I Am Asking Myself When Will I Stop...

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It has been over 6 months now and still there hasn't a day that i don't think of her. I still worry about her. I still worry if she is eating the right food or drinking the right water. I still think about her all the time. The question is... is she also thinking about me? Do I even cross her mind in the middle of an intense class or while she's walking in a busy street? Does she smile when she remembers something about us while she's writing her papers? I have no clue but i still hope so.. i hope she still does think of me... everyday. I am the one making it painful and harder for myself by even thinking about these thoughts. Expectations and illusions. The waiting game of her sending messages or thinking if she will even ask again if we could talk about 'US'. I keep on asking myself... when will i ever stop thinking about these expectations of me and her getting back together?! Last night.. i saw a movie trailer and in the end of it the title showed-- Lost In Florence and I just cried!! I thought of her and in my head i was like i wish i could be lost with you- only with you and i don't care when and where. I cried for a little bit cause i had the train station flashback.. again. I felt sad and lonely and hurt.. again. When will I stop.. PS: I could potentially write a good novel.