I started my morning CRYING...
By Mary Ann
@therealmaryyy (3162)
Philippines
January 5, 2017 10:04am CST
i slept a little late last night.. i think midnight or it was almost 1AM.. i was watching the BuzzFeed Unsolved Marathon- like i mentioned from my old discussion.. it was a few videos in YouTube.
i woke up late 8 in the morning. went to the loo for a wee and then went back to bed. i was just checking my phone for instagram posts and also my mylot account. then all of a sudden, i closed my laptop and put down my phone. i was trying to go back to sleep. i just closed my eyes and just started crying. i was telling myself that i'm too sad and depressed cause i cry at night before i sleep and then cry when i wake up! damn it! i'm not crying every night and every morning. just every time SHE crosses my mind i miss her even more! we no longer chat everyday. i wanted to not message her as much as i want to and even if she told me to message her whenever. i don't want to cause i don't feel that it's the right thing to do. well, even if i don't message her- i think of her. all the time. it's like no escape. i always try my best to divert my attention by doing other things but most of things i do- it just reminds me of her.
Oh well... the phases and stages and process of Moving On..
Why oh why is it too difficult and emotional???
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6 responses
@katsmeow1213 (28716)
• United States
9 Jan 17
I went through a tough breakup many moons ago.. and was single for 6 months. I hated being single, it was torture.
Eventually I told myself that when I was ready, the right person would come along... and he did. Now I've been married for almost 15 years.
Your perfect someone will come along too... when you least expect it, when you're not really looking..
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@katsmeow1213 (28716)
• United States
9 Jan 17
@therealmaryyy You are lonely right now and want someone to fill that void. That's natural.
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@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
9 Jan 17
@katsmeow1213 yes. very lonely. i must say depressed. i don't know.
i'm still in pain.. trying to move on ;(
@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
9 Jan 17
the longer you are single the more you get used being by your self. alone. it happened to me for awhile. i agree that we feel like it's a torture during that period cause we get lonely sometimes.
i also believe that i'm letting things happens.. being patient and wait for that person to come. i feel like i'm not being patient now cause i'm signing up with these dating sites!
i'm glad that you are content with your marriage and of course you are happy.
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
5 Jan 17
@therealmaryyy How long were you together? Why are you not together anymore?
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@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
5 Jan 17
@shaggin only a few months. ha! cause she needed to go back home for school.
@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
5 Jan 17
the funny thing about 'US' was we didn't really talked about it. we didn't talk if we are officially together or talked about putting a label in our relationship. we just connected and we had a great time together.
but i felt like we were a couple cause we did everything like any other couples does.. so yes, i guess, HER- is my Ex-Girlfriend.
**sigh
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@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
5 Jan 17
You're right.. i need to feel and endure the pain to let go...
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@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
5 Jan 17
Everything takes time. Hopefully days will start to get better. The ache will always be there but in time you will be able to move on and the tears will be less. 
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@therealmaryyy (3162)
• Philippines
5 Jan 17
TIME. Time heals all wounds.
i am waiting for that day to happen! the day that i won't be hurting every time i think of her..
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@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
5 Jan 17
@therealmaryyy It will happen...for now just get through it the best you can. Hang in there!!
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