It's Getting to be Too Much

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I have been gone for a long time and it isn't because I didn't want to be here. I just have so much going on with life right now and unless I get a chance to let this all out I think I am going to explode. I don't want to bother my friends because I have talked to them about some of the things already and I know that they will get annoyed with me and some of them have their own problems so the last thing I should do is bug them with mine. I am in the last home stretch of my dental assisting program and I have to maintain my good testing with hard core studying. It gets hard to do that when I have to deal with a 3 year old who has recently decided that not listening and interrupting me at every opportunity while getting in trouble is so much fun. My in laws end up getting fed up with my son misbehaving a lot quicker now so I don't even bother with asking them to watch him. My husband will try to distract him with TV or something while he plays games but my son tends to bore easily with TV and ends up just getting in trouble then complaining to come to me. I wish so much that my mom lived in the same state because she loves getting to see him and watch him any chance she gets. My final is tomorrow and the last thing we will be going over is radiography which I was told is going to take much more effort than everything else we have gone over and if things keep going this way I am going to be nothing but a ticking time bomb of stress. On top of that my grandmother has decided that she will come to me for all her problems even though I am 3 states away! The home health aide she was supposed to be receiving never got back to her or to me so they were basically just a no show. She was just complaining to me because she some how uninstalled facebook from her phone and wanted me to find it for her. I tried explaining to her that I can't do anything when I am hundreds of miles away. She seemed to think I was just a few miles away for some reason and told me to help her with it when I came over. We won't be going to Philadelphia until October. None of my uncles want to get her the help she needs and my dad is in prison and chose to back his insane ex girlfriend in a conflict she had with my grandmother so my grandma isn't wanting anything to do with my dad right now. It should be known she wouldn't be in this predicament if she hadn't pushed away all the good men she had with her manipulations and cheating. Regardless, she raised me and gave me a good child hood. She didn't start getting crazy and out of control until after my dad went to prison and I love her anyway and wish I could help but I can't do anything for her now. Now that none of my uncles need her to give them a roof over their heads, food, internet, and any other luxuries they asked for they aren't helping her and they are in the same state as her which is sad and messed up. I swear between her, my school work and trying to prepare for a job hunt, and my son being incredibly unbearable I just want to scream and cry and break things. Life is getting really hard and I know I just have to suck it up and push on and I will but I just really needed to let it out. When was there a time that had you feeling insane? What do you think about the fact that my uncles aren't helping their own mother who helped them and let them mooch off of her for free for years?