The "Turtle Story." - Another venting session about my Aunty!

@sugartoes This woman deserves a lesson, she is taking pleasure in harassing this young girl, it is insane!

@sugartoes The only way is to fight back, some people only understand that language.

@sugartoes They do not deserve to be treated gently.

Thank you @Daljinder. This woman is mean, she loves to make this poor girl suffer.

@VivaLaDani13 You are welcome Dani, take care.

@Daljinder Ever since Anna said it, I have been considering it lol But yeah she can surely say and do some awful and childish things! @LadyDuck Thank you Anna!

Glad to see you @TiarasOceanView

@TiarasOceanView As much as I love her, yes she can be just that! And very hurtful at times! I don't really understand why.

@VivaLaDani I will definitely read the others, just trying to get through my notifications first

@jaboUK I agree! It was given to me to somewhat mock me or make fun of my dark times. To which if you do read my other stories about her, you will see she has done just that. She has made fun of some of the most dark and depressed times in my life. It's not healthy to do or healthy for me to listen to!

@jaboUK No worries at all! I'm trying to catch up on here too lol Quite far behind with those I'm following here.

@VivaLaDani13 I can understand you feeling hurt. What she says is just plain mean. Can you try and avoid her as much as possible. She sounds like a bully and usually with a bully, if you stand up to them they will back down.

@simone10 I haven't really seen her much at all or messaging her like I used to. I don't think she is even aware I'm annoyed with her right now. And it makes me sad that she may not even understand why. If and when I'm ready to talk with her again, I'd like to make it clear that I don't like being treated that way. I'd rather to try fix it first. Hopefully it will set everything to something more positive.

@simone10 Thank you very much for reading and answering this post as well as your kind words! It means so much to me! I can say that other family members ( mainly my dad ) have somewhat defended me. But not enough that could possibly change things. I sort of feel alone in regards to how I get treated and not just by her. I know my family care and love me but sometimes I feel alone and like I have to fight for myself. I haven't said anything like "Please don't do this or that." But....it's still concerning that something like that needs to be said. Any "normal" caring person ( not to mention family ) wouldn't be saying what she says. If you do read my other posts, I recently posted another one, you will sure learn more of what she has done. It just confuses me but mainly hurts me with what she says and I don't understand why.

@sunrisefan Hey! Thank you for answering. And thank you for the link. I've been listening to it. So beautifil! And it's funny because I often listen to things like this or some type of calming music / binaural beats for one reason or another.

@VivaLaDani13 I'm glad you like it and I hope it helps :) Just got back from watering the plants and took a cool shower after :)

@sunrisefan Hope you're having a good day!

@Sreekala I don't know either. It's quite sick and twisted really.

@VivaLaDani13 Obviously, if having that turtle brings up more negative emotions that outweighs any positive motivating force, then it would be best to get rid of it. I've never met you in person, but I'm usually a pretty good judge of character, and just from my time I've known you on this site, I would say that your aunty is wrong on all those negative things she says about you. Yes, you have admitted on here that you suffer from depression, and sometimes feel a sense of hopelessness, but that is not who you are. Depression is a medical condition, not a definition of who a person is. You are a sweet, loving, caring and trusting person, wonderful qualities any guy in this world would love to have in the woman they date or marry.

@moffittjc Thank you so very much for everything you said. Like I said, I have flaws but I'm not someone who would want to hurt anyone on purpose for fun. So I don't understand why people, especially family members do or say things to me that make me question myself. Like to make me wonder if it's something wrong with me or if I deserve it. I'm sure in person you'd understand more of who I am and how I am but thank you for what you said. Appreciate a nice compliment right now.

@moffittjc aw thank you for your very positive and encouraging words. Your short paragraph is probably way more encouragement that my Aunty has ever given me. She can say some really nice things but her mean things really out weigh the good. I have thought about that too. Like sometimes I will look at it and think "wow...I'd love to do so much more to prove you wrong." But I get more negativity feelings than any motivation. So I don't know. I think I'd rather get rid of it BUT I will keep it to show my Aunty and ask her if she remembers it and the story to it.

@VivaLaDani13 not having read your previous posts I understand now why you consider her toxic. I would find a way to stay clear of her.

@Morleyhunt It's all good! I loved what you suggested and I know that can be the case. Just hard to say this about my Aunty from what I told you. Something else is up and I wish I knew what it was to try and understand why she can say horrible things.

@Morleyhunt Thank you for your answer. It's not anything I've ever thought about but it's still considered! But I'm afraid its highly unlikely that is the reason. I understand where you are coming from but I have plenty more stories to show that she just has a mean streak in her. I do agree with you that that is possible to happen but why I don't think it's possible with my Aunty is because she has also made fun of me, not pointing out, but made fun and laughed about my drinking problem I had / have. She rarely drinks so she can't relate to that with me. My dad had a serious talk to her about the big problem I had with drinking, when I saw her ( this was years ago ) she hugged me and told me that if she knew I actually had a problem, she never would have made fun of me. The very next day, when I was out having breakfast with family she laughed and said "I know you really did have a problem but I will make fun of you anyway." So....I'm afraid it's more of a nasty streak or she's not understanding that it's not right to make fun of someone's addiction. It's weird to be concerned one day and make fun of me while others are around. Also, I haven't done a post on this yet but I think it's worth mentioning here. About 4-5 years ago, I enrolled in a Beauty Therapy course. My depression was quite bad then as well as bad anxieties. I would make my way there, but turn around and come back home or didn't leave the house at all to class. So dropped out of that course. One night, while my family and I went out to dinner, my Aunty asked me what I had been up to, I told her I was considering doing another type of Beauty course. Her answer and I quote this word for word was "You probably won't finish that either." She did not say it in a concerned way. In fact, however it is said, is pretty rude and harsh. Kicking me while I am down. She calls me "stupid" and "dumb dumb" often even though she knows I don't like that. Has told me I am going to hell just because I'm not "Christian" like she is. Also made the comment that my "mother would be in hell." So....I don't know. Again, I understand where you are coming from but the things I have mentioned here still don't put a dent in the things she has said and done that is nasty.

@Hannihar Sometimes I wonder if her past or recent stresses are what makes her become such a bully. I'm not sure really. I just know that it's so wrong. I recently posted another thing about something she said to me. It's something that really messed with my head as it was so wrong and harsh for her to say. I can stay away from her and I have been but it's not the number one thing I want to do forever. I love my family very much and I'd like to try let her know how I feel first before giving up my relationship with her. But if I speak to her and she still makes fun of me, then I'm afraid I will have to only see her during family gatherings and have nothing more. Thank you for reading.

@Hannihar I feel and believe I am pretty much alone with this. It's very rare that anyone can stand up for me. My dad and brother are 100% aware, especially now that I'm very hurt and angry with my Aunty but not one of them has brought it up to her and they've both been seeing her a lot. I did ask my dad if he could bring it up to her when he goes for his doctor's appointment but whether or not he actually does it, I don't know. I know he loves and cares for me a lot but I feel people are either cowards in this family or they talk behind each other's backs because it's easier than confronting in case that starts even more trouble.

@VivaLaDani13 Is there someone that can speak to her on your behalf and straighten her out and to not treat you that way. Have you tried asking your father why she is the way she is?

@Michellekidwell Thank you for answering. I don't understand how she can be really nice sometimes but have this streak of nastiness. Not being able to drive due to medications is completely fair enough and I also agree with you that people have their own rate of doing what needs to be done. I just don't understand why people can take such pleasure in mocking those who are a little behind. It means much more to offer support rather than knock people while they are already down.