievable thing to me.. :(
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
6 Aug 12
I see, you don't even have one listed myLot friends. Why?
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
6 Aug 12
Sorry..I don't get you..??Do you meant that I don't have good friends in Mylot?? Yaa..But not now.. I had 2 best friends here in Mylot.But now they left from here..
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@celticeagle (158724)
• Boise, Idaho
6 Aug 12
You're wrong!! Your mother would be devistated. Think about the scene if you dropped off the face of the earth. First school would wonder what became of you and they would make inquiries. Then family would become alarmed. Parents and ones that we are really close to begin to wonder what they did wrong. Where could you possibly be. If you feel that your brother is always too busy for you I would think of it the other way around. If you weren't around anymore and he came to find you. What would happen then? He would worry, be hurt and full of pain because you aren't around anymore. You may be being taken for granted right now but I am sure you are loved. I would be sure I was treating all the people in my life with respect and consideration so they never feel the way you are feeling now. I would start by telling your brother this how you feel. Let him know you are in need of some TLC. And remember how you are feeling now next time someone comes to you.
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
8 Aug 12
I know that my parents will surely sad,But parents are not alright while comparing to my dear brother..But now,I lost him.. :(
@ravisivan (14079)
• India
8 Aug 12
Dassodils: Aahaha! yes. I did not notice this discussion. But I came across another one you have posted today about brother. The problem is continuing. Relax. Think whether there can be any error on your part. Also is it your brother has some other friendship and he wants to be away from you. I remember you told once about your liking for a boy--has that caused your brother to go away from you. think. I wish the problem is sorted our early. However do not mention as you have given title. you should erase such thinking. Go and tell your mother about this. may be she has a solution for this. Or if your father or grand mother can sort out please tell them.
@JohnRok1 (2051)
9 Aug 12
It seems Rav has also noticed. Dass, please try Jesus Christ. He is the Way, the Truth and the Life for everyone, but they will not see it. If they think they have something else to live for, it is at least understandable, but making away with oneself rather than turning to Him makes no sense at all.
• United States
6 Aug 12
I have been feeling the same way lately. Yea, life can suck sometimes. It will get greater later, and you will be alright. There will always be a better day. Keep your head up.
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
8 Aug 12
I always try my maximum to be alright.. But Most times,I failed.. :(
• United States
6 Aug 12
You are far too young to be feeling this way. Being young is about taking adventure and discovering things. Go wild, meet people, live life in the fast lane. I think if you expose yourself to new situations, your outlook on life will be much happier.
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
6 Aug 12
I don't know that dear friend..Now I feel very boring life..I don't want to continue this type of life..
• United States
6 Aug 12
Just take it one step at a time, and you will know what to do. Many people feel like theyre not going anywhere in life. Just try living a bit more.
@shibham (16977)
• India
7 Aug 12
I think you have no need to fed up. Earnest Hamingway told "he is strongest man in the world who stands most time alone". Always remind it. Loneliness is nothing rather it is to upgrade yourself by involving on innovative stuffs. Good luck.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
9 Aug 12
Sweetie, I think that there are times that things are not going well in our lives and we feel that it would be a lot easier if we were not on this world anymore. However, this is not the truth at all because you will miss out on everything else that life has to offer. In addition to that, you will also be missed by all of the people that care about you. If you continue to feel down like this, I think that you should probably see your doctor about some antidepressants.
@fantabulus (4000)
• India
7 Aug 12
Ohhh dass dont feel like this you should read books like "aapki jeet" or "kya khoya kya paya" etc. Whenever you feel alone you should watch TV use net. True friends is not exist in world so dont feel bad if in your college no friend.
• India
8 Aug 12
Life is pleasant journey. You should take care in every step because you are only responsible for your life. Life is one time you must enjoy it. Hurdles and troubles will come in every person life how they tackle and become a great person is the meaning of life. You are still young you can do lot of achivements in your life. Do not feel about the surrounding place and the people. Concetrate on your studies. If you do well all friends will come back to you. Never hurt anybody. Try your level best always. I think you know about Dr.A.P.J. Abdul kalam. When he was studying and working no people co-operate with him. But today he achieved his dream. So you are young and you can achieve more things in life. Life is not only with friends and family. Always see the people who are deaf and dum living in the world.Why they are living? They also don't want to live. They have self-confidence on them and achieving in several fields without considerding their deaf and drum. So think positively and act. Don't make foolish things and give burden to your family and the world. If you work hard definitely you will become a great singer or what you want to be. Life is short make it sweet. Take care my friend.
