I'm so sorry. I'm so behind here. So much going on!

Perth, Australia
May 24, 2022 6:09am CST
Hello everyone. I really hope everyone is doing well. I haven't been on all that much but please know (I say this a lot, but I really want MyLotters to understand) that I take screenshots of my notifications if I feel I am not going to be on much. So though I see no notifications here right now, as they have disappeared, they are 100% saved in a screenshot so I can follow that to answer everyone back. So much has been going on. A lot of it is my good old pal "Depression." I can become anti-social as a lot of you know. But there is a lot of personal things going on that is not good but hopefully that can become better one day. But I won't really speak of that here, well not now. And a lot going on with stuff I have spoken about here. I have so much to share with you all but I don't want to make a long post. For now I will tell in dot point formation (which can remind me later too for when I'm ready to be more active). *My Poppy has his ups and downs. At the moment, very very down. He is going through a phase (hopefully a phase) of depression. He is writing a lot of notes in his room (he is in a care home) which are really sad notes. Due to his dementia, he doesn't understand what is going on and when he is told about him having dementia, he doesn't believe anyone. These notes are his thoughts about not wanting to be around anymore. I will talk about that another time. It's really sad. He truly believes my Nanny put him there because she doesn't love him anymore. That's not true. *I stayed with my Nanny not all that long ago to spend time with her. She also is not good. Her arm is doing much better after her surgery. But she is sad that her husband is not with her. My Poppy is getting more verbally aggressive with her as he wants to come home. She knows he can't help it but she's feeling guilty, lonely and just missing him. *I haven't seen my Poppy in a long time. Last time was Christmas morning. I was almost able to see him last week through his bedroom window but when my Dad and Nanny came out, they said it wasn't a good time. *We are still grieving about the loss of our doggy Charlie. I'm still waiting for an apology from my brother (for those who know about that story, you'll understand). My cat (Leilah) has been acting odd since his passing. To a point we are thinking she can see him. (Honestly not sure, it's just weird). *I finally got my glasses last month. I am so happy I can see things more clearly. I even see the night sky more clearly. This whole time I never knew how many stars I couldn't see. Now I can! *Last but not least, we might be losing our home. We do have a lease til either December or February which is good but, if we don't get an investor, we have to move. We have been here 17 years. We had a photographer come today to take photos of the house. My dad and I have been running around like crazy trying to go through the house thoroughly. I've been taking things more serious in regards to all the things that have been in boxes in the store room that I want to sell. Things I bought years ago to try flip, things I no longer need or things I found when my ex friend and I used to go junk hunting. That whole process of taking photos, uploading them, then advertising on Facebook has been draining me out. I'm in over 60 selling groups as I like to widen the audience but it's extremely time consuming. My dad and I have done so much around the house and our backs are hurting us. Would have been nice if bro helped! Anyway that's some of what's been going on. I also wanted to say I miss MyLot so much and the many MyLotters. Same with other friends in general. Messages on Facebook has piled up unopened. I feel guilty. I am not gone. I'm still here hiding in the shadows.
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@much2say (53650)
• Los Angeles, California
24 May 22
I'm glad you are here . . . nice to see you. So much going on there - yep, life takes over and that takes precedence over everything else. Thinking of you and your family - I hope everything works out!
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@much2say (53650)
• Los Angeles, California
31 Jul 22
@VivaLaDani13 Good to hear from you! No worries . . . I am sure there are a billion notifications I never got to and well, we just can't possibly get to everything here. Again, life takes over, what can we do. Weird, yah, I can relate .
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• Perth, Australia
31 Jul 22
@much2say Thank you very kindly. Very sorry for my late response here. I am shocked I did this back in May. For whatever reason, concept of time has been weird for me lately. Anyway, thank you very much for your lovely comment. I hope you are doing alright though! Always nice to see you too.
