Almost 200 pages

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I haven't been doing great mentally wise for the last week and a half. I was holding out some emotions for a while because I just didn't have the time to deal with them, but I kind of just broke down and started what I love to do most, and that is write. I went to visit my grandma, and now, many people on here will know, my visits with my grandma can get a bit...much. We have different opinions, different views of life, and I try my best to not have arguments, but boy does she like to press them. Basically, we were talking about careers, how I know some of my friends are quitting jobs, getting laid off, struggling, everyone is struggling right now. I currently don't have a job, I do what I can online, but I am lucky that I have my mother supporting. So this conversation goes on, and she makes some snide remark saying that I got the wrong degree or else I would have a job right now. Completely ignoring the fact that I have a million and 5 other problems that are a reason why I do not have a job right now. She knows my problems, but apparently I am just worth nothing because I got the "wrong degree" as a creative writing major. Okay...okay. So I told her to stop before I got angry, I didn't want to get angry because it was pointless. I didn't realize how much it bothered me until that Friday night where I just started writing. and I kept writing throughout the weekend. Then comes Monday, and I didn't want to do anything but write. I kept getting bad news after bad news of some of my extended family on my dad's side. I am not very close to them, but they are kind people, and they are going through a lot. And so, I as a very emotionally being, felt their pain and so I kept writing to just hide away from all this pain. It then came to yesterday, where I knew I had to stop, I have a lot of work to get done. So last night, I stopped writing, in 10 days, I had written almost 200 pages of script. And it felt so good. Because yeah, apparently my decision of getting my degree in creative writing was "wrong" and a "waste of time"