Why do they hate me?

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I’m now in my first year in college. I study way too far from home. I’m not sure if I can call it my home. Actually, I’m glad I move out to a different place to study because my home doesn’t feel like home. Everyone whom I lived with hates me I must say. My parents, my siblings, aunts, uncle, everyone. Why? I found my refuge in my friends. I felt wanted. I felt loved. I gained and received something which I long to receive at home. That was then. The moment our high school life ended, it seems like our friendship ended as well. Why? My friends and I went to different places and schools to study but as far as I can remember we swear that our friendship doesn’t end as we go to college, that we’re not gonna forget each other, and every promises there is. I felt assured not until I discovered that they have plans, get aways, and all which doesn’t include me. They made a new group chat, excluding me. And recently, they went somewhere without me. I felt betrayed, annoyed, most of all hurt. At school, I don’t have friends. Yes I do have acquaintances but not friends, because I think they don’t like me. All my life, I feel rejected, left out, most of the time I feel like I’m hated and I don’t know why. I did my best but why do I feel like it’s still not enough? Sometimes I wish I’m dead just one day to know if someone will cry, someone will miss me. I’m just being myself but why do they hate me? I did not hurt them. I did not do anything to harm them. But why? What big mistake did I do to deserve all this pain and betrayal and hatred?