When I was fifteen.. part 2

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Continued.. So as the first part stated, I got pregnant shortly after starting to have sex, but didn't know I was pregnant until I was a month to a month and a half along.. When I found out, I had all these different emotions going through my body. The boy? He said "what" and hung up the phone. He also kept rejecting my calls, ignoring my texts, ignoring me on MySpace (the social media site of 2007). And blamed me. Plus had all his friends texting and calling me threatening me to have an abortion or they'll make me have a miscarriage, cause HE didn't want to have the baby. Few weeks went on like this, then what do you know, he found out I was going to a doctors appointment for an ultrasound and got mad that I didn't ask him to go or even tell him about it. Umm, I don't have to? Especially after you said I needed to get rid of my child. Somehow over the next few days we made up. And then hung out everyday, and he took me to get papa ginos almost everyday as their cheese bread sticks were my main craving. Fast forward to me being 7 months pregnant.. I tried to commit suicide twice. Which noone but the few people who were there know about (until now, if anyone bothers to read this). Why? Because he was smoking and drinking, always playing video games, and just acting like a fool with his friends instead of getting ready for our baby. Plus calling me names and again getting his friends involved, and one of them said she had slept with him a week before. Cool! There was only three things that stopped me from ending both mine and my baby's lives. And those were my baby, my mother, and two of my friends who literally held on to me and stopped me. Unfortunately (you'll see why I say that in the next post) we somehow worked things out as time got closer to having the baby. Weeks later the baby came, he stayed at the hospital with me, lived with us and my mom and brother for the first two weeks of the baby being home, and things were good... Until my baby was 3 months old.. * * * * * * Part three will be about losing my child.. and will be posted sometime later tonight.