I Can Let Go of The Anger.

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Last month, I made a post about being angry over my Momma's passing. I'll attach the link to the bottom of this post, but basically, we were told her cause of death was sepsis from an infection caused by her diverticulitis tear. It could've been prevented, and because of that, I was very angry. Well, my younger sister received the autopsy report earlier this month, and while they originally thought her death was caused by sepsis, it turns out that wasn't the case. I was told it was hypotensive shock. I asked my sister if this meant it wasn't the hospitals' fault after all, and she said yes. She said Mom put up a good fight, but in the end, it was her longterm heart problems that caused her death. Obviously, I'm still not happy about her passing or that it was her heart. And of course, I miss her very much. But in a way, I'm relieved that it wasn't the lack of testing on the hospitals' part. The anger I had for those two hospitals was heavy, and those who know me outside of MyLot know I was pretty angry. It was part of the reason I was in a rush for a therapist. But now, I can let go of the anger. When I found out it wasn't the hospitals' fault, I felt like a weight was lifted. I have my moments like anyone, but I'm generally not an angry person, so as I said --- that anger was heavy. Now I can put it down. I'm still looking for a therapist (grief counselor). A loved one is going to talk to theirs for me, and I found a place to call that's located nearby and may take my insurance. I was going to address that heavy anger first, and I still may bring it up, but I can focus on healing and living without my parents. Basically, I feel like I can start to work toward healing, as much as a girl in my situation can heal. Photo Credit: Pixabay. Here is the original post about my anger: (Did you notice that I used the same tags for this post, but I changed "anger" to "healing"?)