I love my wife so much that losing her will be the single saddest moment of my life.
@lookatdesktop (27156)
Dallas, Texas
May 1, 2018 1:34pm CST
As we grow older, we eventually outlive others who are even younger than we are. When at high school age, both parents of mine were alive and I was living in a time when everyone was alive and living fully.
Abundant living is a great experience for me as I have done so for all the years of my life but I am now 60 years old and I have already outlived several of those who once were taken for granted.
Now, as I grow older and my wife grows older with me, it is acceptable for us both to realize that we are approaching a time when, even with being nearly living a healthy life, our bodies don't have the same stamina and get up and go as before. and she and I know that the day will come, that one of us will pass away before the other and I am hopeful to be alive when she passes, sometime in the far distant future, hopefully and God willing, because if I die before she does, it will be harder for her because I want to be here as long as I can to look after her.
She and I both know that last year's flu season could easily have killed both of us and with the latest predictions from Bill Gates about an epidemic of Flu or some other type of virus, there will be perhaps millions or at least, hundreds of thousands of deaths. So I know we are in a race against mother nature and a race against time itself.
Looking at a yard stick, that has 3 feet of length I see myself at the far end of that yard stick, in a sense of the word, nearing the end of my days of living on this planet and with the passing of a member of myLot recently from stage 4 cancer and another myLot member who had pneumonia, and had to be hospitalized from a fall, and my own sense of dread as I look at the television news and see all the senseless acts of other people, it is a wonder I have made it this far.
I have tried to find ways to spend my time in a more meaningful way instead of being on the treadmill of futility. So, that said, I hope you have time to live for the moment, and just don't worry about tomorrow and the pandora's box being opened up. Just listen to the following music in the link below and close your eyes and take a moment to just be yourself and enjoy the moment. Because this moment is now and it is all we have because tomorrow is out of sight.
Put on a happy face, Dick Van Dyke, YouTube.
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@KrauseHome (36445)
• United States
1 May 18
Personally many times, this is never something I think about. But have recently in the last yr lost 2 close friends to Cancer that were younger than me so all we can do is live life to the fullest thanking God for today
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@lookatdesktop (27156)
• Dallas, Texas
2 May 18
I do thank God for every day as a gift. Not to take it for granted as it could so easily be taken away in an instant.
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@Kandae11 (57232)
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1 May 18
We know that "a tomorrow is promised to no one" - whether we are young or old, therefore we should make every day count. Married couples who are very close and have lived with each other for many, many years find it hard to cope when one passes. Some even kind of give up on life and die soon after.
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@jaboUK (64346)
• United Kingdom
2 May 18
I'm a lot older than you (78) and I don't worry - what comes, comes. However, like you I'd like to outlive my spouse because it would be extremely difficult for him without me. (He's 87). This isn't ego talking, it's fact, and I wrote a post about it last year.
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@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
1 May 18
Very nicely written. I look at life much differently since my heart attack and open heart surgery last June. Since that time I have learned to live each day with no regrets and to never take anybody for granted. Tomorrow is not guaranteed to anyone. We must just enjoy it while we can and live our lives to the fullest.
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@mlgen1037 (29882)
• Manila, Philippines
1 May 18
This is beautiful, Anthony. We live for today and we should take everyday as if it is our last. Tomorrow will be another day. 
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@innertalks (23746)
• Australia
2 May 18
I have trouble with this idea of living in the now, but I have worked out that this is because I either fear the future, or regret the past, or both.
Love itself always lives in the now. Fear lives in the past.
Never is fear present in the now, and so if we are feeling fear, it simply means that part of us is being projected into the future, or it is trying to live in the now, but still linking itself to some of our unfinished business from the past (through regret, a form of fear), or unstarted business, as it is feared to be in our future.
Photo Credit:
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Not living in the now, brings us the stress, caused by the illusion of time being real.
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