Out of depression

@hsofyan (3446)
Jakarta, Indonesia
August 8, 2012 11:19am CST
If you have never experienced depression, certainly can not imagine how miserable. When I experienced it, guilt, anxiety and fear, mixed. I was very depressed and wanted it to end this life. I need people who love me, always there. I was a little quiet when the doctor gave me anti-depressant medication. Although I am aware the drug is not good for long term. I managed to get out of depression, when I get closer to God. Death is the climax of life. So, why should I worry / fear with things smaller than death?
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@se7enthbird (8307)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
I agree with you. I have felt this once and i never want to feel that again. I felt like i want to die and i cant even sleep until morning ! When i slept and i woke up. I feel bad and i even curse myself why i woke up like i want to sleep forever so i can no longer feel the pain, anguish and stress that i am feeling. Good for you to be well and happy. God is really the key in everything and acceptance can really help. I always remind myself that we may never have everything but at least we never had nothing
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
I like to read this sentence: "we may never have everything but at least we never had nothing". From nothing, be nothing. What we do is fill our lives. Nice to discuss with you
@caopaopao (12395)
• China
9 Aug 12
Hsofyan, though I didn't experience depression much, but I really experienced it. I am a teacher in a vocational school ,last term, I took part in the contest of our school's high quality class. Six teachers went in for it. Most my workmates told me I taught well, but I only got the second prize. I forgot to tell you, of all the six teachers, three would be the first prize, the other three the second prize. I have taken part in the public lesson competition held by our city several times before, I got the first prize each time. But this time was only a lesson taught in our school. Of course, I should get the first prize if it was fair. I went to the director of education in our school. She couldn't give me any reason about it. I was depressed ater that. I cried alone at home. I am a teacher, teaching well is all I got. It took me one week to change my mood. About three months later, that was this term, four of us took part in the quality lesson competition held by our city, I got the first prize, and the other three the second prize. Then I myself got the first prize quality lesson held by our province. Until now, I signed with relief. But whenever I thought of the class taught at school, I still feel uncomfotable. Getting out of depression is really a hard thing.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
Hi Caopaopao, nice to meet you again. Maybe you are stressed, not to depression. But I enjoyed reading your story. Do you believe, that behind the difficulties, there is always a convenience? Receive fair treatment are common (kids also know, ). But is capable of receiving unfair treatment is a special person. And you are one of them, though crying in the room and could not get over to a week. Nice to discussion with you.
@caopaopao (12395)
• China
10 Aug 12
Thanks for your encougement, my dear friend. I heard eating sunflowerseeds was good for curing depression, maybe you can have a try. I like eating sunflowerseeds.
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@caopaopao (12395)
• China
9 Aug 12
haha, Hsofyan, my depression is not like your depression. I don't have that kind of depression. But I wish you can be better soon.
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@Porcospino (31366)
• Denmark
8 Aug 12
I think it is true that it is very hard for people who haven't experienced depression to imagine what it is like. I had my first depression 14 years ago and since that time I have had depressions every once in the while. I take 2 different kinds of antidepressants and the medicine keeps the depression away. When I take my medicine I am able to live a normal life with work, hobbies, a social life etc. I am not happy that I have to take the medicine on a long term basis, but the medicine makes a lot of difference in my life and enables me to live a "normal" life.
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@Porcospino (31366)
• Denmark
9 Aug 12
I am scared to quit the medication, because I have tried it in the past and my depression returned. At that time it my own choice to quit the medication. My doctor was not too happy about it, but he told me that it was my own decision and if I wanted to quit I could do it. I quit and I got a severe depression again. The medication had kept the depression away for a long time, but as soon as I quit the medication the depression returned. I don't like my dependency of the medication, but I am scared of the alternative.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
Leave the medicine must be done gradually, with increasing exercise, meditation and prayer (surrender to God). Wake up. You have the power to do that. I pray for you.
• Indonesia
10 Aug 12
I've been in that situation too, i was suffering from anxiety, worrying too much, and it felt like from my head until my toes my blood was really fast, i can felt my heart beat was beating very hard. It was so uncomfortable. Sometimes i want to cry out loud without exact reason, i felt so empty and lonely. I never took anti depressant, i heard we can be addicted from it...i dont know if its true but actually i cant afford to buy the medication im only a student and im afraid to ask money from my parent. So i try to console myself, i tell myself there is no problem without solution. Im okay now and learn acceptance, whatever happen in our life is trial to make us stronger, if we waste our time by feeling down it wont solve anything.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
10 Aug 12
"learn acceptance", nice words! I'm applying it. Try meditation and prayer.
• India
10 Aug 12
Hi friend, sad to hear about this. Depressions are quite common, each and every person is facing a lot of issues in their life, never give up your confidence and face your issues with it. Don't think no one is for you, always trust with god. He is always with you. I agree with your last sentence. Keep up the spirit and never worry about your depression
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
10 Aug 12
Don't worry, I'm better now. Occurs only occasionally, when very upset or sad. Thank you for sharing
@dechinta (77)
• Indonesia
8 Aug 12
I have ever felt that way, And all I did was calling my best friend then told her everything that I felt after that she suggested me to pray to God and asked for piece and amazingly I felt so relax and those burdened feeling just gone. Just try to think about a good thing and relax your self, have a wonderful day. :)
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
8 Aug 12
Quoting Jaffe, Segal, & Dumke, 2005: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) contains three elements: 1. These events can not be predicted (It was unexpected) 2. People who experience such events are not ready to face the conditions / events so (The person was unprepared) 3. Nothing can be done by the person to prevent the occurrence of the event (There was nothing the person Could do to Prevent it from happening). So, in the event, it's hard to relax and think good things.
• Indonesia
8 Aug 12
oh I am sorry I just shared what I did and I'm happy for you because you managed to get out from your depression.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
Never mind. Nice to meet you, Dechinta. Glad you have shared.
@roberten (3128)
• United States
8 Aug 12
Depression is a debilitating disorder. You were right to seek out professional and spiritual help. Many people experience depression, the love and companionship of our family and friends is very important to recovery. Keep focused on the positive and know that you are not alone.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
8 Aug 12
I agree that this is important: "Keep focused on the positive and know that you are not alone". Besides the previous comments. Thank you for sharing.
@jaiho2009 (39142)
• Philippines
8 Aug 12
hello hsofyan, It's good to hear you're at peace with the Lord. I understand that some people who felt they're left alone leads into depression and troubled mind. but, once we are at peace with GOD's promise, the world may turn its back then we will never felt alone with the Lord.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
8 Aug 12
Yes, I agree with you. That's what I did until now, and I feel better. Temporary treatment is playing music and singing. I forget who else if it is being absorbed. Thank you for sharing.
• Russian Federation
8 Aug 12
hello there. i am in depression every week. sometimes i get out of it sometimes i do not. it depends. iam alone and don't have a person i can talk to. that is why i feeldepressed. to get out of it i can on the next day when i am awake i forgot of what i have been thinking during the night. :)
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
8 Aug 12
That's if you can sleep well, right? Different if you get insomnia. Anyway, thank you for sharing.
@Shavkat (137213)
• Philippines
28 Aug 12
Feeling of lonely and in despair, we tend to fall in depression. As they said, you are not gifted without this. God gave trials and challenges, he knows we can managed these things.
@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
31 Aug 12
Well, if everyone knows about the benefits behind the trouble. And, if can think better when depression comes.