Halloween Blues
By NailTech
@NailTech (6874)
United States
October 31, 2012 12:15pm CST
I usually am in more of a 'festive' Halloween mood than I am this year. I just can't seem to shake the blues though. I think it is cause of the hurricane news going on now and the aftermath of that, plus the fact that my dad is sick and they 're trying to find out wether or not the cancer is back, plus the $$ I owe for the hospital bills. All of this at once again. Plus the added stress of things with my mother being a real difficult person at times and my brother having the need to raise his already loud deep voice at any given time for whatever reason just grates on my nerves. I even paid over half of what I still owed on my hospital bills today so I wouldn't have to drag that all out and think about for much longer. I hope to pay the rest off next month so Christmas might be cleared of worry about it at least for me. I want to try to enjoy a holiday again. I know Thanksgiving will probably be bad too, yet unless I try to celebrate the fact my hospital bills are paid finally and can let that all go, but I still am depressed about some of the loss of so much $ I used to have for so many years saved up. I tried to make some cupcakes for Halloween today but they mostly just turned out like regular everyday cupcakes with no real decorations on them. This makes me almost feel like those who have lost everything on the news now. 
6 responses
@911Ricki (13588)
• Canada
1 Nov 12
Stress, can cause a lot of issues on us. I think once you have that off your sholders thats one less thing to worry about. I know for me personally owing money and stress is big. I wasn't much into halloween either, I've been working so much that I never thought about it, then with all the doctors appointments and Patches being sick.
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
1 Nov 12
it was just like any other day here, even if our Gov is post poning it to Nov 5 i think alot of people just won't feel like celebrating it then either or give out much candy. they would have probably ate it all themselves by then if they had any to begin with.
@angelkarah050182 (4980)
• Philippines
1 Nov 12
We didn't celebrate Halloween and it's also our holiday in our country today.Most of our countrymen spent their day in cemeteries. They visited their deceased loved ones. I wanted to go too but we're observing other country's holidays. Our boss doesn't care about our holidays and he doesn't pay us "double" during our holidays.However, I just ignored this.I'll just visit my dad,my dad-in-law,my grandparents on Saturday. I won't stress myself anymore. Let's stay happy and keep our faith high. Happy mylotting.
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
1 Nov 12
I am all for staying happy, the bill will be paid off by the end of the year I'm looking for that to happen for certain but the family stuff never ends. It is a mental issue after mental issue and then dad being sick is another problem. He couldn't find us and vice versa in the grocery store today and when i finally did he saw me and started throwing his hands in the air like a fool making a scene, but i'm glad he didn't get tooo loud. i can't go with them anywhere anymore and not get embarassed it seems or aggravated in the car with them arguing like little children. like it was our fault he lost track of us in the store today. now if he has to be in line for over an hour to get gas now cause of hurricane sandy and the power outages these gas stations still have had that will be a challenge, cause he hates to be on any line waiting on the road for anything.
@cher913 (25781)
• Canada
1 Nov 12
right now the economy is tough for pretty much everyone. i just heard on the news today that in the new year, food prices will be rising by about 10% here in Canada (certain foods anyways) which means the small amount of money i earn (i work for a not for profit agency and because we rely on people's donations, i haven't gotten a raise for a couple of years) plus what hubby earns will have to be stretched even further!
as for Christmas, i will be making a lot of stuff. maybe more than usual. i have started shopping and i am hoping that there will be more sales this year. i actually also heard that people, on average, in Canada will be spending more than last year and i think that is just because the prices have gone up!
i hope things work out for you. maybe you can make some of your gifts? pintrest has a number of great craft ideas (even if you aren't crafty!)
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
1 Nov 12
oh no rising costs of food again, as if it isn't already expensive in many areas. this is just something our leaders should really address and try to fix. no one can live like this and be happy anymore. that is true about the spending and how it's only due to the prices going up, never thought of it that way but it is very surprisingly true you brought that up. i had made alot of gifts like candy to send to my relatives in fl but they really don't need anything. i still like sending them stuff cause my aunt always wants them to send us stuff. thing is they send things we don't really want or need.
@celticeagle (189917)
• Boise, Idaho
1 Nov 12
It is difficult to be in a festive mood when there are things on your mind. I was alittle concerned about my daughter for awhile because she was depressed. But she has come out of it and actually went out with her son for awhile this evening trick or treating. I hope you get your bill paid. That would be great!
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
1 Nov 12
Yes and especially continuous things that will never go away like the problem with my family. Mom just gets in these manic depressive moods where she takes things out on us in ways of critisizing and it drives me crazy. Then she will critique us for speaking up about it and cause another argument on top of it all again being the azz she is. It is hopeless with her. I really wish I'd been adopted out as a child to this day.
@subhojit10 (7375)
• India
31 Oct 12
Thanks a ton for sharing this discussion. Well i can understand your feelings and would definitely like to suggest u to maintain calm and have full faith and confidence on yourself. No doubt u wanted to enjoy this year's Halloween but u could not since u were surrounded by so many issues. I think this is your testing time and u have to be very strong and i am sure after every night, there comes a day and u will have a normal life also.
What say?
@NailTech (6874)
• United States
1 Nov 12
oh it is a test time and i really wish the test would be over and done but i think the only way will be if something miraculous happens or perhaps if i were to die. then that will be one way it stops for me. i'm not trying to get attention either, it is just the hopelessness i feel alot of the time.
@Sindelle (824)
• United States
1 Nov 12
I'm sorry you're family is going through a tough time. I hope your father does not have cancer however if he does I'd be greatful they found it before it got any worse. As for your financial issues you're not the only one having trouble with the way the economy has been. I log onto Mylot far too often to find people sharing stories of hardship. Although its fun to decorate and treat ourselves over the holidays remember what Christmas and Thanksgiving are truly about. Spend time with your family and loved ones. Most people appreciate all kind gestures even if they're small if they're from the heart. I should know my boyfriend got me a fish for my birthday lol.