@bcools (27)
7 Aug 12
hmm..that's a bit problem..but see all lie in our thoughts..that's an open secret that any body don't know..well this sounds like some weird but that's the fact..see if you wish i will suggest you a better solution..do you have habit of reading books? if so..my suggestion will work much better..(if you believe in my words..).. Let me know your interest so that i will share you a book link..which is free to download..that will wash out the loneliness in you.. All the best
7 Aug 12
I feel sad for you. Youa re young and life can sometiems be very hard i know. I dont like to think of anyone feeling this way. I ahve sent you a friends request, I know there are many people on here who are more than happy to be your online friends, and chat whenever you need to. There will be people at your school / college that can help you. HAve you considered a counselling session or two? They can be a huge help to you. Maybe there are groups of intrest to you that you could join and make frineds? Clubs in areas that you enjoy perhaps? Try not to feel so sad, it isnt easy i really know that. I was diagnosed with depression aged 17 and told i had probably had it for many years before then, but my parents didnt care and didnt take me to get help. I doubt they even noticed how i felt. SO i do understand how it feels to be sad etc. I am 35 now and i STILL suffer depression. Nothing i do can beat it for me. I take medications my doctor gives me, and i jsut have to hope they help. My life is not a good one, but there are people ou there far worse of than me. I just try and hang on and live each day as it comes. I try and make use of things i like, photography, knitting and crochet, corss stich, readin, movies and chatting online. I hope you can start to feel happier soon
• India
7 Aug 12
heylo dassodils, as already told u r very young to have such a thought u live in the land of gods own country, KERALA. to keep away from such thoughts you can move around places nearby your town as nature might just help u feel how beautiful the world actually is. you can make friends online as well to keep u engaged and busy in something or other. just go for a small vacation and im sure u will b back with some good memories and cherish them and im sure u will not want to think anythign adverse life is beautiful just enjoy it to the fullest....
6 Aug 12
Hey dude, don't be too negative and I am sure that you are not alone because you still have your parents and internet :P Besides that, go to class not because friend is your future, knowledge. I know how you feel, I had before but I make myself more stronger and try to find someone who cane communicate with you. I hear someone said, haven't try haven't live and you still young. try to listen a song call stronger(what doesn't kill you)from kelly clarkson.
@Dassodils (2010)
• India
8 Aug 12
Hai friend Pandy.. Now I find some piece here..I get some relief by thinking that I have my parents.that's because why I like to continue my life.My parents are really getting high strain to give me a good education.. :)
@1hopefulman (45123)
• Canada
7 Aug 12
Have you tried to talk to some of your classmates. It's hard to believe that a beautiful young girl like you has no one to talk with. Are you very shy?
@ryanong (9665)
• Vietnam
7 Aug 12
well, you can find something else to do to enjoy your time...don't say "don't want to live" easily like that. We have this life only then we should live in happiness in every minutes... You have many mylotters in here who are always around you, right?
• India
7 Aug 12
This is fine Dassodils. When we get engaged in some new activities we need to invest all our time and efforts in it. If your brother is busy somewhere, you make an initiative to call him or message him. As far as your college life is concerned, it has just started. Take time to know others, be friends with them. It will take sometime, but I am sure you will make good friends there. And please don't think you are a useless soul. Be confident and daily attend your college.
7 Aug 12
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@debbygirl (213)
• Philippines
7 Aug 12
hi dassodils! :) i will never forget the discussion you made titled "i spent my vacation in the kitchen" (if im not mistaken with the tittle. Anyway,because of that post and reading your discussion today, i realized someone will be sad if you'll do it. Your mom, your family and your friends. Even us here. We weren't able to taste what you cooked that vacation in the kitchen but they sure does, and they will miss you for a lot of things. I hope you find peace and hapinness and i hope you felt that we care for you here.. :)
@sol521 (61)
• Philippines
7 Aug 12
Hi Dassodils. Everybody feels the same way as you do at times because we can never be happy always. But you can choose to be happy and get rid of loneliness. Just bear in my mind that everything changes except constant. No matter how hard we try to resist still it happens. These things are out of our control. We have to accept that we can never bring back good memories and good times. They're just part of our history and they just remain in our memory. So we have to treasure every moment that we spent with someone who are dear to us and we have to enjoy our lives at the moment. We have to learn also how to appreciate and love new things we embrace everyday. By then, you'll be happy even in the absence of your old good friends.