oh, hi moneybags

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I have just been served by a student of mine in Costa, in the small historic market town where Husband works. I'm waiting for Mumsy and wasting the hour by drinking a skinny hazelnut latte mochachockawocka coftea milk drink. Medium. In a few minutes the shops will throw open their doors and I shall have a gander at their wares. I prepared for the occasion of a day with Mumsy by checking my bank account balance last night. OMG. I'm running out of money; I have only £950 to last me till payday, with payday being a whole two days away. How will I survive?! It's daft really. If my bank balance gets below £1000 I tend to get in a palaver. I don't even earn that much in a month {just under, in fact}. I listen to other people who are happy to just break even when payday arrives, or who get to their overdraft limit just as payday hits, and then spend the next month living off their overdraft again, always stuck in this vicious circle, and I realise that I'm well-off in comparison to others. I believe my fear of lack of money stems from being dragged up, kicking and screaming {seriously, who really wants to grow up?}, below the poverty line. I have a memory of Mumsy being unable to afford the twenty pence subs I needed for Brownies, week after week. Brown Owl, mother of a friend of one of my siblings, knew our situation and still told me off. Who does that to a child? So now I like to have money. I don't want to spend it, i just like having it there; I borrow books from the library rather than buy them, the majority of my clothes come from charity shops or are bought when there's a sale on, we shop at Aldi and always check the clearance shelves at Tesco. I have money in an ISA too. Not a lot, but a few thousand. Because it's in the ISA and I can't get to it easily I tend to forget I have it, so it's always a pleasant surprise when I suddenly remember! I am thankful. As a child it was horrid having to be so poor, but it taught me the value not only of money, but of kindness and sharing. And for that I am grateful.