12 years today.

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It is 12am here. The 7th of April. Marks 12 years today since my mum died. Sometimes I worry ( even though I know I shouldn't ) that people will think that I post about her to gain sympathy. I'm honestly not. There is a reason why I post something about her every year. ( Mainly on Facebook ) It's because when my mum was alive, we used to be on Yahoo Questions & Answers together. She got me hooked on that. I don't use it anymore but every year for my birthday she would post about it to get people to wish me a happy birthday. So now, every year on this day I post R.I.P Mummy. Kinda like an inside "joke" or....well not really joke. I guess I mean it's a "Mum and me" thing. So Mummy, R.I.P. I love you and I miss you very much. xxxx I have some notifications to catch up with and I will do them when I wake up or most likely Monday as I can't really tell you what I will get up to today. My motivation and emotions will be all over the place today. Every year is the same. I relive the whole thing. I get anxious when it gets to certain times because it takes me back to when I heard she died or see the time she actually died etc. I just hate this day very much and hoping I can sleep the whole day away. Soon as it hits 8th of April, I do feel a bit better. But I feel even more better when all of April is over and done with. Hope you're all good. Will catch up with you later. ****I found this picture randomly on Google. Hope it's ok to use here**** ****Was just perfect because I called her "Mummy Bear."****