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• Perth, Australia
1 Aug 22
@much2say Good to hear from you too. Always a pleasure. That is true. Sometimes it can slip through our hands. I always find them as the OCD in me won't allow myself to miss one notification. I just sometimes go through phases of replying late but they will always be replied. But like you said, life, oh life. It's weird life is. Fun, exciting, sad, stressful etc. Life is a bunch of everything.
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@Treborika (16957)
• Mombasa, Kenya
23 Jan 23
I welcome you back and please keep up with the pace here. It's not good to be left behind Sometimes.
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• Perth, Australia
24 Jan 23
@Treborika ok thank you.. Never had anyone tell me to keep up the pace here before. Normally people are telling me it's ok. But ok.
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• Perth, Australia
25 Jan 23
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@Treborika (16957)
• Mombasa, Kenya
24 Jan 23
@VivaLaDani13 It's good to be your brother's keeper. That's what the whole Bible says
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@marlina (154183)
• Canada
25 May 22
I'm so glad that you finally wrote something. And so sorry that things are not going too well for your family right now. Hoping that things will get better soon.
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@marlina (154183)
• Canada
31 Jul 22
Glad that you are back. How is everything now?
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• Perth, Australia
30 Jul 22
@marlina Hey. I am sorry for my late reply. I cannot believe I did this in May. Time has been slipping so quick for me at the moment. Thank you for your lovely comment. I really hope you're doing well!
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• Perth, Australia
6 Aug 22
@marlina Thank you Marlina. Thank you kindly for asking. I don't really know how to answer it. Some more things happened lately that has broken my heart immensely. But I will just say that. But I am trying to sort things out for myself. How are you doing?
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@CarolDM (203478)
• Nashville, Tennessee
24 May 22
Thoughts are with you and your family. I hope things work out and you can keep your home. Hugs to you. No need to apologize. Take care of yourself and stop by when you can.
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• Perth, Australia
31 Jul 22
@CarolDM Sorry for my late response here though. Shocked to see it was back in May when I posted this discussion. Thank you very much for your lovely comment and I hope all is well with you!
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• Perth, Australia
1 Aug 22
@CarolDM oh, is everything alright Carol? Sorry to pry. I haven't been on much to be updated with everyone yet so I am sorry I'm far behind. But I hope you're alright!
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@CarolDM (203478)
• Nashville, Tennessee
31 Jul 22
@VivaLaDani13 A slow recovery here but this too shall pass.
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@Nakitakona (56322)
• Philippines
24 May 22
It is alright. We do understand. You're too busy. You have a lot of things done. Take care.
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• Perth, Australia
31 Jul 22
@Nakitakona Thank you for understanding. Sorry for my late response here. Hope all is well with you.
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@Nakitakona (56322)
• Philippines
1 Aug 22
@VivaLaDani13 That's alright.
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• Perth, Australia
1 Aug 22
@Nakitakona Thank you kindly for understanding. Always much appreciated!
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@Treborika (16957)
• Mombasa, Kenya
30 Jan 23
I sometimes recognise it to be so normally. This is because one cannot keep up in my lot alone as the normal life (offline) life which is more important must continue.
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• Perth, Australia
30 Jan 23
@Treborika Yes very true and well said.
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• Perth, Australia
2 Feb 23
@Treborika Thank you.
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@Treborika (16957)
• Mombasa, Kenya
30 Jan 23
@VivaLaDani13 I have quite understood you
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@JudyEv (323672)
• Rockingham, Australia
24 May 22
It's good to hear you're still around and I'm sorry you have so much going on that is draining your energy.
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@JudyEv (323672)
• Rockingham, Australia
31 Jul 22
@VivaLaDani13 It's no big deal at all. I'll check soon to see if you've put up a discussion. I'm catching up on notifications myself at the moment.
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• Perth, Australia
31 Jul 22
@JudyEv No worries at all. I've not done anything new lately. I'm more wanting to catch up a bit more first. All the best on you catching up. I know how good it feels when feeling more caught up here.
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• Perth, Australia
31 Jul 22
@JudyEv Thank you Judy. I hope all is well with you. I'm sorry for my late response here.
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