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@just4him (323168)
Green Bay, Wisconsin
September 15, 2017 4:47pm CST
Sorry I haven't been here all day. It's been a long day. I did laundry at my daughter's this morning, and when I got home, I folded it while watching a program on Netflix called Hinterland. It's a British detective show taking place in Wales. It was very intense and interesting how they solved the murder.
Now I'm here and ready to interact with you.
I've had a rough week this week with dealing with this blood clot. Not that it is giving me any trouble, it's not, for which I'm thankful. I've had a lot to think about and decided it was best to tell my children about it. That left me feeling like nobody cared and put me into a somewhat depressed mood.
I wanted to tell them together, not separately, but nobody had a compatible time they could get together to come here. That in itself was depressing as I really wanted to talk to them face to face, not by Facebook, as I did my younger son, who gave me no response, or over the phone as I did my daughter who treated it indifferently. My oldest, yes, he hit the roof when I told him. The only one who seemed to care.
I feel like an inconvenience to my children and God forbid if I happen to die at a time when they can't be bothered.
Being at my daughter's to do laundry was strained. She only asked if I got a second opinion about it. To which I told her no. I trusted the doctor. That was the end of the discussion. We barely talked after that, and she left with a friend before I left. It was just me and the dog. So when the clothes were done, I just put them in the basket and came home, folding them when I got here, and found something to watch while I did.
With that kind of reaction yesterday, I wasn't able to stay on myLot very long. I couldn't do much of anything. My mind keeps telling me that you reap what you sow, and what goes around, comes around.
I didn't have a good relationship with my parents, particularly my mother. I really felt nothing when she passed, my father either. Now, I'm feeling like my children feel the same way about me. I really hope I'm wrong, but that's what it feels like at the moment.
I'm sorry, I really needed to get this out. Call it a pity party if you will, even a rant of sorts. I don't vent very often, but I felt I needed to, just to be able to move forward.
Thanks for reading. I really appreciate you taking the time to listen. I'm not swimming tomorrow, so I'm going to get all 166 notifications finished before bed, or at least give it a good try.
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21 responses
@TiarasOceanView (70020)
• United States
16 Sep 17
I know how you feel about that Valerie..it is an unpleasant feeling to say the least.
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@celticeagle (189927)
• Boise, Idaho
16 Sep 17
I am sorry to hear this. Maybe your kids that didn't seem to care are in denial and can't handle it. It is scary news.
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@snowy22315 (209080)
• United States
16 Sep 17
I think I know how you feel. My son is a bit like that as well. I told him I would appreciate a call once a week...and he said..well you're welcome to call me! Oh please..it isn't like I asked him to give me a kidney.
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@snowy22315 (209080)
• United States
17 Sep 17
@just4him They remember but they can't be bothered..not right.
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
18 Sep 17
@snowy22315 No, it's not right.
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@velvet53 (24417)
• Palisade, Colorado
16 Sep 17
I know how you are feeling. At least you told them and hopefully they will wake up and see the light. Some kids just figure that their parents are indestructable but we aren't. We are human too. My oldest son shows more concern but not always in the right way. I know my youngest son cares but he is the type that doesn't let his feelings show.
May your children understand that you want to be there for them and that is why you are sharing any health issues you may have with them. My prayers are with you. We all care about you.
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@ElusiveButterfly (45941)
• United States
16 Sep 17
Seems like people have their priorities mixed up lately. My children are included in this. I know they love me. They know I love them. Try to get them all together in the same room or just to come to my home is a battle.
Big hugs to you lady.
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@ElusiveButterfly (45941)
• United States
16 Sep 17
@just4him Sadly they will learn from this, hopefully before it is too late.
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
17 Sep 17
@ElusiveButterfly Probably not though.
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@prashu228 (37518)
• India
16 Sep 17
Really sorry for you. Hope your children express what they are feeling and speak to you.
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@bluesa (15022)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
16 Sep 17
I am so sorry that all your children could not get together for you to tell them of your worries about the blood clot. I have to say your oldest son does very much care for you from his reaction to the news. But it is hurtful when something very important needs to be discussed and one is told there is no "compatible time" . I almost lost my Mother last year, I know how precious time is. I wish every child could realise that. I hope your children will soon get together with you.
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@andriaperry (118793)
• Anniston, Alabama
16 Sep 17
Sometimes I think we just space out to peoples sickness, why? Seems this day and time everyone is sick.
Give them time for it to sink in, I am sure they care.
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@fishtiger58 (29819)
• Momence, Illinois
16 Sep 17
I sometimes feel that way with my sons, my youngest in particular. They are young and probably think our small problems are just that small and not worth their time or worry. I never felt that way about my parents, but sometimes life just gets in the way. I'm sure you children love and care about you
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
17 Sep 17
@fishtiger58 That is very good.
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@fishtiger58 (29819)
• Momence, Illinois
17 Sep 17
@just4him My parents were wonderful I got very lucky to have them.
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@poehere (15123)
• French Polynesia
16 Sep 17
I am so sorry to hear this. As you know my mom and I have a very difficult relationship and one that will never be mended. However, I only have a daughter and her and I are so close. She calls all the time and when I need to tell he something she always has the time to listen. We are really close. Maybe it is because I was only 18 when she was born and we sort of grew up together. Her dad left when she as only 13 months old and it was just the two of us. So that brought us even closer together.
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@kobesbuddy (78833)
• East Tawas, Michigan
16 Sep 17
Don't feel left out, because I can name about three Christian couples, who are experiencing the same exact scenario, with their grown kids. It's a part of the end times, Valerie. The love of many shall wax cold:( And it's coming to pass, do not blame yourself for that!
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@just4him (323168)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
18 Sep 17
@kobesbuddy The only thing we can do now is pray for them.
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@kobesbuddy (78833)
• East Tawas, Michigan
18 Sep 17
@just4him Amen, it does hurt, because our entire life was spent raising those kids! We made many mistakes, because ALL parents do! But, the bottom line is, we were there for them, to provide them with love, food, shelter, safety, and clothing, the best way we knew how!
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