Remembering My Son

My photo ... my Son Tommy
@GrannyGee (3517)
Louisburg, North Carolina
November 19, 2022 3:05pm CST
I am remembering my son, my only child, Tommy M Sidden . Tomorrow is his birthday. As I remember him I will place his photos on my Facebook. Don't feel sad for me ... don't think I feel sad for myself. You all who know me know I am not like that. I am remembering the most special part of me that is gone forever. If I cry silent tears it's okay ... tears flow from very real feelings. I dearly loved my son. We were close. I just miss him very much ... I mean I really just miss him. It seems like yesterday I just saw him ... I can still hear his voice in my mind ... his happy, funny laugh. He spoke softly with such a pleasant voice. When he laughed one laughed with him ... his eyes, face were like sunshine warming one's Heart. He loved to pull pranks on his 'Ole Mom' ... sometimes we would begin laughing at something the other said ... then look at each other and begin laughing harder ... sometimes laughing over the silliest things. My son ... I truly was proud of him. I knew one day I would get to tease him about being an 'Ole Son' ... that day didn't come ... it would be now I could tease him. I see how much other women love theirs sons ... I loved mine the same. Sons love to pick on their mothers ... Tommy did me. I could keep writing on and on about my son. I will stop now because I know where the pain is hidden inside myself ... I know how to not open the door to it. I feel the little warning signs to go easy ... there's no reason to go there. Lately I have felt emotional with all the special things happening with Skip ... and knowing I had a beautiful child once too ... tomorrow is his birthday ... November 20th. Don't mind me, I am just remembering thinking how thankful I am to have known my precious son ... I am thankful to have Skip, Camie, and all of you who have cared about me, us. I am most grateful for even the tiniest of things. I am fortunate. I think I may cry just a little, not much ... but not where Skip can see me. My tears are filled with love for what I've lost ... for what I have. It's normal to feel this way sometimes... especially at holidays ... birthdays of our loved ones who are forever gone. So, if you feel sad know I care because we walk the same road. I am here if you ever need to reach out for a moment. Note: I am sharing this from my Facebook at Gloria Faye Brown Bates
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@LadyDuck (463582)
• Switzerland
20 Nov 22
Your son was beautiful. It is fine to open that door, we cannot keep the pain inside us forever, sharing helps to move on.
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
21 Nov 22
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@kaylachan (60721)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
19 Nov 22
It's okay to open the door to that pain and release it from time to time. Time heals all if you let it.
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
20 Nov 22
Yes, you are right.
@crossbones27 (48655)
• Mojave, California
19 Nov 22
Write as long as you want or need and sorry I cried a little bit but that is OK. You made it as positive as you could and I could not just help but smile at that. Amazing people you are to have that happen and still moving world in a better direction. Thank You
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
21 Nov 22
Thank you for making me smile.
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@RebeccasFarm (87091)
• United States
20 Nov 22
Happy Birthday to Tommy. Your son was a beautiful man. RIP
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• United States
21 Nov 22
@GrannyGee Always welcome and thank you too for sharing him with us and letting us see his light too
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
20 Nov 22
Thank you very much.
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
22 Nov 22
@RebeccasFarm You touched my Heart. About the blockages being sneaky... I will write what happened to me soon and how my life was saved just within 2 days of dying.
@RasmaSandra (75209)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
20 Nov 22
That is a wonderful photo. Virtual hugs and many blessings to you. I hope he will have a wonderful birthday beyond the stars,
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@GrannyGee (3517)
• Louisburg, North Carolina
21 Nov 22
Thank you, Rasma.
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