Accepting my new age
By Colene
@cpefley (1941)
San Jose, California
October 21, 2015 11:21am CST
Yesterday, I turned 37. It is so surreal how quickly life flies by, and how things change so quickly. In a few months, my oldest will be an adult, and a few months after that, he will be off to college. I know I'm not ready for that, but I have to make sure that he is. Growing older isn't something that is easy for me. I still feel lost, and like I still have so much that I want to accomplish in life. Most of my life has been dedicated to raising children, and it is just hard knowing that things will only get harder from here on out.
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@kevin1877uk (36987)
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21 Oct 15
Nice to see you here, be some time, how are you. Happy Birthday hoping you had a wonderful time. Yeah life changes tell me about it.
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@Orson_Kart (8273)
• United Kingdom
22 Oct 15
You are still young enough to do pretty much anything you want. Sounds like you are getting the empty nest syndrome. Spent your whole time looking after the kids that you don't know what to do when they're gone. Create a bucket list and start doing things for yourself. You will soon feel much happier. 
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@Orson_Kart (8273)
• United Kingdom
22 Oct 15
@cpefley Oh sorry, I have been a bit presumptuous here. lol
You can still make that list, just put some of it on the back burner for a few years. If I am still alive in 20 years I will come back and check up on your progress. 
@OneOfMany (12150)
• United States
21 Oct 15
I'm 33 and I haven't even gotten married, but then I've had a rough life so it's been difficult. At least you've gotten the children part done. And then can look forward to being a young grandmother!
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@OneOfMany (12150)
• United States
22 Oct 15
@cpefley In my family line the generations are wide. My grandfather that I never knew would be turning 105 this year if he were alive.
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@cpefley (1941)
• San Jose, California
22 Oct 15
@OneOfMany Wow! Well I guess my own children is pretty wide. I had them across 3 different decades, and the oldest and youngest are 15 years apart. However, I can't imagine having a grandfather that would be 105! My oldest son's grandfather was 80 when he was born, so that's a pretty big generation gap lol. He passed shortly after though :(
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@cpefley (1941)
• San Jose, California
21 Oct 15
My mother was a young grandmother. She was 39, and the same age I was when I had my first. My youngest is 3, and I have 5 kids altogether. It is chaotic, and I've never been married either! I know that may seem strange, but it took me a long time to settle down. I love being a mother though. Thanks Morgan! Going to follow you.
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@cpefley (1941)
• San Jose, California
21 Oct 15
I wish I had that attitude. It may be just a number, but I hate the feeling like I have an expiration date. I want my children to be proud of me. I have put so much energy into raising them. I hope that one day they see me as a person, and not just their mom.
@allknowing (153530)
• India
22 Oct 15
You are at a stage when facing challenges is more a norm than an exception. Do take time off to pamper yourself.
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@WorDazza (15826)
• Manchester, England
22 Oct 15
It's strange but when I was in my 30s I never really felt grown up. If any family crisis occurred I was always delighted when my parents turned up. My first thought was "At last, some responsible adults!"
There's nothing stopping you accomplishing what you want. In some ways it gets easier once your children start leaving for college/university. My youngest has just gone to university and my wife and I now have so much free time it's great!!
@whiteream (8567)
• United States
18 Nov 15
I am 42 and I know how you feel, life seems to go by faster as you get older. You just have to sit back and enjoy the ride.
