Bits and Pieces

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I had a goal to be more positive and was working on that for about a year. I am doing better. Now I have moved on to loving myself. Learning more about myself and being able to love myself. Doing that means looking back over my life and seeing some dumb things I've done, bad decisions, etc. I have to forgive myself and by doing that I like myself more and am well on the way to really loving myself. Can you admit that there is something in your life that you can't have because you feel you don't deserve it? You don't have the ability or the drive perhaps? A dream or a goal you can't reach? Is there something you don't want to start, continue, or finish because you are afraid to? PTSD- (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)Whoa! It was August of 1996 when I was finally able to escape my ex. My granddaughter, daughter and I left with just a few articles of clothing and moved into a small two-bedroom apartment. The PTSD was horrible. Each and every time there was a knock on the door it would trigger me and I would dash to the other side of the house and crouch down shaking until I was sure it wasn't him. This continued for years. The severity began to decline after 4-5 years. I have recently read some on the subject and, psychiatrists have found that these traumatic events should be labeled as an injury. It is far more serious than was previously thought. All of these negative bits and pieces of what makes each of us who we are has to be dismantled, dislodged, and scraped out of our psyches. It's a job. I am still a work in progress. The image is from my collection.