Probably I'm being stupid

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Back in 2009 and 2010, there were a lot of posts about my marital problems, my decision to divorce, etc. etc. etc. I got a lot of validation back at that time. My ex would do something mean, I'd try and figure out if my perception of things was wrong because i was feeling gaslit, and usually I'd get someone telling me that I was not wrong. After a big blowup where he put the kids in the middle, after which he would not admit that he had a problem, I did decide to divorce him. And other than one guy named Andy, who I don't believe is on the site any more, everyone pretty much agreed with me. I don't really regret my choice. The situation at the time had me mentally in a muddle, and I couldn't handle the kids' sad faces any more. I needed distance. Even his breathing irritated me at that time. I was in another relationship for 11 years, and I ended it because I didn't like how the man treated people. When that one ended, my ex made a point of calling me and telling me he wasn't going to "make a play" for me. "The way is shut". "You shall not pass". lol Then I was in a short relationship that also didn't work out. Since then, I've been single almost 11 months, and I'm almost over the last guy. I really did fall for him, alas, and it took some time. Then along comes the ex husband and makes a comment that has been messing with my head. I had gone up to Arcata to bring Naomi back for winter break, and Dearra went with me. Before heading home, we had an early dinner at a seafood place in Eureka, and I sent the ex a picture of his two girls with the water behind him. He sent a comment back, something about his "three girls enjoying a beach day". Drove home, and sent him a text saying "three girls home safe". Had a rather salacious dream about him, and cannot help wondering if the door is or isn't open just a crack. Probably imagining things. *smacks self